May 2014 Moms

PPD check in (first one!)

I will start posting this post partum depression (PPD) check in every Sunday!!

How old is LO? How many kids?

When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing)

What have been your PPD symptoms?

Who has been your biggest supporter so far?

Rants/raves?

How are you taking care of yourself this week?

Questions for the group/anything else?

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Re: PPD check in (first one!)

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  • How old is LO? How many kids? 
    I'm a FTM and my son is 9 weeks today
    When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing)
    I was diagnosed at about 5 weeks. I went to see a therapist, and she highly recommended taking medication, but I was/am really scared to. I asked her if I could try other options first (like getting back to working out - something I did regularly before pregnancy, but not since)  and she basically told me that I should just get on medication. I stopped seeing her after that. 
    There were also some other issues I had with her. Pretty much everything I told her, she said, "I would go home and Google that and see what other people say". Ugh. 
    What have been your PPD symptoms? 
    Frustration, loss of appetite, exhaustion, crying for no reason (a LOT) feeling useless and like a bad wife and mom
    Who has been your biggest supporter so far?
    My husband. I didn't even really tell him that I was diagnosed until just about a week ago, but he had been great before that too - taking care of our son when I just couldn't get myself out of bed. 
    Rants/raves?
    Honestly, I've been feeling too "blah" to be passionate about anything right now. I guess my rant would be our current financial situation. I work(ed) for a non-profit before going on leave, so me going back full-time would not be making enough to pay for full-time child care. So the plan was for me to either stay home (what I want to do) or work part time. 
    My husband was told last week that he was getting laid off from his job.
    I have an interview for a part time job on Tuesday, and I feel like there is SO much pressure to get it. I feel like I'm going to do poorly just because I'm so nervous now. 

    How are you taking care of yourself this week?
    I'm not great at this one either. I suppose one small thing I am doing is trying to actually talk about this to people. I hadn't told ANYONE about my diagnosis or the severity of what I was feeling. But recently, I have mentioned it to a few people (mom, sister, MIL) I am also trying to make time each week to see a friend, get a coffee, go for a walk or something small like that. It really seems to help. 

    Questions for the group/anything else?
    I think my question for right now would be - does it ever get better? The therapist told me that if I got on the medicine, I should expect it to take about 9 months to a year to feel a significant difference (or go back to 'normal'). My fear is that since I declined the medicine and stopped seeing her, it won't ever go away. 
    I also agree with @smdukes that I wish it was called something else. Although I did/do feel depressed, I think when I tell people that I have PPD, they automatically think I want to kill myself or my baby. I've never had those feelings. Mine is more of a stay in bed and cry all day thing. I also feel like there is still a stigma about it, like you're crazy if you have PPD, and you can't function. That bothers me.

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  • How old is LO? How many kids?
    My son is 5 weeks and I'm a FTM.

    When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or therapy?
    I saw the dr during the 1st week post partum. They said it's PPD referred me to a hotline from the hospital with social workers I spoke with. They have a support group at the hospital and counselors to meet with. The social workers didn't want to diagnose it as PPD yet. Now they may say PPD at 5 weeks. Zoloft was prescribed, but I was told not to start it yet.

    What have been your PPD symptoms?
    Anxiety, crying regularly, wanting my old life back, missing my old relationship with my husband, feeling down, afraid I will never go back to my normal self. There are times of day where I am doing great and other times where I am struggling to get by. I am also great while with family and friends or at parties. Makes no sense to me!

    Who has been your biggest supporter?
    My husband for sure! My Mother-in-law cooks for us daily, my Mom and My aunt have been great!

    Rant/raves
    Not sure right now.

    How are you taking care of yourself this week?
    Going for ice cream with my husband and shopping for some clothes that actually fit. Maybe going in the boardwalk at night one day this week (jersey shore).

    Questions for the group/anything else? Can PPD pass without meds? I know there are different severities and I thought maybe some can recover without them.
    I read that a lot of things can contribute to PPD like anemia( which I have from blood loss during delivery). Once iron levels return to normal symptoms can get better. Has anyone heard of this?

  • How old is LO? How many kids?
    6 week twins, FTM

    When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing)
    Not diagnosed either, but I'm calling doc tomorrow. Last appointment I was having a good day so I have these times where I think I'll be fine, so don't seek help.

    What have been your PPD symptoms?
    Crying a lot some days, feeling like an extreme failure and bad mom, worried that I am not enjoying them like I should, frustrated at constant fussing from one or the other, disappointed in myself.
    Who has been your biggest supporter so far? My DH has been great, but doesn't see the gravity of my pain. My mom and MIL both help out, but I'm so ashamed I don't talk about these feelings with them, so they don't know how much I need help. I am also talking with a friend that had it.

