Today is 9 months since Noah was stillborn at 20w. I'm having a hard time today. It baffles me that we have lived twice as long without him as with him.
My oldest just told me "babies die." I keep trying to explain to him that not all babies die, but that's his experiance. I hate that it's all he knows.
I'm sitting in the airport back in the states and wanted to say hi!!!!! I missed you ladies all week but Bermuda was amazing. I have 3 of the best complaints of my life:
1. Nausea and food aversion from pregnancy (oh and add extreme constipation since I haven't had a good poop in over a week). 2. Exhaustion from traveling after an amazing week. 3. Sore muscles from jet skiing around yesterday.
I'll be stalking & catching up on everyone this weekend! I hope everyone is doing well & had a good week!
Married the love of my life June 18, 2011 -- Me (28) DH (29)
@MrsLaurenandDan , I'm so sorry you and your family are in so much pain. Big hugs mama, this pregnancy will show your sweet LO that babies live and come home and become a part of a wonderful and happy family. Hugs, again.
@jap618 , girl, you missed a shit ton if fun drama. And you are one of the mod noms, so we've been waiting around to vote in case you didn't want to accept the nomination.
I discovered the new TTGP confessional last night and read the whole thing. It makes me sad. DH asked me what I was reading and I was embarrassed and said I was reading an article about the middle east. (?) I guess that makes me sad, too....
I discovered the new TTGP confessional last night and read the whole thing. It makes me sad. DH asked me what I was reading and I was embarrassed and said I was reading an article about the middle east. (?) I guess that makes me sad, too....
I haven't looked at that since it started up again. Why does it make you said? Lots of BOAB?
I discovered the new TTGP confessional last night and read the whole thing. It makes me sad. DH asked me what I was reading and I was embarrassed and said I was reading an article about the middle east. (?) I guess that makes me sad, too....
I haven't looked at that since it started up again. Why does it make you said? Lots of BOAB?
Just so much drama. Name calling. Secret boards. People accusing other people of things. People wishing infertility on others. It just seems so.... pathetic, honestly. I was only in TTGP for a short time, but I really enjoyed getting to know people there, and I think it sucks for such a fun place to get bogged down with such bullshit.
I think I invited myself and DH to a birthday dinner tonight. It's BIL gfs birthday and I was excited and had nothing to do all week but make her a cake and be excited.... But when I asked them about it yesterday they seemed less than excited about us coming.
This makes me sad and embarrassed, but I've been planning on making her a cake for months.
@jap618 , girl, you missed a shit ton if fun drama. And you are one of the mod noms, so we've been waiting around to vote in case you didn't want to accept the nomination.
Glad Bermuda was fun! Pics or it didn't happen.
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Oh fun!! Mandjs had sent me a message but that is exciting news to come back to Thank you guys for waiting!
I'll post some fun pictures soon!!
Married the love of my life June 18, 2011 -- Me (28) DH (29)
My SO is very much an "I don't have emotions" kind of guy. They come out occasionally but it's not often. He just came and put his hands on my stomach and said "my baby!" in a way that I could tell he was so excited about it he just couldn't stop the words from coming out.
I just realized what a sad sack moment I'm having right now. It's a rainy day here. I'm listening to Adele and having a jelly creme for dinnsert. (that's pre-dinner dessert guise)
And I want to cry my face off because DD is going for her first solo overnight to my mom's tomorrow after her nap, until Monday before nap. They live <12 miles away. I am still probably going to cry after she goes.
It rained all day here too. Ick. My DD's is going to my mom's tomorrow for a week so I can get some stuff done here, but she's done that a lot all ready. Although she's never gone to MIL's by herself and neither has DS who's for. I think I'd cry and be nervous if either one of them ever went there
My mom is alright. She means well, for sure- and she will follow my rules. On the other hand, my MIL would rather tell DD what a terrible person I am and try to get DD to call her Mommy. (her nickname with DD is Mema).
No joke, her comment on DH& I's wedding day (I was pregnant with DD) was "at least my son didn't hit it & quit it". On Facebook. Thanks! Love you too!
