Edited to add tl;dr: We are out! Not FB out, but out to families/work etc. DS is excited to have a little brother! Thanks for all the support over the last 1.5 years on TTCAL, PGAL. Love you all!
We came out last weekend at 17 weeks and it was absolutely nerve wracking. Every time we hit a new milestone, my anxiety ramps up and I become super paranoid that it's going to end again. Now that I can feel babe move, I'm feeling much more reassured.
We wanted DS to be the first to know, so we sat him down and told him he was going to have a brother or sister. He suffers from anxiety, and we never know what is going to trigger it (it's never what you think), he had a moment of panic where he worried the baby would break his stuff. We promised to replace it if that happened, and he's been excited ever since. I can't seem to say the words "I'm pregnant", so this works out good because the 7 year old loves telling people! After telling DS, we let our families know, and then I told work last week. We are out! Not FB out, but I probably won't be comfortable with that at any point.
Anyway, so yesterday we took DS to a 3D U/S so he could find out if he's having a brother or sister. It's a boy! We suspected that all along, and are so excited about it. It wasn't the most riveting U/S because baby was sleepy and really didn't want to move around lots. I'm cool with that though, because DS was a super easy baby, and he was calm at every U/S as well.
So I guess it's official... I'm 18 weeks pregnant with a boy. I can't believe it! I feel like I'm in shock that I'm still here. My anxiety about other things has been ramping up, and I think it's because for so long I had something TTC or PGAL related to worry about, and now that's eased up a bit and it feels like something is missing. I have a doppler, and can feel baby, so I don't have the long weeks of worry between appointments/cycles I once did. It's weird. Did anyone else have a similar experience?
Sorry this is so long, but I also wanted to say thank you for the support you've given these last few months. I was terrified in the beginning, and needed a lot of support. More than I could give unfortunately. This is my 3rd visit here, and I'm thankful to have lasted this long. Many of you supported me over on TTCAL during the year I was there, and I really don't think I could have survived that journey without you. I love you all so much and I'm so thankful to have found you!
Me: Endometriosis, PCOS, Insulin Resistance, Estrogen Dominance, Irregular Cycles
DH: 100% Abnormal Sperm Morphology
BFP #1 (Surprise!) "Monkey"- 09/16/2006. DS born 06/01/2007.
BFP #2 "Quinn" EDD 06/21/13- MMC @ 8 weeks - Disc. 12/12/12 @ 13w0d
BFP #3 "Luna" EDD 03/31/14- MC 07/29/13 @ 5 w0d
BFP #4 "Star" EDD 07/06/14- MC 11/28/13 @ 8 weeks
BFP #5 "Baby J"- 02/07/14. DS born 10/29/2014 My Rainbow!
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Re: AW: Happy Update and a Thank You
I was terrified to come out with DD. It made me feel very vulnerable because we had never told anyone about my first two pregnancies that I lost. I was so sure that something would go wrong as soon as I said something. Time was really the only thing that made me feel better. Just making another day or week made me eventually feel more confident. Having a doppler and feeling movement definitely helped, too. I remember using the doppler 2 or 3 times a day in the week after we told!
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BFP #2 11/3/10; BO at u/s 10w6d 12/16/10; Natural MC 1/7/11; D&C 4/21/11
BFP #3 10/27/11 Please stick, LO!! 2/6/12 It's a Girl! Alexis Grace born 6/29/12
BFP#4 4/27/14 Stick, stick, stick!! 8/11/14 It's a Boy! Evan Wesley born 1/8/15
"Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow, that is patience." Let it Be (blog) ♥ My BFP Charts
This time I'm not leaving without you.
BFP 4/17/13, MC began 5/2/13 @ 6 weeks
My FF Chart
"It's, not, where you are, it's where you're going,
And it's, not, about the things you've done, it's what you're doing, now"
TTC Journey Began 8/12
BFP #1 11/9/12, MMC/D&C 12/21/12 @ 9w2d, EDD 7/24/13
SAs: 2%-3% Morph - RE Official Diagnosis Unexplained
BFN = IUI #1 (Clomid) | IUI #2 (Letrozole)
BFP #2 4/19/14 = IUI #3 (Letrozole)
Expecting Our Elf 12/27/14
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BFP#1: 2/2/13 ~ exact m/c date unknown but around 3/20 at 10 weeks ~ diagnosed with PMP ~ D&C on 4/5 ~ TTA for at least 1 year due to PMP ~ cleared to TTC 1/14
BFP#2: 2/7/14 ~ m/c 2/20/14 ~ possibly due to chemical pregnancy ~ TG no D&C is needed
Surprise BFP#3: 4/4/14 ~ super duper extra happy (and nervous) about this one - EDD 12/9/14!!!
John Joseph was born on 12/12/14 at 7 lbs. 11 oz. He is the most beautiful rainbow baby we could have wished for!
I'm sorry that you are feeling so much anxiety and I'm sure that isn't going to rest until you have your baby in your arms. I'm glad that things are going well for you and I'm so happy to see your update! Much love honey!
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
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