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Good morning ladies

I hate to start the morning off like this and I hate even more that I am even writing this. I gave in last night and I tested at 11 DPT (for any newbies that don’t know my story, it is in my siggy). Something in my heart told me it was not going to be positive and to test then so I wouldn’t have to go to work in tears or break my husband’s heart on our anniversary tomorrow when we get our beta. DH and I sat together and prayed before I took the test and afterward I was too scared to even look so my husband had the unfortunate honor. I knew by his expression that it was a BFFN. I knew then that it was over but he wanted me to take another test from a different package (since the other package had been sitting in the cupboard since April 2013) this morning. Yet another BFFN. I think that was the most painful part- hearing the hope drain in his voice and hearing his heart break from the umpteenth time.

I feel shattered and empty but at the same time, I feel normal. I’ve realized just how abnormal and foreign the idea of having a baby has come to be and I hate that I even have that feeling. I have so much anger at my own body. Before I knew that my babies were unhealthy so in my heart and head I was able to eventually justify those losses, but knowing that these embryos were completely healthy but that my body rejected and killed them... I can’t comprehend that. I was able to get pregnant with abnormal embryos, why couldn’t I get pregnant with healthy embryos?? I wish I knew what the future holds, but I know in my gut that it will likely be having to accept life without being a mother.

Like I told my check-in ladies this morning, after 16 months of being on this board, and not anywhere closer to getting my rainbow, I think it is best for me to step back from The Bump. We’re not sure if we want to pursue embryo/egg adoption (if we decide to go that route) and it will likely take us a few years to save up since we have drained our bank accounts doing IVF. I just know I’m not in a good place to give support. I probably haven’t been for a while and I apologize for that. You ladies deserve so much that I just can’t give right now.

For all those on TTCAL now and for friends that have moved onto PGAL and PAL, words can’t describe how much you mean to me. You’ve helped me through the most difficult times in my life and there is nothing that I can say that can express my sincerest gratitude. You’ve encouraged me when I felt hopeless and lost, you’ve understood and shared my deepest fears, and you made me a part of a community when I felt so isolated from the rest of the world. For those that have sent PM’s along my journey, I am so appreciative of you and all your amazing support. You ladies mean the world to me. I’m so thankful that I found this board and I truly, truly thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Please know that I will be thinking of you often and wishing you all the very best. My deepest hope for all of you is that you get your beautiful rainbows. You deserve them and so much more.

 

TTC since April 2012

BFP #1, 10/03/2012 - EDD 6/15/2013 - MMC 11/15/2012 - D&C 01/04/2013

BFP #2, 04/06/2013 - EDD 12/17/2013 - MC 04/19/2013

6/12/2013 Diagnosed with Balanced Translocation (12 & 16)

IVF #1 with PGS: 10/2013: Canceled 9/27/2013 for issues with genetic lab

IVF #1.5 with PGS: 11/16/2013: Canceled. 11 eggs retrieved, 9 mature & 9 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

IVF #2: 1/22/14: Canceled. 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 7 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos

IVF #3 with PGS: 5/10/2014: Switched to FET in July. 10 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized, 2 healthy embryos!

FET #1: 7/31/2014: Transferred 2 nearly perfect (6AA, 6BA) healthy embryos- BFFN

Laproscopy: 10/2014: Healthy uterus

IVF #4: 12/8/2014: Canceled. 17 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 10 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos



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  • eliidaeliida member
    I am so so sorry.
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  • EKGibsEKGibs member
    I'm so sorry, jbasore. You will be missed around here but I totally understand needing to step back. (((((Huge Hugs))))))
    TTC since 4/28/07
    Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
    BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
    Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.

    June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!

