I considered Youtubing cervical checks and having DH check me.
I'm that desperate...
I tried to feel mine tonight just out of boredom. It's so high I couldn't even reach it. No wonder my OB laughed yesterday when I asked her the odds of actually going into labor this time. (I'm having a mandatory c-section bc of an ovarian mass so I don't want to go into labor, but I'm still curious.)
DS: 11/8/11 | 9 lb 7 oz, 22 in DD: 5/22/14 | 9 lb 9 oz, 21.5 in
Also, I'm still blaming pregnancy brain for dumb things, like yesterday when blow drying my hair, I attempted to turn the blow dryer off by using the light switch. Today I went to throw my gum out the window and rolled down the wrong window and still attempted to throw my gum out.
Anyway, as much as I'm like, "no good reason for a cervix check," my midwife asked if she could check baby's position vaginally and I said sure. Didn't tell me much other than a fingertip dilated and still pretty high.
In other news, I feel badly saying this...but I'm sure my SIL1 who is due in June will have her baby before me--and I'm annoyed. I'm also annoyed that the girl I used to baby sit as a kid also just had her baby. She's a FTM and so obviously she should have gone late. Nope. Early. /hate
I hate Forrest Gump and don't really get the big deal about Mean Girls.
I thought my baby was a big poop and yelled about having to poop quite a bit before I pushed him out. It was a fitting ending to weeks of playing "contraction or just poop."
BFP#1 11-26-10 MMC 1-13-11
BFP#2 6-8-11 Eleanor Beatrice born 2-15-12 BFP#3 9-4-13 Benjamin Lee born 4-28-14
I made brownies the other day - some for DH & I and the other half for my ILs (MIL was having surgery yesterday and I wanted to bring her something sweet). I ate most of the brownies in the pan.
I no longer have any interest in going to bed with DH at night. I dont sleep well (or at all) when he is in bed with me and I have really had to restrain myself from smothering him. Instead, I am staying up super late and go to sleep when he leaves for work. DH gone = big bed with ALL the pillows just for me
Now that LO has dropped, I am constantly terrified of sneezing or coughing too hard and pushing too hard during BMs for the irrational idea that baby might come shooting out.
I also keep thinking that I'm starting to have contractions because my back will begin to hurt/cramp out of nowhere, but it's just gas pain and it goes away as soon as I fart.
Both of my CNMs have told me to cut the sugar because of my rapid weight gain, and DH has been watching me like a hawk when he is home..so what do I do? I hide the fact that I'm eating Easter candy and ice cream from DH during the day instead.
My FFFC is that i'm keeping all potential signs of labor to myself until i think it's time to get this show on the road. If i mention anything remotely labor related, DH wouldn't let me relax so i'm just going to keep it to myself. Once i feel like something is definitely happening, then i'll let him know. Until then it's just not worth the hassle.
My other FFFC is that i flipping love "Blurred Lines". Yes, it's disgustingly sexist and the video is the epitome of misogyny, but come on. That is a fucking TUNE.
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
I considered Youtubing cervical checks and having DH check me.
I'm that desperate...
OW! It hurts enough when a professional does it!
I totally ran a red light on my way to work tonight. Like didn't even remember there was a light there until I was past it and thinking, "Wait, did I just run a red light?" Thank god it was a light for a business entrance and the business is not open at 11pm. I can't believe I was so stupid. Just not even paying attention.
I did this the morning of my wedding, I was so distracted I tore through a redlight. Luckily, there was no conflicting traffic. Note to self: let other people drive when important days are looming near.
Now that LO has dropped, I am constantly terrified of sneezing or coughing too hard and pushing too hard during BMs for the irrational idea that baby might come shooting out.
I also keep thinking that I'm starting to have contractions because my back will begin to hurt/cramp out of nowhere, but it's just gas pain and it goes away as soon as I fart.
You have no idea how badly I wish it worked this way...
That would be super easy. One sniff of pepper, sneeze - done and done!
My FFFC is that i'm keeping all potential signs of labor to myself until i think it's time to get this show on the road. If i mention anything remotely labor related, DH wouldn't let me relax so i'm just going to keep it to myself. Once i feel like something is definitely happening, then i'll let him know. Until then it's just not worth the hassle.
My other FFFC is that i flipping love "Blurred Lines". Yes, it's disgustingly sexist and the video is the epitome of misogyny, but come on. That is a fucking TUNE.
;Earlier this week every time I said anything about how I feel my husband was like "are you going into labour?" I finally told him to shut it, I will tell him when I am in labour.
It got so bad that I was dropping him off at work and told him I was in a rush because I had to poop so I wanted to go to get a coffee so I could go to the bathroom at a restaurant. He, completely serious, asked if I was actually in labour and that was the "feeling like you have to poop" feeling of labour. Um no, if I was in labour enough to need to push a poop/baby out, I don't think I would be driving the car to drop you off a work ...
I finally got him to stop by telling him he would be very aware of when I was in labour, he won't miss it.
I had some intense braxton hicks a few days ago and all evening he was just ON me, every time i moved. When i'd get up to go to the bathroom his eyes would pop out of his head and he'd say "are you ok?!". Umm yes. I need to pee, would you like to come? I totally appreciate how attentive he is and that he wants to help when the time comes, but shit. Calm down because you're putting me on edge! He's gone to work now and i've already had 4 texts asking if anything has happened yet. Fair enough i'm due in 2 days and he's about 2 hours away, but chill - i will call you!
