Pregnant after IF
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Intro and a Question

I guess it's time to intro over here because, as I've seen posted a few times over here, "Today I am Pregnant"!  I haven't updated my siggy - I think i feel it will jinx it - but I had my first Beta Monday 11dp5dt and it was 578.  Beta 2 was today but i probably won't get the results until tomorrow

Soo anyway my story is in my sig and i really hope I can hang out with you ladies for the next 8ish months :)

My question... is it normal to feel sad and lonely?  I should be bouncing off the walls - and I am happy I finally got a BFP... but I just feel so very alone and close to tears most of the time.  It doesn't help DH is away - but i'm just hoping this something I can blame on these pesky hormones

TIA



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***Siggy Warning***
TTC Since Feb 2011 - HSG Aug 2012 opened 1 tube - Lap Nov 2012 confirmed Endo. 
May 2013 both tubes blocked by hydrosalpinx. Nov 2013 Essure Placed permanently blocking both tubes

IVF #1 - Jan/Feb 2014 Patch Protocol - 3 day 5 blasts Frosties - transferred 1 blast BFN 
FET #1 - May 15 transferred 1 blast - HPT May 22 BFP - Beta #1 May 26 - 578 - Beta #2 May 28 1707
U/S #1 June 9 6w4d hb 111 - U/S #2 June 17 7w5d HB 156 - EDD Jan 29, 2015


Re: Intro and a Question

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    congrats and welcome! DH and I had a moment of joy when we got a positive HPT but then it was just fear until our first ultrasound. I think it is perfectly normal to be guarded in the beginning. I'm not sure if your telling people or not but it can be normal to feel alone when you have such big changes going on and don't feel comfortable or have anyone to talk to about it. At least you have the bump to keep you company since we have all been there  ;)
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    jlr96jlr96 member
    Hey!  Welcome & CONGRATS!!!  I wasn't really sad but I was scared, worried & anxious until my last RE appointment at 12 weeks.  We go through so much to get to this point that it takes awhile to sink in & feel like it is really happening.  And no, the hormones do not help!  I'm sure you will feel better with time & you always have us to come to!

    Me (36) - LOR, DH (34) - MFI (low count & poor motility)

    TTC since 01/2012

    11/2012-04/2013 Unmonitored Clomid cycles through OB/GYN; Referred to RE

    05/2013-Benched due to cyst

    06/2013 - Clomid 50 mg + HCG Trigger + TI = BFN

    07/2013 - Clomid 50 mg + HCG Trigger + IUI #1 = BFN

     08/2013 - Clomid 50 mg + HCG Trigger + IUI #2 = BFN

    09/2013 - Benched for lap & hysteroscopy (Stage II Endo Removed)

    10/2013 - Menopur + HCG Trigger + IUI #3 = BFN

    11/2013 - Menopur + HCG Trigger + IUI #4 = BFN

     12/2013 - Clomid + HCG Trigger + IUI #5 = BFN

    2/2014 - IVF #1 - Microdose Lupron Flare Protocol - 5R/4M/4F w/ICSI; 2 embies transferred on day 3 (none to freeze)

    2/27/14 - First BFP Ever!!!  EDD 11/3/14

     

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    Welcome and congratulations!

    To answer your questions, I think it's completely normal -- especially considering that your DH is away. There are a lot of uncertaintanties that come with pregnancy especially after dealing with IF. Truthfully, it took me a while to even get excited about my BFP because of all the "what if's." And then, with twins, I was constantly worried about one reabsorbing. I'm still scared, but it has gotten better with time.

    All I can offer is try to live in the moment. Try to celebrate each small milestone. As you said, today you are pregnant!


    N14 Nov. Siggy: CELEBRATION!