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  • ellebelle2384ellebelle2384 member
    I am so sorry.  My heart is breaking for you.  A break sounds like a wonderful idea.  I will be thinking of you. (hugs)
    Me: 31     DH: 33
    Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
    BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
    BFP#2: 5/3/11 - EDD 1/9/12 - DD Born 1/6/12
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    TTC #2 since 12/13
    BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
    BFP#4: MC 5/6/14 at 4w4d - EDD 1/9/15
    BFP#5: MMC discovered 8/4/14 at 9w1d - D&C 8/5/14 - Baby Boy with Trisomy 16 (maternal origin) - EDD 3/8/15
    BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
    IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
    IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
    PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
    FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
    Natural FET 11/4/15 = BFP!
    Beta 9dp5dt = 92

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  • Rocks526Rocks526 member
    Oh no, I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. I will be thinking of your (((hugs)))
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  • TVLilyTVLily member
    I'm so, so sorry love. I am holding you and YH so close to my heart as you begin to find your way in this new chapter. Just know we are always here for you. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Many, many (((hugs))).

    EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
    EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14
    IF Diagnosis: PCOS, MFI 

    Current Cycle: 5 mg Femara/1000mg Metformin + TI = BFP, EDD 4/23/15 Please be our RAINBOW

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  • meredithcarolemeredithcarole member
    I am so very sorry. We will miss you. Please take care of yourself.
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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • CallaLily30CallaLily30 member

    I am so sorry.  My heart is breaking for you and your husband.  This road is so incredibly hard.

    You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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    BFP #1: 1/4/13, EDD 9/8/13, Missed M/C confirmed 2/8/13, Misoprostol

    2013: Three CPs w/ EDDs: EDD 2/10/14, EDD 3/24/14, EDD 6/24/14

    IVF/ICSI #1 (Antagonist) - Jan 2014- 19R, 14M, 11F, 3 penguins (6BB, 4BB, 6BC)  PGD tested- All Normal!

    IVF/ICSI #2 (Antagonist) - Feb 2014 - 23R, 11M, 10F, 1 penguin (3BB) - Another Normal!

    FET #1 - March 26, BFN

    FET #2- Beta #1 (9dp5dt) -332, Beta #2 (11dp5dt) -1027, EDD 1/30/2015, Missed M/C, D&C 6/19/14

    IVF/ICSI #3 (Lupron Down Reg) - Oct 2014 - 38R, 28M, 27F, 20 frozen on day 5, 16 normal penguins!!

    FET#3 - February 1, 2015, Prep begins 1/13

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  • RachaeleighRachaeleigh member
    I'm so sorry about the bfn and this whole damn process. So many ((((hugs))))

    4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
    All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal

    5 IUIs = BFN

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  • skategirl128skategirl128 member
    I am so sorry! My heart is breaking for you. So many big hugs!!!!
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  • uromysuromys member
    I am so sorry! My heart breaks to read your story. I'll be saying prayers for you and YH that you can find peace and comfort. Best wishes and so many (((hugs)))

    DH & I are both 28    Together: 12 years    Married: 09/24/2011

    BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012

    Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12

    BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20

    BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15

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  • rmpar29rmpar29 member
    Oh my dear friend, I'm so very sorry!  There are no words to express how much I wish things were different from you.  You've been such a rock to all of us June ladies and you will be sincerely missed.  I wish I could give you real hugs and a shoulder to cry on.  Please know that I'm here and I will PM you my email if you ever want to talk.  Please know that you are not alone and my heart is breaking for you.  I'm sending you much love and many, many (((HUGS))).  My thoughts will be with you in the days to come and please reach out to me if you ever need anything.  I will always be here for you love!
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
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     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
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  • alm288alm288 member
    I'm so sorry! Reading this breaks my heart for you and YH. I hope you can find peace in whatever you decide. You and YH will be in my thoughts. Take care! ((((Hugs))))
    TTC: Since July 2013
    BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
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  • mara005mara005 member
    ((Hugs)) I'm so sorry

    "Love is what makes pain bearable." - I love you my Angels. 
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    BFP #1: 6/25/09 EDD 2/13/10 @ 6 weeks- Saw HB @ 9 weeks - DS born 2/11/10 (39w5d)
    BFP #2: 2/20/13 EDD 11/4/13 - Saw HB 3/19/13 (7w2d) - MMC discovered 4/13/13 (10w5d) - Est. loss @ 9w3d - D&C 4/14/13
    BFP #3: 12/19/13 (4 w1d) EDD 8/27/14 - 1/1/14 discovered it was ectopic/ tube had burst/ had surgery to remove tube (@ 6 weeks)
    BFP #4: 9/10/14 (3w6d) EDD 5/21/15 - natural MC 9/23/14 @ 5w5d
    BFP #5: 11/23/14 (3w3d) EDD 8/4/15 - Please be our Rainbow!     

