@Firefly3911 I hope the break helps. I'm sorry you can't call your doctor today. Just take the weekend one day at a time and call on Monday. I hope things look up soon.
Eta I'm not sure what you're going through, but if you're feeling very bad, do they have an emergency line or something? Hugs to you.
I'm up, but not because of DD. Beginning of the school year teacher insomnia. I predict a good nap later.
In addition to starting the school year, I have been working to get DD enrolled in a district child care program that will be better for her because she can have speech services on campus rather than getting bused from her preschool (I felt really uncomfortable about her riding the bus by herself at 3--even if it was just kids in her program with a teacher on board.) Also, it is a district teacher service so we will be saving half of what we were paying for her preschool. I hounded people for two weeks, ran all over town getting forms signed and turned in, but it was all worth it because she starts Monday!!!
I hate switching her school again (she only started at her preschool a little over a month ago) but this program is too good to pass up. At least she wasn't attached to her teacher/classmates yet.
@Firefly3911 I went through the same thing with DS. 4am and up for the day (until a nap that was a whopping 30 minutes) at around that age. I don't remember how long it lasted because I was in a state of constant delirium (and 6 months pregnant) but eventually it stopped. But like pp he now wakes around 6am. 6:30 if he's being kind.
I hope he starts sleeping in a little more for you really soon! It's so hard. I completely understand. I had several meltdowns. I'm sure calling your doctor on Monday will help.
@Firefly3911 I hope you can get some help. I haven't had PPD/A but have had general anxiety for a long time. I hope you can talk to your doctor soon and come up with a plan.
Do you do talk therapy or cognitive behavioral therapy at all? It's not a cure by any means, but it has helped me enormously so I thought I'd suggest it. It's not for everyone and I still took medicine for a long time while going, but maybe talking to someone could help. Best wishes to you.
@Firefly3911 I hope the break helps. I'm sorry you can't call your doctor today. Just take the weekend one day at a time and call on Monday. I hope things look up soon.
Eta I'm not sure what you're going through, but if you're feeling very bad, do they have an emergency line or something? Hugs to you.
I went through my OB for PPD before I got pregnant with this one. I thought I'd go back to being that crazy happy pregnant lady. The depression is so bad now that I'm just so angry. At everyone and everything. Even my sweet little girl who is just being a baby. I feel horrifically guilty for being mad at her and then wondering why I'm having a second kid. Guilt, anger, and shame.
I could try calling the OBs after hours line, but I think he knows me well enough that I'd only get back on my meds because I recognize how bad this is.
At this point, the benefit of my pristiq far outweighs the risks to baby boy. I can't be this basket case for 19 more weeks.
Thank you for listening. It means so much.
I wish I had the foresight to seek help earlier with my PPD/PPA. I waited until after my second was born. I had a very scary time after I had my first and a terrible pregnancy with my second. I still have lingering effects of it (kids are 4 and 3) but my meds help.
Hello. LO is up early but thankfully I didn't stay up too late. Still don't feel good from this cold. But at least LO doesn't have snot pouring out his nose, so far at least. No idea what we're doing today. I have to go take a menu test for work. It's like 15 pages. Way too much food.
Harry Styles = Life Ruiner
There’s a lightningin your eyes I can't deny Then there’s me inside a sinkingboat running out of time Without you I'll never make it out alive But I know, yes, I know we’ll be alright
@Bythebeach09 This is what I'm scared of, things getting worse (to what, not sure).
I'm going to try to get out of the house and just goof off today. Maybe hit the mall for a couple of hours. That seems to work for DD. She loves to people watch and interact with everyone.
That's a good idea. It got really bad toward the end of my pregnancy with my second. I was petrified. Thankfully after having her, those initial new baby happy hormones kicked in for a little but then all hell broke loose. The medication made it so I could function. Therapy helps a lot too. I also have generalized anxiety, OCD, and depression, all of which were untreated before kids. Everything amplified after kids.
The best thing is that you recognize something isn't ok.
We are up and I'm tired. She is getting ready to watch Frozen since we can't get Netflix to work on the laptop right now. I'm sad it isn't working because that's how I was going to get some Scandal in later.
I'm trying to get a babysitter tonight again because Cute Dad is having a get together at his house this evening. I wish he'd told me about it before I paid $60 for babysitting last night. Oh, well. I am kinda really nervous about it anyway, so idk if I should even go.
I'm not totally sure how that talk went last night, either. It was weird.
Reese took her medicine this morning---one dose down 11 more to go!
Right now DH is at work, and she is playing Little Mermaid in the bathtub. I love bathtime. I get to sit and bump and watch her but she is playing independently.
I think my MIL may be coming over today. Not sure yet.
What happened sleepy Jesus? Let's analyze it over our coffee.
Idk, man. He said he felt good about how things are going between us, but beyond that it was a slightly odd conversation. I think he's just adorably awkward, but I am a jaded overthinker, and I'm having trouble seeing the forest for the trees in this instance, I think.
@katinhiding this is us today too. Not my fault you stayed up so late for no reason! For some reason I woke up before LO so I don't mind today but it's the principle damnit!
Harry Styles = Life Ruiner
There’s a lightningin your eyes I can't deny Then there’s me inside a sinkingboat running out of time Without you I'll never make it out alive But I know, yes, I know we’ll be alright
Um, he did basically say I was the best lay he's ever had, sooo maybe I'll just focus on that and try to dismiss his slight noncommittal-ness about defining the relationship.
