So for the past few months DH and I have been discussing having another baby. I've been having a lot of anxiety about it due to previous losses, but mainly stress and obligations I'm feeling toward my job. I was just promoted to a job I LOVE at the beginning of the new year, but it comes with a LOT of stress and responsibility. I've been holding myself back from expanding our family making excuses like "I don't want to leave so soon after them giving me this job", "we're getting into busy season, it's not a good time", "the administrative assistant is pregnant, I should give it time so there isn't 2 of us away at the same time", "I need to take advantage of the opportunity since I'm not sure if I'll continue to work afterwards or stay home", and the list goes on. I'm still having anxiety, but I've decided to stop taking BC and just let it happen when it's going to happen. I know there will never be a good time, but I know it will all work itself out in the end.
Re: Done tossing and turning, just going for it