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  • herbaveinherbavein member
    love, hugs, and peace to you and your husband. 

    TTC#3: started September 2014; BFP on 10/1/14; EDD 6/10/15
    TTC#2: started June 2014; BFP on 7/22/14; EDD 3/31/5; MC 8/3/14
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  • LizBlueLizBlue member
    Oh love, I am so so sorry. There's not much that makes this better: it's unfair, it's cruel and it's heartbreaking. You are allowed to grieve in any and all ways. Just remember to love yourself, love your partner and love your world when possible. I get the heartache - it's just not fair. I'm thinking of you and sending all the hugs in the world.
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    37 years old, MH is 42
    TTC since 2010; Dx Unexplained Infertility; possible male factor 
    August 2012 through June 2013:  6 IUIs with clomid and trigger shot, all BFNs
    7/2013, Pregnant! Unmedicated--we were on a treatment break
    8/20/13 no heart beat; 8/23/13 d&c
    3/15/14 IVF #1:  Lupron/Follistim/Menopur; ER 3/10 resulting in four transfer grade blastocysts, transferred one pretty blast and froze the remaining three. BFN. 
    Natural FET in May cancelled because the universe hates me my hormones were not cooperating.
    6/24/14 FET #1: transferred two pretty embryos; BFN   
    8/28/14 FET #2: BFP, ended in Chemical pregnancy

    Done with medical intervention and getting used to the idea of CFNBC.  




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  • rslh10rslh10 member
    Oh I am so sorry, lady. Life is not fair. I'm thinking of you and yh and wishing you nothing but the best in life. Big hugs, friend. <3
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    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • blackbird818blackbird818 member
    I'm crying as I type this sweet friend. This is incredibly unfair; I'm heartbroken for you & YH. I am so sorry.

    I will continue to keep you in my thoughts. And am here for you always. Much love and big (((hugs)))

    TTC since Sept 2012
    M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
    AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
    Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
    Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
    BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14

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  • BookishMommaBookishMomma member
    Words can't express how sorry I am. Huge ((hugs))
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    Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007
    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • MBJuneMBJune member
    I am so sorry. ((((Hugs)))) Please take care of yourself.

    Dx: PCOS/Unexplained
    July '13 - Mar '14 - Letrozole and TI - BFN
    April '14 - HSG - All clear - Letrozole, Trigger and IUI - BFP
    May '14 - Miscarriage 5w 3d
    July '14 - Letrozole, Trigger and IUI - BFN

    Aug '14 - Letrozole, Trigger and IUI - BFN

    Sept '14 - Letrozole, Trigger and IUI - BFP

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  • mpiemontmpiemont member
    Sending hugs your way. I am so sorry. Please take care of yourself.
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    DS2 born 2/22/13
    MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
    DD due 5/9/15 Please be our     RAINBOW

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  • Km380Km380 member
    I am so so sorry, my heart breaks for you and YH reading this. This is just so unfair, there really aren't the words. You and YH will be in my thoughts, sending you both so many hugs.

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    Married 6/11/2011

    Me & Hubby: 34

    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

    Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

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  • MrsPhD83MrsPhD83 member
    I am so so sorry. keeping you and YH in my T&P. ((Hugs))
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    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
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  • FrenchteachermamaFrenchteachermama member
    My heart breaks for you and your DH.  We'll be thinking about you and sending you lots of love and prayers.  



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    TTC #3 since June 2013
    BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
    BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
    IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!!  Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
    FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
    Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
    3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
    Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
    2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized.  Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
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  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] member
    I am so sorry. My heart hurts for you and DH. Sending thought and prayers your way as you navigate through whatever comes next for you. ((Hugs))
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  • katib77katib77 member
    I am so sorry J. If you need to talk to someone about CFNBC feel free to pm me.
    Grab a hold of your husband tight these next few days.

