So, the month of July was (again) the longest month of my life. After finding out we were pregnant for the fourth time at the beginning of July, I went in for a scan at what would have been 6 weeks and there was no indication of a baby. I had some bleeding and then my RE did another scan and only found blood clots. I denied a DnC initially because I thought it would pass naturally and I had my blood work done. My levels kept increasing so there was another scan and low and behold a baby with a heart beat. Well, about a week later I went back to find growth, but no heartbeat at 7 weeks. So, I went from being pregnant, to having nothing in my ute, to having a baby with a heartbeat, to having a DnC tomorrow afternoon.
I may not be as active right away, but this is really the only safe place I have right now in my life and I trust you ladies so very much. I hope to get myself back together within the next few weeks and be "back to normal" soon. I honestly don't know what I do without this amazing group of ladies and I just want to say...I will be around and then hopefully back in full force soon. I'm benching DH and I until the first of the year because I a) need to break this pregnant in November, July, November, July schedule we have had the past two year and b) I don't want to ruin another holiday season and birthday for myself.
Lots of love, ladies! Now some cuddling lions because, seriously, all I want to do is cuddle:
"Once you are real, you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always." ~ The Velveteen Rabbit
*8.3.13* mc @ 6-7 weeks {natural mc at 12 weeks}
*3.14.14* mc @ 5-6 weeks DnC {blood clotting disorder discovered}
*8.7.14* mc @ 6 weeks DnC {uterine septum removed March '14)
*3.17.15* mc @ 7 weeks DnC {genetic testing & meeting with a new RE in Jan '15} *8.31.16* mc @ 8 weeks DnC {genetic testing, new medications upon next pregnancy} *7.17.16* praying everyday for my rainbow baby {progesterone supplements, blood thinning injections}
Oh sweet lady, I am so sorry for the roller coaster! We're all here to cuddle the shit out of you, and be here to support you. I sending you big hugs, and lots of good vibes for tomorrow. Once again, I'm so so sorry.
Me: 38 DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant DH: 34 MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012 IVF w/ICSI #1 10 little polar bears FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!! Beta 1= 276 Beta 2= 662 4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel 5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel 5/3/14 ~ D&C FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014 October 13, 2014 ~ BFN Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL Animals Interacting with Snow
3/20/14 Fetal Demise 20 wks F/L 17 wks D&E attempted 3/21/14 & 3/22/14 Born Still 3/23/14 I love you B.T.
"Sometimes you try your hardest, but things don't work out the way you want them to." –Nani (Lilo & Stitch)
“All I can say is, it's a sort of kinship, as though there is a family tree of grief. On this branch, the lost children, on this the suicided parents, here the beloved mentally ill siblings. When something terrible happens, you discover all of the sudden that you have a new set of relatives, people with whom you can speak in the shorthand of cousins.” ― Elizabeth McCracken
8/2014 FET 8/7/14 Transferred 1 5-day blast (4AA): BFN
TTCAL September Siggy Challenge: Animals in Clothing
I am so sorry, my friend. I completely understand needing to take a backseat but wanting to still be a part of the community. Your new plan sounds solid. I hope that you are able to heal. I have been thinking of you nonstop.
Me (34); DH (35)
BFP 11/25/13; Heard strong heartbeats for 3 weeks; Natural MC (1/15/14)
I'm so sorry you find yourself back here. Lots of hugs to you.
Yelena + Rubere Married: 05/13/2011 TTC since 2012 BFP#1~ EDD: 06/21/2014 ~ TFMR --Holoprosencephaly Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks.We miss our baby girl "J" My Chart
I'm so sorry you find yourself back here again. I hope you find the comfort and support you need while you heal. I hope everything goes smoothly for you tomorrow. ((hugs))
BFP 3/30/13, MMC and D&C 4/19/13 BFP 4/8/14, MMC 5/5/14, D&C 5/9/14 BFP 8/26/14 Due date 5/8/15
Oh my god Lia I am so so sorry. I had no idea you were going through this. It's not fair. Sending you all of my love, hugs, and healing. I'm here for you.
IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!! Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized. Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
I am so very sorry for your losses, and especially for this emotional roller coaster you have been on recently. Welcome back to the board. ((hugs))
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013 TTC since March 2014 BFP#1 5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14 BFP#2 9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP BFP#3 12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2
Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back Stalk my ute
Re: The Rollercoaster is over and I'm back (loss mentioned)
DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
DH: 34
MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012
IVF w/ICSI #1
10 little polar bears
FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
Beta 1= 276
Beta 2= 662
4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
5/3/14 ~ D&C
FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
Animals Interacting with Snow
BFP #1 7/6/2012, EDD 3/13/2013, Delivered 3/14/2013
BFP #2 1/7/2014: EDD:9/14 MC: 1/9/2014 (confirmed via blood work)
BFP #3 7/5/2014: EDD 3/11/2015 MC: 7/15/2014
BFP #4 11/7/2014: EDD 7/17/2015~~Please be my RAINBOW!
My Chart
All are Welcome!
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN
Me (34); DH (35)
BFP 11/25/13; Heard strong heartbeats for 3 weeks; Natural MC (1/15/14)
BFP 11/11/14 EDD 07/21/15 hoping for our rainbow!
TTC since 2012
BFP#1~ EDD: 06/21/2014 ~ TFMR --Holoprosencephaly
Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
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BFP 4/8/14, MMC 5/5/14, D&C 5/9/14
BFP 8/26/14 Due date 5/8/15
BFP #1: 6/25/09 EDD 2/13/10 @ 6 weeks- Saw HB @ 9 weeks - DS born 2/11/10 (39w5d)
BFP #2: 2/20/13 EDD 11/4/13 - Saw HB 3/19/13 (7w2d) - MMC discovered 4/13/13 (10w5d) - Est. loss @ 9w3d - D&C 4/14/13
BFP #4: 9/10/14 (3w6d) EDD 5/21/15 - natural MC 9/23/14 @ 5w5d
BFP #5: 11/23/14 (3w3d) EDD 8/4/15 - Please be our Rainbow!
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
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TTC #1 since June 2012
Current Status: IVF with ICSI and PGS
Genetic, RPL, SA and Fertility testing = Normal/Good HSG = All Clear
BFP #1 12.30.2012 || Blighted Ovum 02.05.2013 || D&C 02.11.2013
BFP #2 09.10.2013 || c/p 09.12.2013
BFP #3 12.1.2013 || mm/c 01.15.14 || D&C 01.21.14 chromosome abnormality
May 2014: Residual HCG and retained tissue found
05.13.2014: Hysteroscopy D&C to find and remove retained tissue
June 2014: Tissue sample results indicate a partial molar pregnancy
May - Aug 2014: TTA for monitoring and testing
08.21.2014: Hysteroscopy to remove minor scar tissue - the result of 3 D&Cs
Sept/Oct: IUI #1 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
Oct/Nov: IUI #2 Femara + Ovidrel = BFN
Nov/Dec: IUI #3 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
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PgAL welcome
Married 6/11/2011
Me & Hubby: 34
TTC journey started 12/2012
BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks
BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)
Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.
Also have hypothyroidism
Started TTC again 12/2013
IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN
IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN
Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
BFP#1 Oct/19/13, EDD June/27/14, MC began Dec/4/13 at 10w5d, sac measured 6w1d - blighted ovum, Misoprostol Dec/13/13 - nothing, bleeding, slow declining HCG, D&C Feb/6/14, HCG <1 Feb/18/14
My Ovulation Chart
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
DH & I are both 28 Together: 12 years Married: 09/24/2011
BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012
Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12
BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20
BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15
Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
TTC since March 2014
BFP#1 5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
BFP#2 9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
BFP#3 12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2
Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
Stalk my ute
My Blog
BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
**All AL Welcome**
THE DARK SIDE IT IS
and GBCB
BFP 8/2/12 EDD 4/9/13 Addie was delivered 1/4/13 at 26 weeks due to Eclampsia
BFP 9/15/14 EDD 5/28/15 Please be our R A I N B O W take home baby BOY
~All AL always welcome~
Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
My Ovulation Chart
TTC since March 2012
BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13
BFP #3 8/11/14 EDD 4/22/14
8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)
-5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)
11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13
8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF
IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties
12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!! One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15
Everyone Welcome.
EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14
IF Diagnosis: PCOS, MFI
Current Cycle: 5 mg Femara/1000mg Metformin + TI = BFP, EDD 4/23/15 Please be our RAINBOW
**ALL AL/IF Welcome**
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