Sorry,
@caseinpoint i know you always start this!! But I just had to- anxious how everybody is doing?? I know there is the FB group now, but there are some who have not given their SNs, so I for one am at a loss of who they are. Also, I know we said we were going to keep this up as well? How is everyone doing? I'm sure we are all either a. Busy b. Super super busy c. Feeling better or worse? and that is why this thread has been dead and FB group very scarce. I know not everyone has FB so it would be nice to hear from others on here. How goes it girls??
Re: PPD/PPA- Check In!
Sounds like so far everyone has some positive things going on, awesome!
Love date night sushi!!! We are trying to budget cause we need a new car, but the next time we have dinner out it will be sushi for sure
Things are pretty good over here...meds working very well and all are pretty calm. Baby's still not STTN-I just feel hopeless about that sometimes and think that she never will. I keep reading that someone wrote how either u have a good sleeper or not and I'm afraid while we don't have a "terrible sleeper" she's still not where I would like her to be. That still stresses me out and makes me worry for her growth and well being. Like sometimes my mind wanders to the what ifs concerning her and then I quickly distract myself so I don't go there. I am trying SO hard to let it go.
Nothing's really bad with DH, but we did have our 5 year anniversary (we did get to go out to the restaurant where we had our first date which was so nice), but I didn't even get a card. Was pretty pissed for a couple weeks at how thoughtless he can sometimes be. This may sound petty, but he has a history w not doing things I need from him. Has anyone ever read the 7 love languages? If you did, you'd understand mine are gifts and words of affirmation. He basically doesn't "speak" that to me, although I do my best to "speak" his. Ongoing issues there, but u guess bc of my anxiety it has seemed worse lately and I take everything more to heart.
Id say I'm 95% myself nowadays. I guess normal stuff still bothers me and some days are worse than others still. Not in that dark place anymore, which
I'm thankful for.
@lincbeesmom LOVE sushi! So glad you got to go out. Those times can be rare, so they to do it more often. If I could go back in time, I would try to do it once a month, so I urge this for you. Makes a HUGE difference. It's just not the same as hanging out on couch together bc you don't have any distractions being outside your home. Kudos to you!
@Miliska ugh u know how you feel about husbands being away for a week at a time!! It sucks! ESP with the shots. I feel so much for you-happened to me during our 4 month shots. I always just tried to keep busy, busy, busy. One more day to go! You can do this!!!
@Sanibel21 Yey for more therapy! If you click with him/her it will only get better here on out! Also, yes, sleep deprivation worsens everything IMO!!! Here's hoping it continues to get a little better every day!
@younglove316 love your new sn! Good luck w house stuff!! Soon it will all be behind you and you will be happier! There is always a light at the end of the tunnel!
@Kalpa521 ugh-me too with pp periods! So much bleeding-yikes!!
Highs:
* LO was in a very good mood today. I think maybe her latest "wonder week" is passing.
* We started LO on solids this week and she now loves sweet potatoes. It's so great to see her so excited about them. We're probably going to go to Whole Foods tomorrow and get some new veggies for her to try.
* (I guess this is a High?) DH and I talked more about my feelings, and I think we finally both agree that maybe I should see a therapist for some extra help getting past my feelings related to my C-section, failure to BF, and often feeling like a crappy mom. I made clear I really want to avoid drugs if I can at all help it.
Lows:
* I mentioned in the last thread how I was struggling with feelings of depression/jealousy in relation to my friend who just had a baby, and got the birth she wanted and was able to BF. While I'm doing better than I was, I'm still struggling with those feelings, especially since her husband keeps posting on FB bragging about how everyone told him having a baby would be tough but he's gotten to catch up a ton of TV since the baby was born. We struggled so much in the beginning (my H helped a ton while I was recovering from the CS), and most of what I remember of the beginning of LO's life are those struggles, so his posts make me kind of frustrated. I haven't gotten the chance to talk with my friend directly since the baby, because I just feel generally bummed, and I wonder if she is really doing as well as her H's posts make it out. :-/
* I'm trying to work from home 10 hrs/week, but I really think it isn't working out. LO still isn't on a set nap schedule, and when she's awake I don't want to leave her sitting somewhere so I can work. And honestly, when she is napping the last thing I want to do is work. I keep getting more behind on my work and I feel guilty about that. My mom was supposed to help out with watching LO, but she hasn't been able to help out as much as we originally thought, and I think the whole thing is adding to my stress/anxiety. I've brought it up to my H multiple times and while he has said I can quit, I can tell he's disappointed about it. We don't really need the income, but it was nice to have and things will be tighter without it. The feeling that he'll be disappointed in me if I quit is what has kept me from doing it so far. :-/