    TTC since July 2009. Dx MFI & LPD. 
    IUI#1&2&3 (2011 & 2012) BFN
    IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
    IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
    IVF w/ICSI Oct. 2, 2012 - 13R, 11M, 7F, 1 frozen blast 4BB grade - - - FET Nov 15, 2013
    BFP! Beta 1:104 @ 10dp6dt, Beta 2:178 @ 12dp6dt,  beta 3:366 @ 14dp6dt
    Saw heartbeat twice before missed M/C at 8w3d on 12/27/13, missing my little angel boy
    JUNE 2014 IVF#2;  5R, 2M, 1F Three day transfer 6/7.  Beta 6/18 - BFN
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  • merc5411merc5411 member
    I am so incredibly sorry. I wish I could offer you more comfort. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself. Huge hugs.



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  • stinybeanstinybean member
    I'm so very sorry. I wish there were better words than that to say. Please take care of yourself. T&P for you and YH. ((((HUGS))))
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  • mrsjg2013mrsjg2013 member
    My heart is breaking for you and your husband.  This is just so unfair!  Take care of yourself.  ((HUGS))
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  • Giants721Giants721 member
    I am so so sorry. My heart breaks for you and your husband. Hugs.
    Married since July 2012
    TTC #1 since April 2013
    BFP #1 9.16.13 / EDD 5.26.14 / Natural miscarriage 7w4d


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  • MrsG80inTNMrsG80inTN member
    My heart hurts for you girl.  Know that I am holding you close to my heart today and thinking of you.  So many hugs.

    Me 35 / DH 36
    TTC since 09/2009
    Hashimoto's diagnosis 11/2011 / Endometriosis removal surgery 04/2013
    Other diagnosis: 1 mutation - PAI-1 gene
    BFP#1 9/27/2013  /  EDD 6/4/14  /  MC 10/17/2013
    BFP#2 3/4/14  /  EDD 11/13/14  /  CP
    BFP#3 6/7/14  / EDD 2/16/15  /  CP
    BFP #4 11/7/2014 / EDD 7/17/15  /  CP
    Current  Plan: Waiting to change RE... Appt on 1/16
    RXs: Metformin, Levothyroxin, Baby Aspirin, CoQ10, Vitamin D, Folic Acid, Pre-natal. Progesterone post O.

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  • MSU_Girl1202MSU_Girl1202 member
    Oh sweetie, I am so so sorry. My heart just breaks for you!! Sending you so so many hugs and just know well be here if you come back
    Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
    08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
    10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
    04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
    05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
    03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
    4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
    5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
    7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
    9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d      
    10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
    2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
    3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
    6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
    2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
    3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
    6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
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  • CheesyPeasCheesyPeas member
    My heart absolutely breaks for you.  I am so sorry. ((hugs)) 
    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

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  • RustyGirl3RustyGirl3 member
    So many ((((HUGS)))) for you love.

    I wish I could give you a real one.  I am so sorry.
    "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart." ~ Helen Keller

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    DD#2- Pumpkin ~ Due 9/29/2010 Arrived 10/1/2010
    ~ BFP: 6/12/2013 EDD: 2/21/2014 NT Scan: 8/5/2013 (11w3d) MMC D&C: 8/8/2013 ~

    ~BFP: 3/15/2014 EDD: 11/24/2014 CP 4 weeks 4 days ~

    ~BFP: 7/2/2014 EDD: 3/15/2015 CP 4 weeks ~

    ~BFP: 8/31/2014 EDD: 5/10/2015

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  • Poppy715Poppy715 member
    My heart breaks for you. This is such a prime example of life not being fair. I don't understand it. I'll be thinking of you. You will be missed here. I'm so very sorry about your results. ((hugs)) to you and your H.

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     and GBCB

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    BFP 8/2/12 EDD 4/9/13 Addie was delivered 1/4/13 at 26 weeks due to Eclampsia  

    BFP 9/15/14 EDD 5/28/15 Please be our R A I N B O W take home baby BOY
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  • O2girlO2girl member
    Oh no!!! My heart is breaking for you and YH! There just aren't any words. So many (((((((((hugs))))))))) to you and YH
    Me: 38
    DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant

    DH: 34
    MFI due to Testicular Cancer

    Married March 2012 <3
    IVF w/ICSI #1
    10 little polar bears
    FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN :(
    FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
    Beta 1= 276
    Beta 2= 662
    4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
    5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
    5/3/14 ~ D&C
    FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
    October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
    Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y



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  • gscovillegscoville member
    edited August 2014
    I'm so very sorry you find yourself in this place, please accept all the love and ((((hugs)))) I can offer you! You will be sorely missed around these parts, please take care of your beautiful self.