    Rants/raves?

    How are you taking care of yourself this week? Working out, used to workout a lot. I love running most of all but I can't do it Bc I hurt my knee (bursitis) 2 weeks ago, and I broke my pinky toe (pathetic) going to get a baby in the middle if the night. All I can do is wait that one out!!


    Questions for the group/anything else?
    Thanks everyone for sharing. Helps to know I'm not alone.

     

  • Jelainey24Jelainey24 member
    edited July 2014
    My LO was due in Aoril but had him May 5th. I had an emergency c-section after a very stressful day because LO's heartbeat kept dropping. He then had jaundice so he was in the NICU for that. I think all that didn't help with bonding and feeling connected to him which didn't help when we got home. 
     How old is LO? How many kids? 9 weeks old FTM 
    When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing) Diagnosed two weeks ago, taking Zoloft. I feel uncomfortable with calling my previous counselor because I feel like a failure since she let me stop seeing her over a year ago now because I was doing so well with my mothers death. 
     What have been your PPD symptoms? Anxiety about LO crying and people judging me for not being able to stop it, resentful for my LO because I don't have my old life and relationship with my DH, feel disconnected to my baby and husband and the outside world, feel that my baby would be better off with someone else. 
     Who has been your biggest supporter so far? My DH, sometimes when things get bad I feel like he's going to turn to me and say "you wanted this baby and look at what he's doing to us and you" and then leave me but he always says "don't even worry about it sweetheart". He still takes care of me like when I was pregnant. He was happy that I sought help from the doctor on my own. 
     Rants/raves? I hate that I haven't told my sisters about what's happening but they have their own lives so I don't want to inconvenience them. I have started feeling better, not sure if it's my LO and I finally figuring each other out so the days don't feel so daunting. I'm also going back to work on Tuesday so I think it will help to get back to adult stuff, something of my former self. 
     How are you taking care of yourself this week? Terrible at this in general but hopefully I'll get out to lunch at work this week with a girlfriend! 
    Questions for the group/anything else? One thing my doc said that made me hopeful is I should be on the medication for 6 months or so and LO will be a different baby by then. Also said to think of short term goals, like today to this week and try not to think about big or long term goals.
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  • @Lbarron915‌ , most of the time it takes 2-6 weeks to see noticeable improvement once you're at an effective dose for you. The 9 months to a year is the recommended time to stay on the med starting from when you feel better, to make sure you stay stable and feeling good. (I'm a therapist in women's health, though not a prescriber, fwiw). Even if you don't want to take meds, things will get better -- but it takes time, effort, and support.

    I'm chiming in also because I have pre-existing anxiety and a lot of stressors coming up (moving across the country, job interviews). I'm trying to be proactive in getting support, because I worry that tell as things get stressful, I will get overwhelmed and
    miserable. I don't know which possibility I dread more: the stress of juggling a new job with new baby, or not getting an offer and being at home with LO all the time.
  • How old is LO? How many kids?
    My son is 5 weeks and I'm a FTM.

    When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or therapy?
    I saw the dr during the 1st week post partum. They said it's PPD referred me to a hotline from the hospital with social workers I spoke with. They have a support group at the hospital and counselors to meet with. The social workers didn't want to diagnose it as PPD yet. Now they may say PPD at 5 weeks. Zoloft was prescribed, but I was told not to start it yet.

    What have been your PPD symptoms?
    Anxiety, crying regularly, wanting my old life back, missing my old relationship with my husband, feeling down, afraid I will never go back to my normal self. There are times of day where I am doing great and other times where I am struggling to get by. I am also great while with family and friends or at parties. Makes no sense to me!

    Who has been your biggest supporter?
    My husband for sure! My Mother-in-law cooks for us daily, my Mom and My aunt have been great!

    Rant/raves
    Not sure right now.

    How are you taking care of yourself this week?
    Going for ice cream with my husband and shopping for some clothes that actually fit. Maybe going in the boardwalk at night one day this week (jersey shore).

    Questions for the group/anything else? Can PPD pass without meds? I know there are different severities and I thought maybe some can recover without them.
    I read that a lot of things can contribute to PPD like anemia( which I have from blood loss during delivery). Once iron levels return to normal symptoms can get better. Has anyone heard of this?

    @deanna1313‌ - I haven't heard of the iron levels! Going to ask my doc about it at check visit on Wednesday...interesting!

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  • Lo is almost 8 weeks.

