I feel awful because I'm running on little- no sleep because of a sick child and I have a feeling this is why I blew up. So I guess this is more or less a post asking for some reassurance that other mommies go through these problems too.
Background info- when we started TTC with #1 I said I don't just want 1 kiddo and only want to have 2- no more. He was fine with that. Now that we have an almost 1 year old I have kind of started hinting about when do we want to try for the 2nd, in a few months or next year. He keeps saying we don't need anymore because he's too much work the way it is. Our child is a normal healthy(except for the last 2 days) child- no allergies, special needs, other problems. In fact he is very active and has been walking since 10 months. So I know this is something that we still need to discuss and work out.
Anyway today he is going to a family party without us because of the sickness, which is fine with me and I told him to go without us- and I'd prefer it because some of his family drives me nuts. The baby started whining and he said "see this is why we don't need another one". I snapped back about how he doesn't have any idea how much work the baby is because he just sits on the computer for hours at a time. He replied with' You're on my ass any time I leave so I have nothing else to do but sit around. This is not true- he leaves for work before me, comes home later while I take baby to daycare, do grocery shopping, make supper, etc. At least twice a week he will come home extra late(when baby is already in bed) because he wants to go with the guys to do guy stuff. I'm fine with that, but then he gets mad when I ask him to watch baby while I go to work out for an hour. I'm lucky if I get to go twice a week. I'm not demanding that he do dishes, laundry, etc. I just want him to talk to me at night instead of be on the computer. I guess maybe I'm feeling neglected and like he doesn't love me as much as before the baby.
I know a lot of this is because I'm tired and run down but I feel awful about fighting with him, although the things I said are really how I feel, I just suppress them most of the time so we don't fight. Anyone else ever feel this way???