I will start posting this post partum depression (PPD) check in every Sunday!!
How old is LO? How many kids?
When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing)
What have been your PPD symptoms?
Who has been your biggest supporter so far?
Rants/raves?
How are you taking care of yourself this week?
Questions for the group/anything else?
Re: PPD check in (first one!)
Almost 6 wks, FTM
When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?
Haven't been yet, but this week has been extremely bad. I thought I was just having some baby blues early on, but now things haven't improved and have only gotten worse.
What have been your PPD symptoms?
Crying for no apparent reason, frustration with even little things, anxiety over everything, lack of connection with baby, guilt, loss of appetite, and nausea
Who has been your biggest supporter so far?
My husband who has stepped up and taken care of LO when I have been unable to, and my parents who let me stay with them for a few nights to help me sort this all out
Rants/raves? I wish doctors offices were available on holiday weekends, Monday can't come soon enough
How are you taking care of yourself this week?
This week I am admitting that there is a serious problem and that I need to be well for my baby to be. Accepting help.
Questions for the group/anything else?
Anyone else have physical responses to your PPD? It took me awhile to connect the two but I most definitely think they are.
When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing) diagnosed at three weeks PP and currently taking Zoloft. I could feel a difference within a couple of days and have had no negative side affects. I was so scared to take meds but it has helped me so much.
What have been your PPD symptoms?
First and foremost, extreme rage and irritability. I knew something was so wrong because I am a very happy laid back person. Complete 180 from the real me. Second, extreme anxiety and insomnia. I've always had some anxiety but this has been crippling. I am ashamed to admit but I need to share that I have yelled at my baby, punched doors and walls/thrown things (never ever has this ever happened in my life...never been mad enough to even yell at someone before!) cried and screamed at the top of my lungs, had to put her down for fear I would hurt her, and thought so many times about hurting myself. I have identified that unfortunately my trigger is her crying. The first time I felt like I came close to hurting her, I put her down and called my friend immediately. I was terrified of how I felt and knew I needed help.
Who has been your biggest supporter so far? My best friend, she had PPD. I talked to her before even my husband on how I was feeling. She encouraged me to get to the doc ASAP. If not for her I don't know where we would be. That same day I got into the doc and called my husband home from work to "confess" how bad I really felt.
Rants/raves?
Rant: I am angry and feeling bad for myself that I am going through this because I feel like I am wishing away my daughters newborn stage. She's been a very fussy colicky baby and I haven't enjoyed my maternity leave. Hard as I try there are many days I just don't enjoy her and I'm mad I'm going through this and know I will never get this time back with her. I hate that whenever I look back at this time it will be negative. I am also mad that there are some people that think PPD is something you can control completely. This PPF had turned me into a person I don't recognize at times and I promise you if I could control it or solve it, I would:) Rave: had company for the fourth and I felt great and very minimal anxiety. I am having majority good days right now.
How are you taking care of yourself this week? Have not been good about this. I put this question in here (and going to make it reoccurring) somewhat selfishly as a reminder that I need to do some me time. My "me" time lately is being better about asking DH to take her so I can shower, sit down, cook, whatever for a couple minutes.
Questions for the group/anything else? I read an article recently from a PPD sufferer that said she wished it had a different name because she wasn't the classic "depressed woman you see on tv staring out the window". She thought that by depression being in the name it didn't help women because depression is such a dirty word and therefore women with PPD are ashamed to talk about it. I couldn't agree more. Whether you have PPD or not I feel women need to support one another more by talking about how hard being a mom is and it's not all sunshine and rainbows. I remember with my first thinking wtf, why didn't anyone tell me how hard this is?!?! I have discovered PPD is not what you might think it is and very different for each woman.
I'm a FTM and my son is 9 weeks today
When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing)
I was diagnosed at about 5 weeks. I went to see a therapist, and she highly recommended taking medication, but I was/am really scared to. I asked her if I could try other options first (like getting back to working out - something I did regularly before pregnancy, but not since) and she basically told me that I should just get on medication. I stopped seeing her after that.
What have been your PPD symptoms?
Frustration, loss of appetite, exhaustion, crying for no reason (a LOT) feeling useless and like a bad wife and mom
Who has been your biggest supporter so far?
My husband. I didn't even really tell him that I was diagnosed until just about a week ago, but he had been great before that too - taking care of our son when I just couldn't get myself out of bed.
Rants/raves?
Honestly, I've been feeling too "blah" to be passionate about anything right now. I guess my rant would be our current financial situation. I work(ed) for a non-profit before going on leave, so me going back full-time would not be making enough to pay for full-time child care. So the plan was for me to either stay home (what I want to do) or work part time.