    Finally got the courage to speak to a therapist. She didn't diagnose me with ppd. Just baby blue. But she did say I had social phobia and anxiety. So I am seeing a psychiatrist to discuss medications and a therapist on the 29th. I wish it was sooner :(. I've never been so excited to go on meds. I said I never would but I tried med free for 8 weeks. I can't do it on my own. I need a little help at least until she is a little older

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  • How old is LO? How many kids? Amelia is 8 weeks, FTM

    When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing) Diagnosed at 6 weeks pp. Taking zoloft (just upped dosage to 100mg from 50) and starting Vistaril to help with my anxiety.

    What have been your PPD symptoms? Anxiety, panic attacks, feeling very run down, crying uncontrollably, what little sleep I was getting is now worse (can't fall or stay asleep), and my PTSD dreams are coming back :(

    Who has been your biggest supporter so far? My fiancé. He's been my biggest mental health supporter from day one. We met and started dating within a month of me being diagnosed (and hospitalized for a week) of PTSD and he's been amazing since day one! Most of the time he catches my symptoms before I do!

    Rants/raves? Rants: LO got her first round of shots earlier today. I felt so horrible watching her scream and cry at the loudest I've ever seen. And the tears!!! :( Poor thing Raves: I gave LO extra special cuddles and mommy time today. It felt good having her all snuggled up on me. I think it helps my PPD sometimes having her like that.

    How are you taking care of yourself this week? DH paid for me to go with his mom this past sunday to get mani/pedis. It was nice to get out of the house (without LO for once) and be a little pampered.

    Questions for the group/anything else? Also stopped pumping 2 weeks ago. I felt horrible at first but it is a HUGE weight off my shoulders and I feel more in control of my days home alone. Also DH and I have worked out a schedule now so that we each finally get more than 3-4 hours of sleep at a time (although now mine is lacking because of anxiety/nightmares). Really wish breastfeeding/pumping would've worked out but my mental health wasn't ab;e to handle it anymore. But thankfully I have a stash that I can give her about 2 feedings a day for about 2 months. So she'll still be getting some more.
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  • @ArmyMedic7588‌ thanks for sharing. My LO got her shots today too:( it's so sad! We got some awesome snuggles too...agree it helps. Also, I am upping my Zoloft from 50 to 75. Just talked to the doc today and have a follow up on Wednesday face to face but she ordered the new 25mg pill to my pharmacy today. I was feeling so good for a few weeks but then the last two weeks my anxiety has come back and insomnia. So we are going to see what going up does for me. I am hesitant to take sleeping pills (which she keeps suggesting) have you tried sleeping pills? Curious on your experience if so.

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  • ArmyMedic7588ArmyMedic7588 member
    edited July 2014
    @smdukes I'm hesitant about sleeping pills too. Although I've had past experience with mental health issues I already have some experience with meds that have/have not worked for me. I used to take trazadone (before pregnancy) which worked great for awhile but after a bit I think I became tolerant to it and they had to up the dose quite a bit by the end. Since I'm afraid of being too drowsy at night but need something for my anxiety/inability to fall or stay asleep my Dr prescribed the Vistaril (hydroxyine pam). Apparently its an antihistamine to treat itching from allergies, but it has a very calming/relaxing affect. Xanax and other benzos were really bad for me in the past. I became dependent and tolerant. Hoping this new med works, but we gotta test it when DH is around long enough for me to see how I react to it. FX!! Hope things get better for you and the rest of you ladies on this check in!!

    ETA: cause I forgot to add this...
    @JKBMA2014 I hope things start going better for you soon! I saw your other post about your LO's middle of the night crying :( Being someone who tried to be med free for other mental health problems in the past let me be the first to say a little help from meds can be a life changer! Even the smallest dosage of something can change your world. And there's no shame in needing a little bit of help!! The fact that you realized you need help and asked shows how strong of a mother you are! Hope you get the support you need!
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  • Just wanted to say that although it's been a very rough couple days, I got in with my OB right away yesterday and they set me up on Zoloft and also refered me to a psychiatrist and I have my first appointment tomorrow. Everyone I talked to was so helpful and I am so pleased at how fast I got help. I feel better just knowing that I have that help to make me better on its way. And cheers to all the ladies for sharing their stories, it helps to read and relate to it all.
  • I just want to say that I think this is such a great idea for a thread. I have a lot of respect for all of you who are suffering from PPD because #1 I had the baby blues for about 3 weeks and that was bad enough, I cant imagine having to deal with any worse. #2 im sure it isnt easy to tell people you have it. I really hope everyone starts to feel better sooner rather than later!
  • I'm going to see if I can get an appointment sooner with the psychiatrist because I was really hoping to get some kind of medication asap.

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