PPD check in

Mom&nurse · July 2014

katekat8721 said:

Lilygrace48 said:
So glad I started therapy this week. Last night I hit DH in anger. Not hard, only on the leg, and he said it was no big deal, but it is to me. A, should not be hitting my husband. B, should not be lashing out I'm anger. C, what if I get that angry at the kids one day? Totally not OK. Lots of crying. It was also during yet another argument about nursing vs. Ff. He kept saying it wasn't my fault, dismissing how I feel completely. O might not be doing it on purpose, but it is my body that can't figure shit out and is drowning our child. Hence,y fault. Ugh. Bad afternoon with the kids and then bad night with DH. I can't wait to feel better.
I say this with love...

Switch to damn formula already.

It's ok. I promise, it's ok.

(((Hugs)))

My friend said one thing to me as advice before baby. It's ok to give formula or pump and give a bottle. She said she suffered so long and wish she didn't. I under though.

tbmadeamistake · July 2014

katekat8721 said:

Lilygrace48 said:
So glad I started therapy this week. Last night I hit DH in anger. Not hard, only on the leg, and he said it was no big deal, but it is to me. A, should not be hitting my husband. B, should not be lashing out I'm anger. C, what if I get that angry at the kids one day? Totally not OK. Lots of crying. It was also during yet another argument about nursing vs. Ff. He kept saying it wasn't my fault, dismissing how I feel completely. O might not be doing it on purpose, but it is my body that can't figure shit out and is drowning our child. Hence,y fault. Ugh. Bad afternoon with the kids and then bad night with DH. I can't wait to feel better.
I say this with love...

Switch to damn formula already.

It's ok. I promise, it's ok.

(((Hugs)))

I've pretty much made up my mind. Now to get Charlie comfortable on a bottle and then make the switch. Thanks!

Bozzy2 · July 2014

I want to want to do things. I want to want to eat and yet I sit here not wanting to do anything except hold Aamie. But even that is over whelming sometimes.

Bozzy2 · July 2014

Thought you guys might like this.

sjn00 · July 2014

Bozzy2 said:
Thought you guys might like this.

Aaah I love that! And it is soo true!

tbmadeamistake · July 2014

I told DH we're using formula as soon as CHarlie takes a bottle ok. He replied, and I quote, "Ok." Way to make me feel stupid for angsting about it when you were so against it every other time we discussed it. Ah well, formula and freedom, here I come!

elsa1688 · July 2014

Thanks @krystalann94‌ we are in counseling but I will try this tonight. It's nice to hear I'm not the only one trying to figure this sh*t out.

sjn00 · July 2014

2am crying.

I can't handle her anymore. It makes me resent her so much I hate it. I can't handle her not sleeping, her constant crying, her fussiness.. I just can't anymore.
I gave her to my husband when he got home and I threw the milk carton across the back yard.
I am taking it out on my dogs when I have neglected them so much all they want is love from me.
I am already on Prozac but am pissed that I am still feeling this way.
I just can't.

BMaidPlanner · July 2014

SaraJoy00 said:
2am crying.

I can't handle her anymore. It makes me resent her so much I hate it. I can't handle her not sleeping, her constant crying, her fussiness.. I just can't anymore.
I gave her to my husband when he got home and I threw the milk carton across the back yard.
I am taking it out on my dogs when I have neglected them so much all they want is love from me.
I am already on Prozac but am pissed that I am still feeling this way.
I just can't.

Prozac may not be the right fit. You have lots of options. I hope you know you are not alone in feeling this way. Please talk to someone soon and we're here if you need to vent.

sjn00 · July 2014

@Tdonatoni‌
@BMaidPlanner‌

Thank you.. I feel so guilty feeling this way. I hate that everyone expects you to be so happy and things are good when inside I am screaming. I see my counselor next Friday.. Im nervous to even bring it up that this is the way I feel. I slept a good 11 hours and I dont even want to to check on her with my husband.. I think im just going to to back to sleep.

Prozac is the only thing that has worked for me, I have been on it for years, thats why they put me back on it after I delivered her. I am wondering if I need to get the prescription upped though.

CJnKR2014 · July 2014

Hugs @SaraJoy00‌

I agree on the anger. DH doesn't understand that it's part of it. He keeps remarking how angry I am and it just makes me more mad because I can't do anything about it.

lest12 · July 2014

I haven't been participating much so I'm sorry to just jump in for support... but my anxiety is killing me. I'm convinced something is wrong with LO. I was up half the night googling different diseases and conditions and wondering if my doctor was doing his job.

DH got offended because you know, we have a very happy and healthy baby but I don't see it. I am imaging terrible things but can't stop

I've always had a little anxiety but this is way crazy.

Bozzy2 · July 2014

Going to the dr on Tuesday. Wish me luck.

JujuB22 · July 2014

I don't know if I have PPD exactly, but I have been putting myself on an overwhelming guilt trip lately. I feel guilty about going back to work, i feel guilty not picking up more hours, I feel guilty asking for breaks to pump, I feel guilty having my parents watch LO, I feel guilty that they didn't use the breastmilk I put in their freezer and instead used the emergency back up formula which caused LO to have a day of stomach issues that I felt guilty about not being able to comfort him, I feel guilty if I don't get housework done but feel guilty putting LO down to do it, I feel guilty about not making dinner for dh tonight but LO is finally asleep on my lap and moving him would make me feel more guilty, I feel like I never pay enough attention to my 7 yr old daughter but I try really hard, I feel guilty that she is not getting a big birthday party this year because money is tight, I feel like I have been distancing myself from dh, etc. I feel like I am not doing enough no matter what I do. Most days I can push through it and be happy, but some days I'm just in a funk and have a hard time doing much other than cuddling LO on the couch. (When dd is at her dad's). I'm fine when she is around. I can't stand to be away from my kids. Dd is gone for 2 weeks to be with her dad and I'm so emotional about it today. I love my kids so much it hurts. I feel like something horrible will happen to them if they are not with me. I know this is silly so I have spent time away trying to acclimate myself, but it's still hard.