Bahahaha what an awful bitch! My mother stormed out of my wedding and my MIL was told no strapless since my dress was strapless... So what does she get? A strapless dress. Best be damn sure I told the woman to safety pin her shaw to her dress and cover them shoulders! I also had warning from my SIL about what she would wear to one of her sons weddings..... But she wouldn't ever go that low.... That's really really dirty.
@bspazzer meh, I never understood brides not allowing others to wear a certain type of dress. That's pretty bridezilla to me. If anyone told me to cover my shoulders on their wedding day I would've rolled my eyes so damn hard. No ones going to confuse the bride with anyone else, what's the point? Show up comfortable is all I told my friends and family.
@bspazzer meh, I never understood brides not allowing others to wear a certain type of dress. That's pretty bridezilla to me. If anyone told me to cover my shoulders on their wedding day I would've rolled my eyes so damn hard. No ones going to confuse the bride with anyone else, what's the point? Show up comfortable is all I told my friends and family.
Bridezilla... You better fucking believe it. Neither family helped us plan or pay for our wedding and since she was part of the WEDDING PARTY along with being a main guest she was given suggestions which IS standard wedding etiquette. I could have very easily had no mothers or grandmother walk down the isle but I decided to include them in the ceremony and yes I did fucking stand out my dress was covered in sequins and I looked damn good but the point is that she was asked not told and still decided to do what she wanted. Had she or anyone else helped to pay for our wedding they could have more of a say.
Yes! @meladoriestar & @Chunkymonkeylvr ! Cake and Jammie's party! We shall watch the rest of how to lose a guy in 10 days and send my husband out for other feel good foods!
That's probably reason #5489 I'm glad we went JOP. We'll have a ceremony for family someday. Just not any time soon!
I tried that and I also tried to elope but DH Told me I would regret not having a big wedding (it was fun but between my mother and bridesmaid drama I wouldn't do it all over again) I would prefer a dance party. Not a wedding.
Um, it's not anyone else's responsibility to pay for your wedding, maybe that's why they didn't...? I'm confused. You're making this woman out to be awful but you sound like the crazy one here @bspazzer like I picture you with flames shooting out of your head reading that response back to me...
That's probably reason #5489 I'm glad we went JOP. We'll have a ceremony for family someday. Just not any time soon!
As long as you don't have ridiculously high expectations I'm sure it'll go over just fine. 99% of the time there's only drama during wedding planning where the brides wants to see drama.
I honestly didn't care what my bridemaids wore in the wedding. I think the only "direction" I gave them was to try to not clash too bad with each other. Considering that they're my closest friends, I knew that they'd choose something that wouldn't horrify me. And even though it was a mix of tastes and body types, they all agreed on the most gorgeous dress and I couldn't have been happier with it.
Also, our moms performed our ceremony together. I genuinely feel bad for people who don't get along with their MILs. Especially when children are involved. Due to my history, I never thought I'd actually wind up with one I'd like, let alone love, but I absolutely adore mine.
I wanted Thai for dinner and halfway through the meal I almost tossed my cookies. I'm in the car right now while my husband gets the food wrapped up and pays the bill...
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My oldest just told me "babies die." I keep trying to explain to him that not all babies die, but that's his experiance. I hate that it's all he knows.
TTC #1 May 2014
BFP 7/4/14 ~ EDD 3/17/15
My Chart
MMC April 2014 at 6w2d, D&C at 9 weeks
MMC August 2014 at 9w1d, D&C at 12 weeks
CP October 2014
My Ovulation Chart
1. Nausea and food aversion from pregnancy (oh and add extreme constipation since I haven't had a good poop in over a week).
2. Exhaustion from traveling after an amazing week.
3. Sore muscles from jet skiing around yesterday.
I'll be stalking & catching up on everyone this weekend! I hope everyone is doing well & had a good week!
Glad Bermuda was fun! Pics or it didn't happen.
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TTC #1 May 2014
BFP 7/4/14 ~ EDD 3/17/15
My Chart
TTC #1 May 2014
BFP 7/4/14 ~ EDD 3/17/15
My Chart
This makes me sad and embarrassed, but I've been planning on making her a cake for months.
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Me too... Plus I feel the same way with my own mother as well!
MY WEDDING MY RULES.
You would've been a hit on the knot lol