Pregnant after a Loss

AW: Happy Update and a Thank You

toomanycats1toomanycats1 member
edited May 2014 in Pregnant after a Loss
Edited to add tl;dr:  We are out!  Not FB out, but out to families/work etc.  DS is excited to have a little brother!  Thanks for all the support over the last 1.5 years on TTCAL, PGAL.  Love you all!

We came out last weekend at 17 weeks and it was absolutely nerve wracking.  Every time we hit a new milestone, my anxiety ramps up and I become super paranoid that it's going to end again.  Now that I can feel babe move, I'm feeling much more reassured. 

We wanted DS to be the first to know, so we sat him down and told him he was going to have a brother or sister.  He suffers from anxiety, and we never know what is going to trigger it (it's never what you think), he had a moment of panic where he worried the baby would break his stuff.  We promised to replace it if that happened, and he's been excited ever since.  I can't seem to say the words "I'm pregnant", so this works out good because the 7 year old loves telling people!  After telling DS, we let our families know, and then I told work last week.  We are out!  Not FB out, but I probably won't be comfortable with that at any point.  

Anyway, so yesterday we took DS to a 3D U/S so he could find out if he's having a brother or sister.  It's a boy!  We suspected that all along, and are so excited about it.  It wasn't the most riveting U/S because baby was sleepy and really didn't want to move around lots.  I'm cool with that though, because DS was a super easy baby, and he was calm at every U/S as well.  

So I guess it's official... I'm 18 weeks pregnant with a boy.  I can't believe it!  I feel like I'm in shock that I'm still here.  My anxiety about other things has been ramping up, and I think it's because for so long I had something TTC or PGAL related to worry about, and now that's eased up a bit and it feels like something is missing.  I have a doppler, and can feel baby, so I don't have the long weeks of worry between appointments/cycles  I once did.  It's weird.  Did anyone else have a similar experience?  

Sorry this is so long, but I also wanted to say thank you for the support you've given these last few months.  I was terrified in the beginning, and needed a lot of support.  More than I could give unfortunately.  This is my 3rd visit here, and I'm thankful to have lasted this long.  Many of you supported me over on TTCAL during the year I was there, and I really don't think I could have survived that journey without you.  I love you all so much and I'm so thankful to have found you!


 

Me: Endometriosis, PCOS, Insulin Resistance, Estrogen Dominance, Irregular Cycles
DH:  100% Abnormal Sperm Morphology
 BFP #1 (Surprise!)  "Monkey"- 09/16/2006. DS born 06/01/2007.   
BFP #2  "Quinn" EDD 06/21/13- MMC @ 8 weeks - Disc. 12/12/12 @ 13w0d 
BFP #3  "Luna" EDD 03/31/14- MC 07/29/13 @ 5 w0d 
BFP #4  "Star" EDD 07/06/14- MC 11/28/13 @ 8 weeks
BFP #5 "Baby J"- 02/07/14. DS born 10/29/2014 My Rainbow!
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Re: AW: Happy Update and a Thank You

  • KJsbabeKJsbabe member
    edited May 2014
    Congrats on coming out! That's a big step! And congrats on your little boy!

    I was terrified to come out with DD. It made me feel very vulnerable because we had never told anyone about my first two pregnancies that I lost. I was so sure that something would go wrong as soon as I said something. Time was really the only thing that made me feel better. Just making another day or week made me eventually feel more confident. Having a doppler and feeling movement definitely helped, too. I remember using the doppler 2 or 3 times a day in the week after we told!

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  • @KJsbabe - So glad to see I'm not alone in the paranoia.  I went shopping for baby clothes yesterday, and then put them back and didn't buy them because I was sure something bad would happen if I did.  That's crazy, I know!  Two of our losses were secret as well, which I think makes coming out a lot harder.  

    Me: Endometriosis, PCOS, Insulin Resistance, Estrogen Dominance, Irregular Cycles
    DH:  100% Abnormal Sperm Morphology
     BFP #1 (Surprise!)  "Monkey"- 09/16/2006. DS born 06/01/2007.   
    BFP #2  "Quinn" EDD 06/21/13- MMC @ 8 weeks - Disc. 12/12/12 @ 13w0d 
    BFP #3  "Luna" EDD 03/31/14- MC 07/29/13 @ 5 w0d 
    BFP #4  "Star" EDD 07/06/14- MC 11/28/13 @ 8 weeks
    BFP #5 "Baby J"- 02/07/14. DS born 10/29/2014 My Rainbow!
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  • I love that you let DS tell people!!! That works out perfectly! Congratulations on coming out!
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  • Kisses!! Beautiful update!

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    And it's, not, about the things you've done, it's what you're doing, now"

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    Congrats! Yay for another boy!
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  • This is awesome news!!! Congrats!

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    Convinced it was a boy and missing him every day!
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  • JCM285JCM285 member
    Yay congrats on your little boy and also happy that you were able to get some relief from your announcement!!
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    BFP#2:   2/7/14 ~ m/c 2/20/14 ~ possibly due to chemical pregnancy ~ TG no D&C is needed 

    Surprise BFP#3:  4/4/14 ~ super duper extra happy (and nervous) about this one - EDD 12/9/14!!!

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  • rmpar29rmpar29 member
    Congrats on your baby boy!!!!  I'm so glad that DS is excited to have a little brother. 

    I'm sorry that you are feeling so much anxiety and I'm sure that isn't going to rest until you have your baby in your arms.  I'm glad that things are going well for you and I'm so happy to see your update!  Much love honey!
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