Pregnant after a Loss

AW: No clue if I just miscarried a twin. ???

So I sorta intro-ed last week when I was hyperventilating about my first u/s. It actually went really well, and the nurse was pretty confident that there were TWO sacs. She could only see a fetal pole in one, but she was pretty sure there were fetal structures in the other, even though it was a tiny bit smaller (apparently this is common?). My betas were doubling very fast--up to a 24 hour doubling rate--so we were surprised, but it made some sense.

So yesterday I had a little bit of bright red bleeding and a lot of cramping. The nurse said to come in for a scan today, and only one sac was visible. That one looked great--lots of good growth, a visible (to her--I have no idea how they make out those fuzzy pictures!) yolk sac and growing fetal pole. But the other sac was gone. She said it either wasn't viable, or it was actually a small bleed that got released and wasn't a sac at all. So I have no idea if I just miscarried a twin or not. I only thought it might be a twin for three/four days, so I hadn't gotten terrible attached or anything, but it's weird not knowing. I also don't trust my body again, so this whole process just got EVEN MORE anxiety ridden.

Twin pregnancies scare the hell out of me, as does having twin infants, so I think I should be relieved, but mostly I don't know what to think or feel. Hoping you ladies would understand.
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***Losses mentioned.*** TTC #1 since May 2012. Me: 37, OH: 41. Ectopic August 2012 => tubal damage. :'(  Stage 1 endo removed June 2013. IVF #1 Oct/Nov 2013: Long Lupron with Gonal-F. 7R, 7M, 7F. 2 txfer@3d. Nothing frozen.  => M/C @ 8 wks. :'( Selected RPL panel all normal. Very hyper and brittle response to stims. IVF #2 (antagonist protocol) Feb 2014 => Converted to IUI (Perfect conditions). BFN. IVF #2.1 w/ new RE June 2014: Antagonist protocol. 33R, 31M, 30F, 19 blasts to test!!! I made it through without crashing!! :) Hats off to Dr. Fancypants!! ET of one 5AB blast. BFN. 13 10 CCS'ed snowflakes! FET #1 PUPO as of 7/29 Betas: 8/7@24, 8/9@97, 8/11@334 (etc.) Two sacs on 8/15, one seen on 8/18 after a bleed. U/s 8/25 (6+3) "perfect": 5.9 mm + HB@120bpm! U/s 9/4 (7+6): 15.9 mm + HB@172 bpm! Please, PLEASE stick this time!!!!
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Re: AW: No clue if I just miscarried a twin. ???

  • Sounds likely that you had a vanishing twin. My doctor suspects that happened with this pregnancy for me, too, because my betas were rising very quickly initially and I had a BFP days before I "should have" according to the size/growth of the baby they could see. It's actually quite common, and should pose no risks to the growing baby. ((hugs))

    DS born 10/22/2008
    DD born 12/23/2014

    m/c @10wks 12/2007
    m/c @4wks 3/2014


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  • Thanks @haleyusf‌ . Did you process it as a loss at all? I just don't know whether to think of this as one.
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    ***Losses mentioned.*** TTC #1 since May 2012. Me: 37, OH: 41. Ectopic August 2012 => tubal damage. :'(  Stage 1 endo removed June 2013. IVF #1 Oct/Nov 2013: Long Lupron with Gonal-F. 7R, 7M, 7F. 2 txfer@3d. Nothing frozen.  => M/C @ 8 wks. :'( Selected RPL panel all normal. Very hyper and brittle response to stims. IVF #2 (antagonist protocol) Feb 2014 => Converted to IUI (Perfect conditions). BFN. IVF #2.1 w/ new RE June 2014: Antagonist protocol. 33R, 31M, 30F, 19 blasts to test!!! I made it through without crashing!! :) Hats off to Dr. Fancypants!! ET of one 5AB blast. BFN. 13 10 CCS'ed snowflakes! FET #1 PUPO as of 7/29 Betas: 8/7@24, 8/9@97, 8/11@334 (etc.) Two sacs on 8/15, one seen on 8/18 after a bleed. U/s 8/25 (6+3) "perfect": 5.9 mm + HB@120bpm! U/s 9/4 (7+6): 15.9 mm + HB@172 bpm! Please, PLEASE stick this time!!!!
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  • (((hugs))) I'm sorry for your unanswered questions, and possible loss of a twin. I can imagine how frustrating it is not knowing.
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  • It sounds like it must feel really confusing. There's no right way to feel about it - but I know dealing with a jumble of emotions can be really hard.

