A Delayed Goodbye.

hsabyan · May 2014

Hello everyone,

Although I wasn't a daily poster through pregnancy, I was definitely a lurker and contributed when I could. I checked in daily to see how everyone's pregnancy was going, see the latest drama, and learn what I could as a first time mom.

I haven't been on at all, and in fact I deleted my app on April 2nd.

My baby girl, Georgia Jeanne, was born on April 1st. My EDD was April 22nd. I had posted previously that my husband and I had found at our anatomy scan last December, that she had a rare heart defect (CCTGA and an Ebstinoid Malformation). We had hoped that she would be able to overcome the huge obstacle and her little heart would work well at a deficit.

She was extremely critical when she was born and had to be resuscitated right away and put on a ventilator along with lots of IV medications to keep her heart pumping. We spent 40 extremely stressful, sad- but wonderful- days with her in the NICU, but in the end she didn't make it. Her liver ceased to function and she grew very jaundice and very sick. The doctors did all they could but couldn't find a cause for her liver failure, and with two main organs not working- there was nothing that could be done. I am blessed to have had the time that I did with her. We treasured the milestones we reached (first poop, loss of fluid weight, one month birthday, when she started opening her eyes, first time holding her (on her 12th day of life)). Thanks to the amazing nurses in the NICU, I was able to revel in mommy moments- dressing her up, changing her diapers, and ultimately giving her a last bath.

On May 10th, my husband and I held our baby girl as her tubes and IV's were removed and she took her last breath. It was the first time that we were able to see her pretty face without her tube. She was beautiful.

You all were an amazing support system throughout my pregnancy and I'm so glad I was able to be a part of the group, even if my role was small. I just wanted to say thank you for everything, and I hope everyone is enjoying their time with their new squishy babies.

If anyone is interesting in reading our story, my husband wrote daily updates while we were at the hospital.

https://www.giveforward.com/fundraiser/grb4/georgia-s-healing-help

Rrrrrachel · May 2014

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing your story.

Erikahenderson1 · May 2014

I am so sorry, my heart breaks for you. Love to you and your husband

Erikahenderson1 · May 2014

She was so beautiful

WifeofaComposer · May 2014

I remember you. Georgia is a beautiful little angel baby with amazing parents. Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm so glad you got to spend some time with her and show her how much you love her. I will read what your husband has written, too. Sending you so much love. Be well.

ksulli · May 2014

I am so heartbroken for you and your family. She was a beautiful girl. You are a wonderful mother to have helped her through her short time here. I hope you and your husband are being well supported by your community as you continue through this journey.

LittleLady77 · May 2014

I started crying while reading your post. My heart breaks for your family. She is beautiful.

baylorlinda · May 2014

I am so sorry for your loss. She was absolutely beautiful. I am happy that you got to spend some time with her. Thank you for sharing your story.

nebrasskagal · May 2014

What a beautiful daughter you have. I am so sorry for your loss. Know that her brief life touched many. Praying for you.

Andrewsgal · May 2014

She is amazingly beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss.

edoliesmom · May 2014

I have no words for you other than my heart is breaking for you. I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing your story with us. She's beautiful, and I'm glad you got to have some time with her even if it was just for a little while.

Bluebird2318 · May 2014

I am so sorry for your loss.

What a beautiful little girl.

allyandmike24 · May 2014

Oh I am so sorry. I pray for peace and healing.

Michellelasenburg · May 2014

My heart is broken for you. What a wonderful mother and father Georgia was blessed with. Sending prayers...

Mport90 · May 2014

Such a precious little girl. I am so sorry for your loss, she was very lucky to have had parents like you for the time that she did. Prayers are with you and your family.

mrscrcalli · May 2014

She's beautiful, my heart breaks for your loss. Prayers your husband and you find peace with Georgia's passing.

abbeylanecb · May 2014

I'm so sorry for your loss. You family will be in my prayers.

Bees Everywhere · May 2014

What an angel. I'm so sorry for your loss.

mammasuzelov · May 2014

My heart breaks for you, I can't imagine what you're going through. You are in my thoughts.

ashcole28 · May 2014

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you and your husband.

Cassi215 · May 2014

This brought tears to my eyes but thank you for sharing your story. Your daughter was absolutely beatiful. your story has touched my heart and will make me cherish every second I have with my babies even more. Thank you

Alana1977 · May 2014

I am heartbroken for your family. I am crying as I read this story. Georgia was a beautiful little girl and while devastated for your loss I am so happy you were able to be with her, hold her close and treasure some special firsts, even if only for a short while. I hope you have lots of support around you right now as you and youd husband go through this sad, and difficult time.y thoughts and prayers are with you.

rockstarlaw · May 2014

I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you & your family.

krazy6262 · May 2014

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you're going through. My heart goes out to you and your family.

adheaton1387 · May 2014

What a gorgeous little girl. I'm so sorry for your loss and will be praying for you and your husband and family. Thank you for sharing your story- what a treasure each day with her must have been!

Holljade · May 2014

I am so so so sorry for your loss- thank you for sharing your story, she is so beautiful. Thoughts and prayers for peace and healing for you and you husband.

bootsiebabe · May 2014

I am so very sorry for your loss. Your beautiful angel has one amazingly strong mom.

Emily041285 · May 2014

What a heartbreaking story, thank you for sharing. I'll be thinking of you and your sweet Georgia.

Ashleypixie · May 2014

Such a sweet little girl. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Mustardseed2007 · May 2014

Your daughter was so beautiful. You're a great mommy, and I'm so sorry for your loss.

*sparky* · May 2014

I am so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Dianakdee · May 2014

I am so very for your loss. May god continue to bless your family and the good times you were able to have.

Eija3014 · May 2014

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful little girl. You and your family are in my thoughts<3

sking72 · May 2014

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Avion22 · May 2014

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. She was a beautiful girl, and was lucky to have you for a mom, even for a short time.

Dixon813 · May 2014

She is absolutely beautiful - I'm so very sorry for your loss.

The Loss board here on thebump has amazing women who are very supportive. Please know you'll be welcomed with open arms.

Again, I'm so sorry for your loss... This is something no one should have to go through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband.

LaNorte · May 2014

I'm so sorry for your loss, she is beautiful and was blessed to have you as her mom.

Afterlater · May 2014

As I read the updates my heart aches for your family. I am so sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing your story.

MrsMeatball41 · May 2014

She is beautiful! Praying for y'all.

Serenla · May 2014

((((((Hugs))))))) she is so beautiful, I am so sorry for your loss. I am sending much love to you and your family, when you're ready the loss community here is amazing.