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    Aug. - Sept. 2013 - dIUIs = BFNs
    January 2014 - IVF = 3 freezer babies
    March 2014 - FET of AA and AB blast = BFP! Twins! 
    Nov. 7, 2014 - Wilhelmina "Willa" Suzanne (4lb 14oz) and Ari Jose (6lb 4oz) were born via CS
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    xtina78xtina78 member
    Congrats and welcome! A whole range of emotions is normal. It really took me to hitting "viability" to feel really excited. A history of IF brings all kinds of emotional complications and add to that hormones, morning sickness and who knows what you're going to get. Good luck to you!
    Me - 35. DH - 40. TTC #1 since 9/2010. 
    IUI #1-2 BFN
    IUI #3 BFP = C/P
    IUI #4-6 BFNs
    IVF #1 Lupron and Gonal F: 29R 29M 28F
    2 blastocysts transferred 12/14/13
    Beta at 9dp5dt = 285; Beta at 12dp5dt = 925
    It's twins! EDD 9/2/14


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    Congrats and welcome. I felt the same way, I wasn't super excited at first. I still have a hard time believing this is happening, in fact had nightmares about miscarriage last night. I can't imagine how hard it must be not to have your DH there either. Good luck to you!
    Me 29 DH 30 Unexplained IF TTC since wedding May 2012. IUI #1 11/5/13-BFN.  IUI #2 12/5/13-BFN. IUI #3-12/30/14. All three with Femara CD 3-7 and Ovidrel trigger. +HPT 1/13/14 First +ever!!! Beta #1 195 Beta #2 1/15-533. Ultrasound on 2/4 showed one bean. EDD 9/22/14. Team Green turned Team Blue-Baby Conner arrived on 9/19/14.



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    marniefmarnief member
    edited May 2014
    Welcome and congrats!  FX for a great doubling beta, and a happy & healthy and totally normal remaining 8 months.  :)  Whatever you feel - it's normal.  From all the IF treatment hormones + IF-related stress, to pregnancy hormones...we are basically cocktails of emotions.  Hang in there and keep us posted, and vent as much as you need to, that's what we are here for :)
    Me: 37 | DH: 38 | Married 9/2012, low AMH, high FSH
    First-ever BFP after IUI #4 (Follistim) - Baby Girl born (36w2d) 8/8/2014!
    TTC #2 since Feb 2015
    BFP 5/4/15
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    LSN8308LSN8308 member
    congrats and welcome! like pp have said, what you're feeling is totally normal. its the IF brain in us and for me i was more scared than sad but FX that feeling will pass quickly for u!
    **SIGGY TICKER WARNING**
    Me: 27 High FSH (POF?) DH: 33 Slightly Low Morphology / Married Aug '08 TTC since 7/2009
    6 rounds of clomid = no luck
    IVF w/ ICSI & AZH #1 - Jan/2011 = ET cancelled OHSS
    FET #1 & #2 - March/2011 & June/2011 = Chemical Preg.
    IVF w/ Half ICSI #2 New RE - May/2012 = BFN!
    May '12 - Sep '13 - Took A Break
    Dec '13 IVF w/ Half ICSI #3!!!!! Switched RE
    Protocol - Lupron trigger/Follistim/Ganirelix/Estrace/Vivelle/Crinone
    12/27 - BFP! TWINS! EDD 9/3/14 ...Team PURPLE!
    6/27/14 - Emergency C/S @ 30w2d - Baby A 2lb 14oz, Baby B 2lb 11 oz
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    penad5penad5 member
    Thanks all - I feel better knowing its "normal" and that I have all of you who understand :)

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    ***Siggy Warning***
    TTC Since Feb 2011 - HSG Aug 2012 opened 1 tube - Lap Nov 2012 confirmed Endo. 
    May 2013 both tubes blocked by hydrosalpinx. Nov 2013 Essure Placed permanently blocking both tubes

    IVF #1 - Jan/Feb 2014 Patch Protocol - 3 day 5 blasts Frosties - transferred 1 blast BFN 
    FET #1 - May 15 transferred 1 blast - HPT May 22 BFP - Beta #1 May 26 - 578 - Beta #2 May 28 1707
    U/S #1 June 9 6w4d hb 111 - U/S #2 June 17 7w5d HB 156 - EDD Jan 29, 2015


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