         

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    Married August 2012. Me: 41  DH: 42 
    Daughter from previous marriage: 20

    BFP 12/19/12: Ectopic discovered at 8 weeks, right tube removed 01/18/13
    June 2013 Testing Results: Progesterone: 31.7, LH: 5, FSH: 5, Estradiol: 161
    Clomid cycles Nov. 2013 and Jan, Feb, and March 2014

    TTC journey over as of the end of October 2014

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  • Lesliem0901Lesliem0901 member
    My heart hurts for you...keeping you and your DH in my thoughts. Big hugs.
    Siggy Warning


    TTC#1 since June 2012

    Dx: Unexplained Infertility / AMA

    BFP after 4th IUI cycle with Gonal F + Ovidrel on March 2014 | EDD 12/7/14 | MMC on 4/14/14 

    IUI#5 with Gonal F and Ovidrel trigger on 6/6 - BFN

    On to IVF #1 with a new RE. Started Gonal F and Menopur on 8/15.  Added Ganirelix on 8/24. Trigger on 8/26 for ER on 8/28. 8R 7M 3F.  Transferred all 3 on 8/31. BFP on 9/11 | EDD 5/20/15 - Beta #1: 56.7. Beta #2: 97. Beta #3: 1148. Beta #4: 3559. Beta #4: 7678. MMC confirmed on 10/13. D&C on 10/14 at 9w. Confirmed male with Trisomy 14.

    On to IVF #2 in March. CCS Testing on 2 embies. No go. Waiting to start IVF #3 in July. Surprise BFP on 6/14! EDD - 2/20/16 - Beta #1: 121.4. Beta #2: 236.4. Beta #3: 2014.

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  • beckynsean11beckynsean11 member
    My heart is breaking for you & YH. Sending lots of love to you.

       Me: IR-PCOS, elevated DHEAs, low progesterone, weak ovulation  DH: low volume, low T
    SHG 5/10/13: both tubes blocked; HSG 6/28 = Left tube cleared! Right blocked.
    BFP#1 7/20/13 EDD 3/30/14, m/c 8/19/13, D&E 8/21/13, Chromosomal results = normal, female
    Lap & hysteroscopy scheduled for 10/31, right tube cleared, no endo found! ...Happy Halloween!
    Cycle 14: Clomid (50)+ IUI = BFP! EDD 9/16/14~ Rowan Elizabeth born sleeping at 17w4d on 4/12/14 due to IC.
    ~There is no foot too small that it cannot leave an imprint on this world~
    New RE June 2014. RPL b/w - negative. SIS looking for uterine/cervical abnormalities & Asherman's 6/10/14 - ALL CLEAR!  
    Cycle 16: Natural IUI = CP, Cycle 17: Femara (2.5) + IUI = BFN, Cycle 18 Femara (5) + IUI = BFFN, Cycle 19: Break
    Cycle 20: Clomid (50)+ IUI = BFP EDD 6/20, transvaginal cerclage 12/19, Carson Quinn born sleeping at 16w3d on 1/6/15 due to IC
    Phone consult with Dr. Haney (Univ of Chicago) for transabdominal cercalge scheduled for 2/9/15.
    "We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams."
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  • RedTwizzlersRedTwizzlers member
    Oh j. I am so sorry to see this post. My heart is breaking for you. All of this is so incredibly unfair. I'm here if you want to talk. While I am not at the end my journey I share a lot of your thoughts. ((((Huge hugs))))

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    TTC #1 since Sept 2011
    BFP#1 1/31/12. Empty sac discovered 3/5/12. MTX due to location in uterine horn.
    BFP#2 2/27/13. Empty sac confirmed 3/20/13. Mifepristone + Cytotec.
    Operative hysteroscopy to remove septum 9/18/13.
    BFP #3 12/24/13. Natural m/c 1/17/14.
    BFP #4 3/20/14. Natural m/c 4/3/14.

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