Hello, let me introduce myself first..
For the first 30 years of my life, everything was smooth and worry-free. I was my parents’ most beloved child, found my true love in college, and happily married him after graduation.
At work, I was my boss’s most valued employee. Whenever I was in charge of a project, colleagues would inevitably say, “Oh, then I’m totally at ease.” I was constantly named “Employee of the Year,” with generous bonuses every year.
Later, I started my own business. Within just three months, I had broken into the market and started making money. By the fifth month, I was earning twice my previous salary. Growth was steady month after month. Right when the business needed more hands, I serendipitously met an amazing partner, and the company reached a whole new level.
Really, it seemed like at every step, whatever I needed, a pair of hands would always place it right in front of me, just in time.
My Two Girls: Ellie & Mia
Meet Ellie, My Firstborn
In 2020, my husband and I decided to have a child. After trying for over a year, we finally got the news in 2021 that a little one was on the way. In 2022, we welcomed our first child, Ellie. She made me a mother.
She is utterly adorable—big eyes, rosy skin, chubby little hands. Every time I look at her, I can’t help but give her a kiss. She is pure joy, and I love her more each day.
But as a first-time mom, I faced unprecedented difficulties. The postpartum tearing wouldn’t heal, and the pain was excruciating. Clogged milk ducts made my breasts hard as rocks. The severe sleep deprivation… And what was even more crushing was that, with zero parenting experience, I was clueless when faced with her unexplained wailing, night terrors, refusal to nurse, constipation, diarrhea, fevers… I desperately searched online, longing for one accurate, truly useful answer!
It was during this time that I thought, once I make it through this “dark” path, I must leave a light on for other new moms.
And Then Came Mia
Ellie had just turned one when I got pregnant again. In 2024, we welcomed our second daughter, Mia.
Completely different from Ellie, Mia is a great eater and sleeper. Although she had her fussy moments in the first two months, starting almost from month three, she became super easygoing. She feeds on schedule, gradually sleeps through the night, loves her solid foods, and adapted quickly when I had to stop breastfeeding due to mastitis.
This made me realize just how vastly different babies can be! It made me even more determined to write about my experiences.
Why I Had to Start This Blog
The Catalyst: A Life Pivoted
After Mia was born, my business also began to decline sharply. I had no choice but to close it and become a full-time mom. My work no longer involves Excel and Word, but instead revolves around changing diapers, washing bottles, making baby food, and managing household chores…
This has been a monumental challenge for me. All my past achievements seem irrelevant now. Managing two young children has brought me a sense of frustration I’ve never known before.
The Daily Reality
They are always fighting over things. When one is in my arms, the other immediately demands to be held too. When I try to cook, Ellie wants me to read her a book. When I attempt to load the washing machine, Mia has a diaper blowout, and I must drop everything to change her…
By the time I finish all that, I see the cup of hot coffee on the table has gone cold again. And it’s not until evening that I remember, “Oh my goodness, the clothes are still in the hamper, unwashed!”
Of course, being a mom is filled with happiness, but that doesn’t negate how hard it is.
My Promise to You
Because I’ve walked this path myself, I won’t just tell you how joyful motherhood is, like many websites do. I want to share my real, unfiltered experiences so every new mom can find a “companion” here.
I want to tell you: you are not alone. What you’re going through, I’ve been there too. Your breakdowns, your helplessness, your moments of losing control—I’ve had them all. You don’t need to feel guilty. This is just a small, necessary stretch of the journey for every mom.
My Hope for This Space
I really want to share my parenting experiences—not just the warm, glowing moments, but to honestly document the pitfalls I’ve stumbled into, the tears I’ve shed, and the “survival wisdom” I’ve scraped together in utter exhaustion.
The Goal: A Mom’s Toolkit
I hope this blog becomes a “mom’s toolkit,” filled not with vague theories, but with:
- Practical Tips: Like how to quickly figure out why a baby is crying, tried-and-true methods for dealing with clogged ducts, or how to efficiently manage the daily grind with twins (or two under two) solo.
- Pitfall Avoidance Guides: Sharing the baby products I regret buying the most, and those “game-changer” parenting hacks. Letting you know which parenting anxieties you can let go of, and which principles are worth holding onto.
- A Community for Moms: I hope my stories connect me with more moms like you. We can cheer each other on in the comments, share our own tricks, turning the storms we face alone into a journey we walk together.
The Bigger Vision
My previous career taught me to analyze data, solve problems, and optimize processes. Now, I’m applying all those skills to this new “position” of Mom. I want to prove that a mom’s value is absolutely not confined to the home. The mindset, resilience, and creativity we built in our careers can shine just as brightly—perhaps even brighter—in this more complex, long-term “project” of raising humans, and can even be transformed into a force that helps others.
My hope is simple: that every mom who opens this blog can let out a sigh of relief and say, “So it’s not just me.” Then, she can find a bit of practical info, a dose of comforting solidarity, and return to her sweet, chaotic mom-life with a little more confidence and a little less weight on her shoulders.
This road? Let’s walk it together.
Re: First Tri Check-in (8/5)
Most of the reality shows on Bravo
Married August 2003
EDD/Week/Fruit:
Week 8, raspberry
Worries (rational or irrational):
I feel fat and hideous, and now I have anxiety about my body image. I can't get the bloat under control, most of my clothes don't fit, and I don't want to have sex at all as a result. It's dumb, but I can't wait to announce so I can be like "I'm not fat, I'm pregnant!"
Appointments scheduled:
Next OB appt scheduled for 9/04. I had to switch docs because I found out my old one (same doc who refused to see me when I was bleeding) scheduled a genetic test via telling me they were scheduling my second tri ultrasound. Jerks.
