January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this! June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS! January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world! November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs) April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs. FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP BABY BOYVINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you! Conception: Potato Love!
Dear Diary I am truly happy that I'm finally having another cycle after my surgery and 53 day cycle. I could however do without the night terrors (which I havent had in 8 years and have suddenly re-emerged) about a bear getting in my house, then running away into the woods only to be chased by wolves. The obvious subtext being after almost 3 months of being more or less benched (it sucked but the pressure was off) infertility is back to get me.
Also, WHY is the nurse at my RE office SUCH a flake? Seriously? She's called in my prescription to the wrong pharmacy 3 times. I have repeatedly asked her to change the info in my chart. When she does call it in, it's for the wrong thing or there are not enough pills in the the prescription and I have to call her back, yet again.
AND worst of all my dad has apparently decided it's time to die. He's in liver failure, had a TIPS last month that is not working. He keeps canceling his doctor appointments and he's is taking no steps what so ever to get on the transplant list. Last night he emailed me a list of songs he want's played at his funeral. 2 dedicated to his girlfriend of 5 months, none for his children or granddaughter. We have a very complicated relationship, but I don't want him to just give up. WTF am I supposed to do with that?
On the plus side, I'm so stressed out right now my house is spotless, all my DIY cleaning supplies are replenished, I stripped all my daughters cloth diapers, and I've got enough homemade bread in the freezer to last 3 months. Ah distraction, it's a wonderful thing.
DD, I have a sink full of dishes from last nights dinner, and I don't even care. I am so thrilled that my little man wanted to cuddle on the couch for about half an hour and read a book. Those dishes will just have to wait. Probably for DH to get home tonight! I hope he doesn't mind.
Now, I need to take my first shower in two days. Yet I didn't shower yesterday and I feel gross.
Happily Mrs. C
start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
Hoping holistic approach works!!!
BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!
Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
Back on metformin Aug 2013
Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw,and red raspberry leaf
DS weaned in April 2014
Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.
Planning medicated cycle end of summer. FX I get KU before then!!!
@bananappeal145 oh my gosh that is so much on your plate. i'm so sorry.
Dear Diary,
this month sucked. we're heading into summer and i'd like something positive to look forward to. not the shit i'm dealing with at work, the shit i'm dealing with in school, and the shit inside my belly. i'm fucking over allllll of it. i would like my RE to call me the fuck back already so i can schedule this lap and get on the TTC train again. mkay. thanks.
BFP #4 2/18/14. EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
BFP #5 7/27/14. EDD 4/9/15... m/c @ 5w4d.
IVF #1 Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN.
IVF #2 Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle. Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.
BFP #6 (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15. EDD 11/30/15... CP at 4w2d.
IUI #2: Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are
overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you."
-lastsliverofhope
DDF: If I have to watch one more person still mooching off their parents get pregnant unexpectedly and have a healthy baby I'm afraid I'm going to become a hermit.
After two losses, a rainbow arrived! DD born 11.5.11
Dx with severe Asherman's syndrome after a botched PP D&C (pursuing med mal)
Hysteroscopy Oct '13, not enough progress
Hysteroscopy Jan '14, given an end-of-the-road diagnosis
Joined International Asherman's Association April '14
Not ready to give up yet.
Hysteroscopy with Dr. Isaacson (an expert in the USA) 6.2.14: Good prognosis, at least 50% of cavity open.
Repeat hysteroscopy scheduled with Dr. I on 6.16.14. Great progress. Unbenched!!!!
Discussing actively TTC with DH after the heartache of the last year. We're both reeling.
DD- I give up. Exhausted from everything. I am sitting on the porch enjoying the breeze. I'm about to get a beer and let DH chase DS all over the neighborhood.
I'm having a hard time with it being June. A year ago this month was when Noah was conceived, and when I got my BFP. It's so hard to believe it's been a year.
It's June. Which means that it has been a year since we stopped "preventing" and 11 months since we started actually trying. Lots of ladies have been trying much longer than me, but it's crazy to think that we have been trying this "long" already. I never thought it would take this long, cause "most people get pregnant in the first year of trying." I never thought that we would have to see a specialist. Nor did I think that I would be freaked out leaving the RE office a few days before an IUI and feeling defeated because I only have 2 follicles that are going to pop eggs, worried that it's not going to work. Last time there were 4 and no targets were hit. How can we make it happen with only 2 this time. I never thought I'd google sperm and sperm count and all of the other stuff only to go to the grocery store and buy pomegranate juice and asparagus to force DH on eating that alone for a week before an IUI. I just want A BABY.
Pitty Party- Table of 1 (AKA- Crazy medicated female- Party of 1)
Me: 38 DH: 36
Married: July 21, 2013
TTC#1 (between us): June/July 2013
DX: MFI (low count and motility)
Charting/OPK/CBFM July 2013-present
1st RE Visit: January 2014
Cycling:
March 2014- 75iu follistim + trigger + progesterone + IUI = BFN and OHSS
(8 million post wash 47% motility, 18mm/17mm/16mm/16mm/14mm follies)
April/May 2014- Benched due to cysts/enlarged ovaries
DDF: If I have to watch one more person still mooching off their parents get pregnant unexpectedly and have a healthy baby I'm afraid I'm going to become a hermit.
^^^^^^^ This too. Damn it.
Me: 38 DH: 36
Married: July 21, 2013
TTC#1 (between us): June/July 2013
DX: MFI (low count and motility)
Charting/OPK/CBFM July 2013-present
1st RE Visit: January 2014
Cycling:
March 2014- 75iu follistim + trigger + progesterone + IUI = BFN and OHSS
(8 million post wash 47% motility, 18mm/17mm/16mm/16mm/14mm follies)
April/May 2014- Benched due to cysts/enlarged ovaries
I'm having a hard time with it being June. A year ago this month was when Noah was conceived, and when I got my BFP. It's so hard to believe it's been a year.
