I can't get happy or excited about being pregnant. I have never been pregnant and DH and I have only been TTC for a little while. Sounds like a dream come true right? The truth is I suffer from severe anxiety and depression. I am not comfortable being on meds during at least my first trimester but will consider going back on after. Instead of being happy I am convinced something is going to go wrong. I am 5+ weeks along and haven't had much in a way of symptoms other than some cramping, sore nipples and peeing more often. I stress over my pregnancy and then stress increases my risk of complication so I stress about that. I will not be emotionally capable of handling a miscarriage. My folks had told me I shouldn't have a baby (I have not told them and dont look forward to It) due to my emotional issues and im starting to realize they were right. I am never going to make it to my first parental visit two weeks away never mind 9 months. Does anyone have any stories of being over 35 and having a successful first pregnancy? Some tips to relax? Words of wisdom? Anything? I really don't have anyone except DH to talk to and he just can't relate.
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I would also seriously consider consistent therapy. And yoga or some sort of gentle exercise where you can breathe, relax and stretch. Also consider massage therapy and acupuncture.
MOST moms in my area are over 35... Many over 40, and many into their 50s!!! Age is not that big of a deal. The media has hyped it up, but then there is some good research showing that it's not that big of a deal.
Lots of people don't have many symptoms till after 6 weeks... some always feel pretty normal!
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Congratulations! Be gentle with yourself. Tell your OB everything. Accept any help that is offered to you.
I also suffer from depression usually brought on with a tragic loss or something super upsetting.
I went off meds before we started TTC. I have been off of them since before the Mmc. I really thought the Mmc would have put me over the edge and bexome depressed again. It did not. 6 months later we were pregnant again.
This time I was super nervous the first trimester. Hard not to be after a Mmc. I did try not to worry and went to all my appointments.
First it is good that you except that you are feeling this way. Do not feel rhat you should not have a baby. Having a baby is scary and so many emotions but we all go through that.
Me being 40 has made me worry too.
Have you talked to your Dr? I would sooner than later if you have not. Also I think if you are up to it a therapist. Someone who is neutral. Not family.
Yoga is also calming and nice too. I just started. Wish I started sooner.
Please know you are not alone and something's you are going through is normal to be worried. Especially in first tri.
Thinking of you. Chat any time you need.
Heartburn came later on in 2 nd tri.
Don't go by symptoms. They can trick you.
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I was a month shy of 40 yrs when I had DS. Aside from the term "high risk" that followed me around like a dark cloud, my pregnancy was amazing. No morning sickness, no sore breasts, my hair was thick for the first time in my life, skin glowed. I took a very long time to show and felt I was missing out on that big belly I dreamed of having (it came eventually!).
It was a perfect pregnancy.
I had struggled with depression for a few years before that and really feared going off my meds. and how it would affect me. There was definitely an adjustment period, but as mentioned above, counselling is key. If you can get out of the house and go for a walk, that may help too.
Good for you for being so aware and reaching out as you are!
There is a reason you became pregnant, please do not feel that this is a mistake or that you should not have a child.
Trust that everything is going to work out, even when it doesn't feel like it will...it will.
I wish you all the best!
it will be fine I am 34 now but will be 35 when I deliver (so i've been lurking around this board as i relate to a lot of what's being discussed)....but the reason i'm responding to your post is because i'm bipolar so i can DEFINITELY relate to that piece of it I actually just found out that i'm pregnant this week (first OB appt is on Monday) but i've been super nervous about the effects my meds could have had on the baby already. Working with my doctor to wean off of them, and depending on how things go I may go back on them later in the pregnancy.
My best advice (I have a daughter so have been through another pregnancy and a bad post-partum depression) is to just breathe and take it one day at a time. Realize that you may have mood swings that have nothing to do with your depression, and everything to do with the changes your body is going through Realize that just because you suffer from depression that does NOT mean you can't be a fantastic mommy And if you don't go back on meds later in pregnancy, definitely talk to your doctor about doing so after the baby is born - people with a history of depression can be more susceptible to post-partum depression.
Congratulations, and wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy