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*Update 2: Darkest hours; T & P needed *update*

DaniW1984DaniW1984 member
edited June 2014 in October 2014 Moms
Update 2 - C Section today

Thank you for the Immense support you've all given me. It means more than I can put into words. ❤

I'm relaxing & mentally prepping in my hospital room as we await an emergency c section. Sadly, Our little girl isn't doing very well. Just found out on ultrasound yesterday & it was confirmed again this morning. Ironically, my liver levels have also climbed, so it was a quick decision by neonatal, maternal fetal medicine & obstetrics that today is the day our baby girl is born. Please keep us in your thoughts & prayers. We have a mountain ahead of us.

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*update 1*

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your beautiful words, thoughts, wishes, energy, and prayers. It all means so much right now. As we went to bed Saturday night, my husband had his hands on my belly and told our daughter she had to prove she was going to make it. That we needed something. That this was her chance. I cried because it's so hard for him to feel so helpless. And because she was kicking away.

Sunday morning's ultrasound was a small miracle. Our girl showed no further deterioration and in fact had better placenta flow. Sunday was a great day. We felt so relieved and honestly based on what doctors told us - disbelief. We made it to 25 weeks!

I had to go back to ICU Sunday night as my BP had risen & liver levels are tracing up. I am stable again, thankfully. Delivery time is based on my health, or LO. We need to be both remain stable.

I am lying in the hospital bed and again the sun is rising. Tomorrow we have another ultrasound that will show (better) accuracy of her growth as it will have been 10 days the first scan. We have huge anticipation & hopes for this. Please keep us in your positive everything.

I have so much to be thankful for and so much hope. It is day 10 and our baby won't be born today (it is my mantra even day). My husband is a rock and we are luckily in a position that he can be here everyday. We have amazing families and are in a fantastic hospital. And lastly, I joined this amazing online group after I POS ----and to my surprise, they have become a shoulder to lean on in the toughest times. Thank you. ❤

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Hello my bump sisters,

***Don't read this if you are prone to over worrying about your LO. I earnestly don't want you stressing unnecessarily.

Where do I begin...


I've been in the hospital for a week now. I had upper chest/sternum pain and mid back pain last weekend. Our midwives took me to the hospital and I was diagnosed with an unusual (only showing high bP as a marker) preeclampsia. I was 23 weeks 6 days when admitted. You can imagine the horror of facing delivery at that gestation. My husband and I have lived every emotion since then: fear, desperation, anger, hope, sadness, grief, and love.

This week has tested my tolerance and endurance for pain - and for the unknown. I've had every test done (heart, kidney, liver, veins, lungs, etc). Through the pain of procedures I've felt joy in our baby's increasingly robust kicks.❤

We have seen our baby on ultrasound 3 times this week. Every time, I look at my husband's tear stained eyes, I know we are thinking the same thing. If it had only been a couple weeks later- our baby would be in NICU fighting. Sadly, at this point our LO is better off inside me then in the world.

We were team Green and had planned on having a natural home waterbirth. In a moment of lightness we joked with each other that our due date is now the real surprise so we asked in our last ultrasound what we were having. Before the Dr told us - I said, "a Girl, right?" --instinctively I knew that all along. We both cried and when she sais yes. Our connection and love for this Baby grew deeper. I don't know why, but it did.

There was hope that we would make it to 25 weeks (even stronger viability) and have ourselves a fighting micro-preemie. I have had steroid shots to develop her lungs & we've had several conversations with internal medicine specialists, geneticists, neonatal teams and several OBs. Their looks say it all.

At our last ultrasound she showed signs of significant distress. So as my health improved this week- hers deteriorated. I know you all can imagine that heartache as moms.

Today we have our final ultrasound. If she hasn't improved, we will go to delivery so that she isn't stillborn. I can't even believe I'm writing this.

It is a nightmare.

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers today. We need all the hope in the world.

I'm looking out my window at the hospital onto the new summer morning and thinking that there is light in darkness - and I hope we have more in our future.

Thank you for your support.
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  • You will be on my mind and in my heart all day. Be assured of mine and my family's prayers.
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  • I cannot imagine the situation you are facing and my heart and prayers go out to you and your husband.  There are no words to express the level of sympathy or compassion I am sure we all feel for you and your family.  Be well and update us as you can!!!