Upcoming milestones/Loss dates
My last loss was at 8 weeks, so if I get to week 9, I am officially past my milestone. It's intimidating as heck.
QoTW: Do you have a TV show that you watch that you are embarrassed about?
I love a really campy show from the 90s called Forever Knight. Yes it's awful, no I will never stop loving it.
EDD/Week/Fruit: still 3/21/15! 7w3d blueberry
Worries (rational or irrational) hmm now that I'm settling into pregnancy I'm noticing more that my symptoms are more mild. Scared me at first but I am learning it's okay to have mild symptoms
Appointments scheduled first OB is 8/11
Upcoming milestones/Loss dates I just want to make it through the the next five weeks that's all really
QoTW: Do you have a TV show that you watch that you are embarrassed about? I love watching honey boo boo!!
EDD/Week/Fruit- 3-8-15/ 9 weeks / Green Olive/Grape
Nov'12- Started TTC
Sept-Dec'13- HSG, 2 IUI's, DX PCOS
Jan '14- IUI#2=BFP!!
Mar '14- M/C @ 8w2d when I should've been 9 weeks. D & C 3/7/14
May'14- Started Pregnitude
June'14- BFP! (Naturally!!) Beta #1 (4w2d)=78, Beta #2 (4w4d)=219, Beta #3 (5w0d)=785
EDD/Week/Fruit: 2/22/15, 11w, Lime
Worries (rational or irrational): just some pre-appointment jitters as I'm a week out...but no serious PgAL brain thankfully!
Appointments scheduled: I go for my 12w next Tuesday. DH and I are excited to get to hear the HB on the doppler. DH missed the u/s appointment at 8w, so he's ready for another update.
Upcoming milestones/Loss dates: thankfully we are past these...hoping for no new ones!
QoTW: Do you have a TV show that you watch that you are embarrassed about? Since we got rid of cable, I don't really have too many shows that I watch. I am a bit of a Golden Girls junkie, but I'm not embarrassed about that!!
@footprint - I'm a boob grabber too. If I don't actively notice them hurting, I will grab one just to be sure they are still tender. Maybe I should let the DH do it since they are otherwise off limits right now!
@Peledreamsofrain - hang in there, I was at the same point at 8w. The bloat has since gone down for me! Although, yesterday I was telling a friend that I just want to "look pregnant" already, because right now I just feel like I'm fatter. If that's the worst of my worries though, I'll take it!
Both of you have big weeks to get past your loss milestones! I will be thinking good thoughts for you both and hoping that your PgAL brains don't get the best of you this week.
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
So happy that your appointment went so well and that baby is measuring ahead! It seems like you have a good plan for the month ahead.
I don't know if you have watched Dance Moms for a few seasons, but there used to be a woman on there who called herself "Black Patsy." Someone I am very close with works with her and I guess she is fucking crazy.
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Oh and that totally is me squishing my boobs all the time!
Married August 2003
And thanks for the kind words!
EDD/Week/Fruit - 2/21/14, 11.5 weeks, lime
Worries (rational or irrational) same as usual, just fearing the nt ultrasound. Also, I had a virus this week and I have been taking my temperature like every hour to make sure I don't have a fever cause I heard its dangerous in the first tri. lol things like this make me feel so crazy.
Appointments scheduled- my nt is Monday 8/11.. It's finally almost here and I'm so nervous !
Upcoming milestones/Loss dates- past all my milestones for this pregnancy! Still so worried but feeling hopeful and getting excited
QoTW: Do you have a TV show that you watch that you are embarrassed about? Oh man I have a few.. I watch silly shows made for teens like the fosters on abc family lol and bad reality like the kardashians even though I hate them!
Me (30) DH (31) Married 5/13, TTC since 2/13
BFP # 3, EDD 2/21/15 * please be our rainbow*BFP #1 Blighted Ovum resulting in D&C on 11/1/13
BFP #2 Ectopic Pg, lap surgery on 3/12/14, R tube removed
Married August 2003
MMC April 2014 at 6w2d, D&C at 9 weeks
MMC August 2014 at 9w1d, D&C at 12 weeks
CP October 2014
My Ovulation Chart
Hello ladies! Work has been keeping me so busy this week, but I still lurk to help stay positive.
What is the AFP test? IT's awesome that your doctor is so thorough. Do you know already if the ninjas are fraternal or identical? Is there any way to tell in twutero (ha!) if they are identical or fraternal aside from their sex? I am sorry that you are scared of (grownup) sex. I am so, so, so ready to be done with pelvic rest. So ready.
I love Boy Meets World! I was just talking to someone about the rave episode of 90210, where they had to bring the egg to the gas station (at least that is how i remember it).
Married August 2003
Somehow I missed the Kardashian phenomenon until like three years into their show, otherwise, I am sure I would be addicted to it!
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Married August 2003
Here's my check-in although I'm officially in my 2nd tri now
EDD/fruit/ week: jan 30, Lemon, 14wks 5days
Worries: the time has come to share our news with our family- I'm already overwhelmed by the idea of DH family bombarding me/him with their unsolicited opinions and thoughts! I've been trying to think of a delicate & tasteful way of letting them know not to harrass us about our many appointments and doctor recommendations- as we trust my doctors know what's best and not them!
Appointments: 15wk appt Friday, a little nervous, but I am 99.9% sure I've been feeling fluttering so that's a good sign!!
Upcoming milestones: 2nd trimester!
QoTW: gossip girl- don't judge! I'm hooked! Every season is on netflix!
No judgement here, I watch all of the Real Housewives shows, so I lost my right to judge anyone.
Married August 2003
He explained that it was pretty much just confirmation, but I haven't even googled it yet! My last pregnancy didn't make it far enough to even consider testing, so this is all new to me.
I've pretty much given up on TV. I read junk novels or dither around on the internet instead.
Married August 2003