I guess it's time to intro over here because, as I've seen posted a few times over here, "Today I am Pregnant"! I haven't updated my siggy - I think i feel it will jinx it - but I had my first Beta Monday 11dp5dt and it was 578. Beta 2 was today but i probably won't get the results until tomorrow
Soo anyway my story is in my sig and i really hope I can hang out with you ladies for the next 8ish months
My question... is it normal to feel sad and lonely? I should be bouncing off the walls - and I am happy I finally got a BFP... but I just feel so very alone and close to tears most of the time. It doesn't help DH is away - but i'm just hoping this something I can blame on these pesky hormones
TIA
***Siggy Warning***
TTC Since Feb 2011 - HSG Aug 2012 opened 1 tube - Lap Nov 2012 confirmed Endo.
May 2013 both tubes blocked by hydrosalpinx. Nov 2013 Essure Placed permanently blocking both tubes
congrats and welcome! DH and I had a moment of joy when we got a positive HPT but then it was just fear until our first ultrasound. I think it is perfectly normal to be guarded in the beginning. I'm not sure if your telling people or not but it can be normal to feel alone when you have such big changes going on and don't feel comfortable or have anyone to talk to about it. At least you have the bump to keep you company since we have all been there
Hey! Welcome & CONGRATS!!! I wasn't really sad but I was scared, worried & anxious until my last RE appointment at 12 weeks. We go through so much to get to this point that it takes awhile to sink in & feel like it is really happening. And no, the hormones do not help! I'm sure you will feel better with time & you always have us to come to!
Me (36) - LOR, DH (34) - MFI (low count & poor motility)
TTC since 01/2012
11/2012-04/2013 Unmonitored Clomid cycles through OB/GYN; Referred to RE
To answer your questions, I think it's completely normal -- especially considering that your DH is away. There are a lot of uncertaintanties that come with pregnancy especially after dealing with IF. Truthfully, it took me a while to even get excited about my BFP because of all the "what if's." And then, with twins, I was constantly worried about one reabsorbing. I'm still scared, but it has gotten better with time.
All I can offer is try to live in the moment. Try to celebrate each small milestone. As you said, today you are pregnant!
N14 Nov. Siggy: CELEBRATION!
TTC since 2011
Aug. - Sept. 2013 - dIUIs = BFNs
January 2014 - IVF = 3 freezer babies
March 2014 - FET of AA and AB blast = BFP! Twins!
Nov. 7, 2014 - Wilhelmina "Willa" Suzanne (4lb 14oz) and Ari Jose (6lb 4oz) were born via CS
Congrats and welcome! A whole range of emotions is normal. It really took me to hitting "viability" to feel really excited. A history of IF brings all kinds of emotional complications and add to that hormones, morning sickness and who knows what you're going to get. Good luck to you!
Congrats and welcome. I felt the same way, I wasn't super excited at first. I still have a hard time believing this is happening, in fact had nightmares about miscarriage last night. I can't imagine how hard it must be not to have your DH there either. Good luck to you!
Me 29 DH 30 Unexplained IF TTC since wedding May 2012. IUI #1 11/5/13-BFN. IUI #2 12/5/13-BFN. IUI #3-12/30/14. All three with Femara CD 3-7 and Ovidrel trigger. +HPT 1/13/14 First +ever!!! Beta #1 195 Beta #2 1/15-533. Ultrasound on 2/4 showed one bean. EDD 9/22/14. Team Green turned Team Blue-Baby Conner arrived on 9/19/14.
Welcome and congrats! FX for a great doubling beta, and a happy & healthy and totally normal remaining 8 months. Whatever you feel - it's normal. From all the IF treatment hormones + IF-related stress, to pregnancy hormones...we are basically cocktails of emotions. Hang in there and keep us posted, and vent as much as you need to, that's what we are here for
Me: 37 | DH: 38 | Married 9/2012, low AMH, high FSH
First-ever BFP after IUI #4 (Follistim) - Baby Girl born (36w2d) 8/8/2014!
congrats and welcome! like pp have said, what you're feeling is totally normal. its the IF brain in us and for me i was more scared than sad but FX that feeling will pass quickly for u!
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Me: 27 High FSH (POF?) DH: 33 Slightly Low Morphology / Married Aug '08TTC since 7/2009 6 rounds of clomid = no luck IVF w/ ICSI & AZH #1 - Jan/2011 = ET cancelled OHSS FET #1 & #2 - March/2011 & June/2011 = Chemical Preg. IVF w/ Half ICSI #2 New RE - May/2012 = BFN! May '12 - Sep '13 - Took A Break Dec '13 IVF w/ Half ICSI #3!!!!! Switched RE Protocol - Lupron trigger/Follistim/Ganirelix/Estrace/Vivelle/Crinone
12/27 - BFP! TWINS! EDD 9/3/14 ...Team PURPLE! 6/27/14 - Emergency C/S @ 30w2d - Baby A 2lb 14oz, Baby B 2lb 11 oz
Re: Intro and a Question
Me (36) - LOR, DH (34) - MFI (low count & poor motility)
TTC since 01/2012
11/2012-04/2013 Unmonitored Clomid cycles through OB/GYN; Referred to RE
05/2013-Benched due to cyst
06/2013 - Clomid 50 mg + HCG Trigger + TI = BFN
07/2013 - Clomid 50 mg + HCG Trigger + IUI #1 = BFN
08/2013 - Clomid 50 mg + HCG Trigger + IUI #2 = BFN
09/2013 - Benched for lap & hysteroscopy (Stage II Endo Removed)
10/2013 - Menopur + HCG Trigger + IUI #3 = BFN
11/2013 - Menopur + HCG Trigger + IUI #4 = BFN
12/2013 - Clomid + HCG Trigger + IUI #5 = BFN
2/2014 - IVF #1 - Microdose Lupron Flare Protocol - 5R/4M/4F w/ICSI; 2 embies transferred on day 3 (none to freeze)
2/27/14 - First BFP Ever!!! EDD 11/3/14
Welcome and congratulations!
To answer your questions, I think it's completely normal -- especially considering that your DH is away. There are a lot of uncertaintanties that come with pregnancy especially after dealing with IF. Truthfully, it took me a while to even get excited about my BFP because of all the "what if's." And then, with twins, I was constantly worried about one reabsorbing. I'm still scared, but it has gotten better with time.
All I can offer is try to live in the moment. Try to celebrate each small milestone. As you said, today you are pregnant!
N14 Nov. Siggy: CELEBRATION!
6 rounds of clomid = no luck
IVF w/ ICSI & AZH #1 - Jan/2011 = ET cancelled OHSS
FET #1 & #2 - March/2011 & June/2011 = Chemical Preg.
IVF w/ Half ICSI #2 New RE - May/2012 = BFN!
May '12 - Sep '13 - Took A Break
Dec '13 IVF w/ Half ICSI #3!!!!! Switched RE
Protocol - Lupron trigger/Follistim/Ganirelix/Estrace/Vivelle/Crinone
6/27/14 - Emergency C/S @ 30w2d - Baby A 2lb 14oz, Baby B 2lb 11 oz