Questions for the group/anything else?
My son is 5 weeks and I'm a FTM.
When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or therapy?
I saw the dr during the 1st week post partum. They said it's PPD referred me to a hotline from the hospital with social workers I spoke with. They have a support group at the hospital and counselors to meet with. The social workers didn't want to diagnose it as PPD yet. Now they may say PPD at 5 weeks. Zoloft was prescribed, but I was told not to start it yet.
What have been your PPD symptoms?
Anxiety, crying regularly, wanting my old life back, missing my old relationship with my husband, feeling down, afraid I will never go back to my normal self. There are times of day where I am doing great and other times where I am struggling to get by. I am also great while with family and friends or at parties. Makes no sense to me!
Who has been your biggest supporter?
My husband for sure! My Mother-in-law cooks for us daily, my Mom and My aunt have been great!
Rant/raves
Not sure right now.
How are you taking care of yourself this week?
Going for ice cream with my husband and shopping for some clothes that actually fit. Maybe going in the boardwalk at night one day this week (jersey shore).
Questions for the group/anything else? Can PPD pass without meds? I know there are different severities and I thought maybe some can recover without them.
I read that a lot of things can contribute to PPD like anemia( which I have from blood loss during delivery). Once iron levels return to normal symptoms can get better. Has anyone heard of this?
How old is LO? How many kids?
6 week twins, FTM
When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing)
Not diagnosed either, but I'm calling doc tomorrow. Last appointment I was having a good day so I have these times where I think I'll be fine, so don't seek help.
What have been your PPD symptoms?
Crying a lot some days, feeling like an extreme failure and bad mom, worried that I am not enjoying them like I should, frustrated at constant fussing from one or the other, disappointed in myself.
Who has been your biggest supporter so far? My DH has been great, but doesn't see the gravity of my pain. My mom and MIL both help out, but I'm so ashamed I don't talk about these feelings with them, so they don't know how much I need help. I am also talking with a friend that had it.
Rants/raves?
How are you taking care of yourself this week? Working out, used to workout a lot. I love running most of all but I can't do it Bc I hurt my knee (bursitis) 2 weeks ago, and I broke my pinky toe (pathetic) going to get a baby in the middle if the night. All I can do is wait that one out!!
Questions for the group/anything else?
Thanks everyone for sharing. Helps to know I'm not alone.
I'm chiming in also because I have pre-existing anxiety and a lot of stressors coming up (moving across the country, job interviews). I'm trying to be proactive in getting support, because I worry that tell as things get stressful, I will get overwhelmed and
miserable. I don't know which possibility I dread more: the stress of juggling a new job with new baby, or not getting an offer and being at home with LO all the time.
Finally got the courage to speak to a therapist. She didn't diagnose me with ppd. Just baby blue. But she did say I had social phobia and anxiety. So I am seeing a psychiatrist to discuss medications and a therapist on the 29th. I wish it was sooner
When were you diagnosed with PPD? Are you taking medication and/or doing therapy?(if you feel comfortable sharing) Diagnosed at 6 weeks pp. Taking zoloft (just upped dosage to 100mg from 50) and starting Vistaril to help with my anxiety.
What have been your PPD symptoms? Anxiety, panic attacks, feeling very run down, crying uncontrollably, what little sleep I was getting is now worse (can't fall or stay asleep), and my PTSD dreams are coming back
Who has been your biggest supporter so far? My fiancé. He's been my biggest mental health supporter from day one. We met and started dating within a month of me being diagnosed (and hospitalized for a week) of PTSD and he's been amazing since day one! Most of the time he catches my symptoms before I do!
Rants/raves? Rants: LO got her first round of shots earlier today. I felt so horrible watching her scream and cry at the loudest I've ever seen. And the tears!!!
How are you taking care of yourself this week? DH paid for me to go with his mom this past sunday to get mani/pedis. It was nice to get out of the house (without LO for once) and be a little pampered.
Questions for the group/anything else? Also stopped pumping 2 weeks ago. I felt horrible at first but it is a HUGE weight off my shoulders and I feel more in control of my days home alone. Also DH and I have worked out a schedule now so that we each finally get more than 3-4 hours of sleep at a time (although now mine is lacking because of anxiety/nightmares). Really wish breastfeeding/pumping would've worked out but my mental health wasn't ab;e to handle it anymore. But thankfully I have a stash that I can give her about 2 feedings a day for about 2 months. So she'll still be getting some more.