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  • I'm so sorry...sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!!
  • I'm so sorry to read this. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
  • So very sorry. Thinking of you and LO, and sending prayers your way.
  • I cry as I write this, and want you to know that I admire your strength. Have faith and we all will be thinking and praying you and your baby girl.
    I know it is hard but try to remain positive a friend just had a similar story and her baby is in NICU getting stronger each day. Keep us updated.
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  • I'm so sorry to hear this. T&P for you and your family. I will be hoping your little one stays strong and is looking good at the next ultrasound. Please keep us updated if you feel up to it.
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  • T&P to you, your husband, and your little one.
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  • I am so sorry you have to go through this. I hope for peace for you, your husband, and your baby girl. Many prayers that the road ahead of you is only full of good news and happy milestones.
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  • How devastating.  I am so sorry you're all going through this.  Many thoughts of peace and healing your way.

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  • So heartbreaking to read this. I can't even imagine. You and your family are in my thought and prayers for sure.
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  • My heart breaks for you. Major T&P's for you and your family. 
  • I will be praying and thinking about you and your sweet girl so hard. I can't even imagine how heartbreaking this is. I am so sorry.


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    I'm so, so sorry you and your husband are going through this. I hope your little girl's health improves in time for the ultrasound. You all have my prayers (((hugs)))


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  • There are no words to express how sorry I am that you are going through this. You, your husband, and your little girl are in my thoughts and prayers today. Please keep us updated. Big hugs.
  • Sending prayers that things turn around and she's a little fighter! I can't imagine how terrifying it must be. Hoping you get good news!
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  • I am so sorry you are going through this right now. I can't imagine what you and your Husband are feeling. You, your dh and your baby girl will be in my thoughts and prayers today. ((Hugs))

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  • I am so, so sorry to read this.  Sending so much love your way.
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  • I am praying for you and your family. I am so sorry that you are going through this!
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  • Oh, OP. My heart hurts for your little family. Stay strong, and please keep us posted. We're all here for you.Biggest of hugs coming your way.






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  • My heart breaks for the horrifying nightmare you and your H are experiencing. I hope things take a turn for the better, positive vibes coming your way.
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  • I am so very sorry for this terrible and exhausting situation. Things can still turn around. Miracles do happen. I will say some prayers over your family. 
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  • I am so sorry. We will keep your family in our thoughts and hope that today's U/s looks promising.
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    I'm so sorry you're going through this. I am hoping for the best for you all.
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  • I am in tears for you right now. I am praying for you and your family and for a fighting baby girl.
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  • My heart goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry that you are going through this and I admire you for being so strong in such a trying time.

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  • T&P's to you and your husband. Praying for a positive outcome for you and baby.

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  • I'm so sorry you are going through this! Sending thoughts and prayers to you and your precious girl, I hope everything goes as well as it can and baby keeps fighting!
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  • How absolutely frightening.  I have nothing else to add that others have not said, but I hope everything works out.  You, your husband, and your LO will be in our thoughts!
  • So very sorry to hear this. Lots of thoughts and prayers for your whole family.
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  • T&P's your way....so sorry....I hope you get a happy ending.
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    Will be praying and thinking about you. Hope both you and the baby have a good outcome.
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  • Keeping you in my thoughts! I can not even begin to imagine what you are feeling right now.. I am just so sorry that you are going through this. T and P's to you and your family.
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    9/12: lap / hysteroscopy: found and removed mild endometriosis, cervical polyp, and 2 para-tubular cysts
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    12/13 IVF #2 = November / December 2013. Microdose Lupron Protocol: 15R/6M/6F, Froze all 6 due to high E2 and P4
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    BFP on HPT 4dp5dt, Beta #1 9dp5dt: 310, Beta #2 11dp5dt: 899
    First u/s on 2/17/14: TWINS!!!!! both w/HBs of 114 at 6w3d, HBs 150 and 152 at 7w5d

    5/27/2014: Team purple!!!!  EDD 10/10/2014 / 
    Delivered by c-section at 32w0d 8/15/2014 due to preeclampsia/HELLP syndrome
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    Baby Girl 3lbs 5oz, 16 inches

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