    It's great news that the sac you saw on the scan today had been growing and looks good.
    Baby GIRL born 12/11/14!!
    MC @ 8 wks 7/6/13 - ectopic @ 6 wks 12/28/13

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  • I am sorry you are having a tough time processing what all this could mean. ((HUGS)) 

    Huge congrats on the positive news of growth!

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    ~*~EVERYONE always welcome!!~*~
    TTC #1 since October 2012
    BFP #1 11/22/12 EDD 7/29/13 MMC 1/14/13, D&C 1/16/13
    BFP #2 5/7/13 EDD 1/14/2014 Ectopic discovered 5/21/13, lost left tube
    Referred to RE, blood work done August 2013, AMH 0.27, all else normal, HSG clear
    BFP #3 12/1/13 EDD 8/8/14, MC 12/24/13
    January 2014: RE #2, blood work repeated, homozygous MTHFR c677t, SHG clear
    BFP #4 4/7/14 EDD 12/15/14 Our rainbow was born 12/6/14 at 4:26pm! <3 


  • @pblge -- I didn't really take it as a loss emotionally; I was more concerned about the heartbeat on the screen than I was about the one that wasn't meant to be. Honestly, I think if I had seen two heartbeats and then lost one, it would have been much more emotional.

    DS born 10/22/2008
    DD born 12/23/2014

    m/c @10wks 12/2007
    m/c @4wks 3/2014


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  • (((HUGS)))  As PPs have said, I don't think there is a right or wrong way to feel.  I'm glad the one baby is doing well.

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    TTC since March 2012 
    BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13 
    MMC discovered at 10 weeks (baby measured 9 weeks) D&C on 3/16/13 
    BFP #2  CP on 3/31/14
    BFP #3  8/11/14  EDD 4/22/14
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  • I don't have any advice or info to give just want to offer lots of ((((hugs)))).
    Began trying for a baby January 2012
    BFP 4.25.2013  EDD 1.3.2014  MMC 6.3.2013  D&C 6.19.2013
    BFP 11.3.2013  CP 11.6.2013
    BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014 
  • With my second bfp, I had significant bleeding at 4 weeks (before they would do a scan). We transferred 2 embryos and my gut still tells me that I lost one of them, because at 6.5 weeks we only had 1 sac and 1 heartbeat (which later stopped :(). Just like you, I'll never really know the answer. I mention it occasionally discussing my first loss but I definitely don't put it on the same grieving level of the 2 babies that I know I lost for sure. I think we've had enough heartbreak, so why had more grief if it isn't for sure. I'm sorry this is such a struggle but I'm very glad that you still have a strong growing baby!!
    Our Novel of TTC:

    *Male Factor (low count and low motility), High Prolactin, and Polycystic Ovaries (March 2013)
    *Recurrent Miscarriage testing also revealed high anti-phospholipids & single MTHFR mutation. (Feb 2014) 

    *IVF (07/2013): BFP-Natural Miscarriage @ 5 weeks* <3 Madison Riley <3
    *FET #1 (10/2013): BFN
    *FET #2 (12/2013)- BFP-Missed Miscarriage at 8 weeks <3 Kyle Andrew <3
    *Chromosomes and Karotyping tests were both normal.We lost a healthy baby boy :(
    *FET #3 (04/2014) was cancelled after finding Chronic Endometritis
    *Miraculous BFP July 2014!! (I was taking baby aspirin and Cabergoline to stay regulated while "taking a break from TTC" and waiting to consult with a reproductive immunologist!!!) 

    Our healthy baby girl was born 03/10/15 thanks to daily Lovenox injections and baby aspirin. There are no words for how grateful I am for our rainbow baby. <3
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