I've picked the best VBAC practice in town - 92% success rate - but after going on the hospital tour, getting the practice's 3rd trimester guidelines, and taking a first crack at my birth plan, I'm just not looking forward to dealing with them, or anyone really. After looking over what I wrote for the birth plan, I realized I could sum it up as the "don't touch me, don't talk to me, and do your best not to look at me" plan - what I really want is a quiet dark corner to do my thing in peace, with DH there of course. But I pretty much want every one else to just stand 10 feet back at all times, unless baby's vitals drop, or something that actually requires professional help.
I'm excited about the birth and getting to do the whole thing again, this time better equipped, with a better team, and in a more peaceful setting, but that excitement just isn't there for the hospital part of the delivery & recovery. It's not that I want to do a home birth or have an unassisted delivery, I don't, but I guess the ideal for me would be "unassisted" in a hospital setting unless assistance is needed.
I don't know where to put this exactly, but I thought the VBAC forum might make sense since maybe others share my apprehension. I'm excited about so many parts of what's to come, but would like to not dread the thought of dealing with the team I've chosen. Any tips on letting this go? I'd love to read some positive hospital VBAC stories too, feel free to recommend or link if you have some to share.