DDF

pettycrocker · May 2014

It's back, and it's more diaryier.

Enjoy.

Momarazzi007 · May 2014

DDF,
Eff off May- June you're on notice.

Bananappeal145 · May 2014

Dear Diary
I am truly happy that I'm finally having another cycle after my surgery and 53 day cycle. I could however do without the night terrors (which I havent had in 8 years and have suddenly re-emerged) about a bear getting in my house, then running away into the woods only to be chased by wolves. The obvious subtext being after almost 3 months of being more or less benched (it sucked but the pressure was off) infertility is back to get me.

Also, WHY is the nurse at my RE office SUCH a flake? Seriously? She's called in my prescription to the wrong pharmacy 3 times. I have repeatedly asked her to change the info in my chart. When she does call it in, it's for the wrong thing or there are not enough pills in the the prescription and I have to call her back, yet again.

AND worst of all my dad has apparently decided it's time to die. He's in liver failure, had a TIPS last month that is not working. He keeps canceling his doctor appointments and he's is taking no steps what so ever to get on the transplant list. Last night he emailed me a list of songs he want's played at his funeral. 2 dedicated to his girlfriend of 5 months, none for his children or granddaughter. We have a very complicated relationship, but I don't want him to just give up. WTF am I supposed to do with that?

On the plus side, I'm so stressed out right now my house is spotless, all my DIY cleaning supplies are replenished, I stripped all my daughters cloth diapers, and I've got enough homemade bread in the freezer to last 3 months. Ah distraction, it's a wonderful thing.

MrsLaurenandDan · May 2014

Oh @Bananappeal145 that is so hard. I don't know what you can do if he doesn't want to fight anymore. Big hugs to you.

GraceyandTroy · May 2014

DD,
I have a sink full of dishes from last nights dinner, and I don't even care. I am so thrilled that my little man wanted to cuddle on the couch for about half an hour and read a book. Those dishes will just have to wait. Probably for DH to get home tonight! I hope he doesn't mind.

Now, I need to take my first shower in two days. Yet I didn't shower yesterday and I feel gross.

Jodee37 · May 2014

@bananappeal145 oh my gosh that is so much on your plate. i'm so sorry.

Dear Diary,

this month sucked. we're heading into summer and i'd like something positive to look forward to. not the shit i'm dealing with at work, the shit i'm dealing with in school, and the shit inside my belly. i'm fucking over allllll of it. i would like my RE to call me the fuck back already so i can schedule this lap and get on the TTC train again. mkay. thanks.

CeCe8579 · May 2014

DD,

I want to saw my arm off...that's it!

MrsAtch · May 2014

DDF: If I have to watch one more person still mooching off their parents get pregnant unexpectedly and have a healthy baby I'm afraid I'm going to become a hermit.

annibes · May 2014

DD- I give up. Exhausted from everything. I am sitting on the porch enjoying the breeze. I'm about to get a beer and let DH chase DS all over the neighborhood.

annibes · May 2014

And by "get" I now mean "just got."

MrsLaurenandDan · June 2014

DD

I'm having a hard time with it being June. A year ago this month was when Noah was conceived, and when I got my BFP. It's so hard to believe it's been a year.

Mommalawyer · June 2014

DD-

It's June. Which means that it has been a year since we stopped "preventing" and 11 months since we started actually trying. Lots of ladies have been trying much longer than me, but it's crazy to think that we have been trying this "long" already. I never thought it would take this long, cause "most people get pregnant in the first year of trying." I never thought that we would have to see a specialist. Nor did I think that I would be freaked out leaving the RE office a few days before an IUI and feeling defeated because I only have 2 follicles that are going to pop eggs, worried that it's not going to work. Last time there were 4 and no targets were hit. How can we make it happen with only 2 this time. I never thought I'd google sperm and sperm count and all of the other stuff only to go to the grocery store and buy pomegranate juice and asparagus to force DH on eating that alone for a week before an IUI. I just want A BABY.

Pitty Party- Table of 1 (AKA- Crazy medicated female- Party of 1)

Mommalawyer · June 2014

MrsAtch said:

DDF: If I have to watch one more person still mooching off their parents get pregnant unexpectedly and have a healthy baby I'm afraid I'm going to become a hermit.

^^^^^^^ This too. Damn it.

MrsAtch · June 2014

MrsLaurenandDan said:

DD
I'm having a hard time with it being June. A year ago this month was when Noah was conceived, and when I got my BFP. It's so hard to believe it's been a year.

I'm so sorry.

MrsAtch · June 2014

Mommalawyer said:

DD-

It's June. Which means that it has been a year since we stopped "preventing" and 11 months since we started actually trying. Lots of ladies have been trying much longer than me, but it's crazy to think that we have been trying this "long" already. I never thought it would take this long, cause "most people get pregnant in the first year of trying." I never thought that we would have to see a specialist. Nor did I think that I would be freaked out leaving the RE office a few days before an IUI and feeling defeated because I only have 2 follicles that are going to pop eggs, worried that it's not going to work. Last time there were 4 and no targets were hit. How can we make it happen with only 2 this time. I never thought I'd google sperm and sperm count and all of the other stuff only to go to the grocery store and buy pomegranate juice and asparagus to force DH on eating that alone for a week before an IUI. I just want A BABY.

Pitty Party- Table of 1 (AKA- Crazy medicated female- Party of 1)

When you want something this badly 11 months feels like a lifetime. I'm sorry

Bananappeal145 · June 2014

MrsLaurenandDan Big hugs to you. I know this must be really difficult for you.

Mommalawyer Make that Pity party table of 2. It's the beginning of June so that makes 18 months for me. I was thinking today if I had gotten pregnant when we started I could have had a baby twice over by now. Not nearly as long as some but still too long.

Mommalawyer · June 2014

It's a bit surreal. I don't think any of is believed or thought we'd find ourselves here. But all of a sudden it has become X amount of time. I'm still choking down the fact that I've been seeing the RE several times a month now, for 6 months. It's just bizarre. Time flies when you're IF I guess. Here's to all of us getting KTFU whatever way possible & soon!

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