I'm so sorry.
After two losses, a rainbow arrived! DD born 11.5.11
Dx with severe Asherman's syndrome after a botched PP D&C (pursuing med mal)
Hysteroscopy Oct '13, not enough progress
Hysteroscopy Jan '14, given an end-of-the-road diagnosis
Joined International Asherman's Association April '14
Not ready to give up yet.
Hysteroscopy with Dr. Isaacson (an expert in the USA) 6.2.14: Good prognosis, at least 50% of cavity open.
Repeat hysteroscopy scheduled with Dr. I on 6.16.14. Great progress. Unbenched!!!!
Discussing actively TTC with DH after the heartache of the last year. We're both reeling.
It's June. Which means that it has been a year since we stopped "preventing" and 11 months since we started actually trying. Lots of ladies have been trying much longer than me, but it's crazy to think that we have been trying this "long" already. I never thought it would take this long, cause "most people get pregnant in the first year of trying." I never thought that we would have to see a specialist. Nor did I think that I would be freaked out leaving the RE office a few days before an IUI and feeling defeated because I only have 2 follicles that are going to pop eggs, worried that it's not going to work. Last time there were 4 and no targets were hit. How can we make it happen with only 2 this time. I never thought I'd google sperm and sperm count and all of the other stuff only to go to the grocery store and buy pomegranate juice and asparagus to force DH on eating that alone for a week before an IUI. I just want A BABY.
Pitty Party- Table of 1 (AKA- Crazy medicated female- Party of 1)
When you want something this badly 11 months feels like a lifetime. I'm sorry
After two losses, a rainbow arrived! DD born 11.5.11
Dx with severe Asherman's syndrome after a botched PP D&C (pursuing med mal)
Hysteroscopy Oct '13, not enough progress
Hysteroscopy Jan '14, given an end-of-the-road diagnosis
Joined International Asherman's Association April '14
Not ready to give up yet.
Hysteroscopy with Dr. Isaacson (an expert in the USA) 6.2.14: Good prognosis, at least 50% of cavity open.
Repeat hysteroscopy scheduled with Dr. I on 6.16.14. Great progress. Unbenched!!!!
Discussing actively TTC with DH after the heartache of the last year. We're both reeling.
MrsLaurenandDan Big hugs to you. I know this must be really difficult for you.
Mommalawyer Make that Pity party table of 2. It's the beginning of June so that makes 18 months for me. I was thinking today if I had gotten pregnant when we started I could have had a baby twice over by now. Not nearly as long as some but still too long.
It's a bit surreal. I don't think any of is believed or thought we'd find ourselves here. But all of a sudden it has become X amount of time. I'm still choking down the fact that I've been seeing the RE several times a month now, for 6 months. It's just bizarre. Time flies when you're IF I guess. Here's to all of us getting KTFU whatever way possible & soon!
Me: 38 DH: 36
Married: July 21, 2013
TTC#1 (between us): June/July 2013
DX: MFI (low count and motility)
Charting/OPK/CBFM July 2013-present
1st RE Visit: January 2014
Cycling:
March 2014- 75iu follistim + trigger + progesterone + IUI = BFN and OHSS
(8 million post wash 47% motility, 18mm/17mm/16mm/16mm/14mm follies)
April/May 2014- Benched due to cysts/enlarged ovaries
Re: DDF
Eff off May- June you're on notice.
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: Potato Love!
I am truly happy that I'm finally having another cycle after my surgery and 53 day cycle. I could however do without the night terrors (which I havent had in 8 years and have suddenly re-emerged) about a bear getting in my house, then running away into the woods only to be chased by wolves. The obvious subtext being after almost 3 months of being more or less benched (it sucked but the pressure was off) infertility is back to get me.
Also, WHY is the nurse at my RE office SUCH a flake? Seriously? She's called in my prescription to the wrong pharmacy 3 times. I have repeatedly asked her to change the info in my chart. When she does call it in, it's for the wrong thing or there are not enough pills in the the prescription and I have to call her back, yet again.
AND worst of all my dad has apparently decided it's time to die. He's in liver failure, had a TIPS last month that is not working. He keeps canceling his doctor appointments and he's is taking no steps what so ever to get on the transplant list. Last night he emailed me a list of songs he want's played at his funeral. 2 dedicated to his girlfriend of 5 months, none for his children or granddaughter. We have a very complicated relationship, but I don't want him to just give up. WTF am I supposed to do with that?
On the plus side, I'm so stressed out right now my house is spotless, all my DIY cleaning supplies are replenished, I stripped all my daughters cloth diapers, and I've got enough homemade bread in the freezer to last 3 months. Ah distraction, it's a wonderful thing.
TTC #2 since 1/1/13
I have a sink full of dishes from last nights dinner, and I don't even care. I am so thrilled that my little man wanted to cuddle on the couch for about half an hour and read a book. Those dishes will just have to wait. Probably for DH to get home tonight! I hope he doesn't mind.
Now, I need to take my first shower in two days. Yet I didn't shower yesterday and I feel gross.
Dear Diary,
this month sucked. we're heading into summer and i'd like something positive to look forward to. not the shit i'm dealing with at work, the shit i'm dealing with in school, and the shit inside my belly. i'm fucking over allllll of it. i would like my RE to call me the fuck back already so i can schedule this lap and get on the TTC train again. mkay. thanks.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
I want to saw my arm off...that's it!
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
Mommalawyer Make that Pity party table of 2. It's the beginning of June so that makes 18 months for me. I was thinking today if I had gotten pregnant when we started I could have had a baby twice over by now. Not nearly as long as some but still too long.
TTC #2 since 1/1/13