Going to my nephew's bday party this evening. Its at the local skating rink, which is THE happening place for all tweens on a saturday night around here. I can't wait to embarrass my tween with all my stellar skateing & smooth techno dance moves! MOTY!
Really tho, am just praying I don't break anything lol
DS is never going to poop in the potty. I'm convinced of it. And now he's holding it and all constipated. Potty training is the worst parenting thing ever.
DS is 1DAF
"I realize I say the word fuck a lot, and I'd like to apologize but I don't give a shit." -Lewis Black
Feeling good about it is good, but I know what you mean. Did he say he wasn't dating other people? Are you his girlfriend?
::way invested in your life as well::
He said he "pretty much doesn't check Match or eHarmony anymore" so..? I cut to the chase and asked if I was his gf, but he said something like, "I don't know how those labels work... [stammering]... But I mean, I guess I could call you my gf and it would be accurate?"
Feeling good about it is good, but I know what you mean. Did he say he wasn't dating other people? Are you his girlfriend?
::way invested in your life as well::
He said he "pretty much doesn't check Match or eHarmony anymore" so..? I cut to the chase and asked if I was his gf, but he said something like, "I don't know how those labels work... [stammering]... But I mean, I guess I could call you my gf and it would be accurate?"
I just don't know lol
Sounds like he just isn't sure about labels which seems accurate for men sometimes. I would just go with it and keep having fun for a little bit. At least he is dating other people right now
I'm debating on going to the gym or staying here and being lazy. Ahhh decisions.
Harry Styles = Life Ruiner
There’s a lightningin your eyes I can't deny Then there’s me inside a sinkingboat running out of time Without you I'll never make it out alive But I know, yes, I know we’ll be alright
He did ask me if I was going to call him my boyfriend and teased me about the "cute dad" thing... I said something awkward like, "only if you want me to." At that point I was all apologizing for putting him on the spot and told him he didn't have to call me his girlfriend if he didn't want to (all in a sort of joking way).
It was just weird. I'll try to stop yammering about it now lol
We're going to a wedding tonight, which means I get McDonald's fries. Since I'm a vegetarian, I always stop at McD's for a supersize fry on the way to weddings just in case there aren't good vegetarian options...totally reasonable and healthy right?
DS is 1DAF
"I realize I say the word fuck a lot, and I'd like to apologize but I don't give a shit." -Lewis Black
The weather channel is confusing me. They are forecasting showers all day, but the hourly forecast says party cloudy with no rain and it's sunny right now.
I don't know what to do. I just don't feel like fighting the battle to get these two out of the house and onto the beach just to have to turn around and leave.
We're going to a wedding tonight, which means I get McDonald's fries. Since I'm a vegetarian, I always stop at McD's for a supersize fry on the way to weddings just in case there aren't good vegetarian options...totally reasonable and healthy right?
What McDonalds do I go to to get a supersized order of fries? LMK, STAT. They don't do that around here no mo'!
We're going to a wedding tonight, which means I get McDonald's fries. Since I'm a vegetarian, I always stop at McD's for a supersize fry on the way to weddings just in case there aren't good vegetarian options...totally reasonable and healthy right?
Makes sense to me! McD's fries like to brawl with my gal bladder, but you best believe I'd be getting fries from somewhere!
Re: Saturday Spam/Randoms?
Hugs. I hope she starts sleeping later soon.
Eta I'm not sure what you're going through, but if you're feeling very bad, do they have an emergency line or something? Hugs to you.
I hope he starts sleeping in a little more for you really soon! It's so hard. I completely understand. I had several meltdowns. I'm sure calling your doctor on Monday will help.
Do you do talk therapy or cognitive behavioral therapy at all? It's not a cure by any means, but it has helped me enormously so I thought I'd suggest it. It's not for everyone and I still took medicine for a long time while going, but maybe talking to someone could help. Best wishes to you.
~*~*~You're Such A Pretty Melody, I'm Just Another Tattooed Tragedy~*~*~
At least we aren't at home.
Harry Styles = Life Ruiner
There’s a lightning in your eyes I can't deny
Then there’s me inside a sinking boat running out of time
Without you I'll never make it out alive
But I know, yes, I know we’ll be alright
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J. 1.14.13 my reason for breathing
The best thing is that you recognize something isn't ok.
I'm trying to get a babysitter tonight again because Cute Dad is having a get together at his house this evening. I wish he'd told me about it before I paid $60 for babysitting last night. Oh, well. I am kinda really nervous about it anyway, so idk if I should even go.
I'm not totally sure how that talk went last night, either. It was weird.
Harry Styles = Life Ruiner
There’s a lightning in your eyes I can't deny
Then there’s me inside a sinking boat running out of time
Without you I'll never make it out alive
But I know, yes, I know we’ll be alright
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J. 1.14.13 my reason for breathing
::way invested in your life as well::
I fucking hate dating, damn it!
Really tho, am just praying I don't break anything lol
I just don't know lol
Harry Styles = Life Ruiner
There’s a lightning in your eyes I can't deny
Then there’s me inside a sinking boat running out of time
Without you I'll never make it out alive
But I know, yes, I know we’ll be alright
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J. 1.14.13 my reason for breathing
It was just weird. I'll try to stop yammering about it now lol