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
DH asked in passing last night if I remember what labor is like so I'll know when it's started this time. I said yes, but it's really more of an "I think so... pretty sure?"
My mom is planning to come watch Benjamin when it's go time. I want to labor at home as long as I can, and am a little ashamed to confess that I'm worried about trying to do the first stage of labor with my mom, and possibly my dad depending on when things start happening, and my toddler in the house. I just remember wanting silence and privacy in the beginning with Benjamin, and am not sure how well that's going to work at home.
I gave up on wearing pants about 10 days ago. They're uncomfortabl and won't stay up. Instead I've been wearing long t-shirts with what should be leggings. But I don't have maternity leggings so I just wear thick knit tights. They still show a little skin and are definitely not appropriate to wear with the lengh of my shirts but IDGAF anymore. C-section is in 10 days and I will keep flashing my butt until then!
Off to google blurred lines...
GBCB!!!
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My FFFC is since I am basically a cow for DD at this point , I rarely wear a shirt at home anymore and IDGAF if the window shade is up or whatever, if you want to peep at flabby post preggo belly and pad panties go for it.
My FFFC is since I am basically a cow for DD at this point , I rarely wear a shirt at home anymore and IDGAF if the window shade is up or whatever, if you want to peep at flabby post preggo belly and pad panties go for it.
I walk around my condo naked. I'm on the second floor and there aren't any windows that directly face my place, but you could probably catch a peak if you were looking from a sidewalk or a porch in the neighborhood. I don't even have the excuse of nursing, I just don't want to wear clothes when I'm home.
I have had 4 cervical checks and until yesterday none of them were any more uncomfortable than a typical PAP smear... so I slightly judged all of those people that said they were so painful....karma is a B because yesterday was SO uncomfortable. I'm pretty sure she was about to actually pull the baby out.
FFFC: I'm so conflicted about how I want this whole labour thing to start. Ideally I kind of want a slow start to I can stay at home, take a relaxing bath, maybe walk my dog. Just so I feel like I am in a bit of control and have time to calmly get everything together and then decide (with consultation from medical staff) when to go to the hospital. I would also like my waters to remain intact for as long as possible, for pain management reasons.
On the other hand, I'm a newbie, so having my water break and things just "getting going" would really help me know that "this is it" and I need to get my ass to the hospital within a certain time frame, calm or not.
I'm also just really excited to meet this little guy and he has been super active today. Even though I would like my water not to break before labour starts, I'm half hoping this baby just punches through it today. With all the kicks and rolls I'm feeling today, I think he has the strength to start his own escape plan.
FFFC: I'm so conflicted about how I want this whole labour thing to start. Ideally I kind of want a slow start to I can stay at home, take a relaxing bath, maybe walk my dog. Just so I feel like I am in a bit of control and have time to calmly get everything together and then decide (with consultation from medical staff) when to go to the hospital. I would also like my waters to remain intact for as long as possible, for pain management reasons.
On the other hand, I'm a newbie, so having my water break and things just "getting going" would really help me know that "this is it" and I need to get my ass to the hospital within a certain time frame, calm or not.
I'm also just really excited to meet this little guy and he has been super active today. Even though I would like my water not to break before labour starts, I'm half hoping this baby just punches through it today. With all the kicks and rolls I'm feeling today, I think he has the strength to start his own escape plan.
Now that I went through it, it makes me snort that other FTM s still think they can control how it all goes down
We are moving in a couple weeks about 4 hours away (actually, DH is moving this weekend to start his new job, and baby and I will follow once we're recovered) We have been trying to pack up our stuff this week. DH is a total packrat and it really annoys me. I'm totally on Team "throw shit out." FFFC: I really want to get rid of some of his stuff (nothing important) while he is away working next week. I probably won't, though.
FFFC: I totally just lied to my FIL on the phone. He asked if anything was happening yet and I said no. I didn't want to tell him that I've been having contractions every 15 mins for the last 7 hours, now coming at every 8-10 mins. I'm not ready for the whole family to be on red alert yet. He'll find out when we're on our way to the hospital.
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
I'm pretty ashamed of this, but since we're being honest...
Since the shinnanigans with she-who-must-not-be-named and our recent late loss, I have been actively avoiding posting very much. I'm battling what I think may be oncoming depression.
I talk to my mother daily, and DH is on me like a hawk. Since I'm already on leave, he has helped me schedule either a visitor or an outside errand/activity every day to keep me in good spirits. Through all the gloom I'm feeling I love him so hard right now.
We are moving in a couple weeks about 4 hours away (actually, DH is moving this weekend to start his new job, and baby and I will follow once we're recovered) We have been trying to pack up our stuff this week. DH is a total packrat and it really annoys me. I'm totally on Team "throw shit out." FFFC: I really want to get rid of some of his stuff (nothing important) while he is away working next week. I probably won't, though.
Just "lose" it in the move? We go through this every time we move (4 times in the last 5 years) and it drives me crazy. "No, I want to save these blueprints from the landscape architecture hw assignments I had a decade ago. I'll hang them in the garage." *blink blink*
We are moving in a couple weeks about 4 hours away (actually, DH is moving this weekend to start his new job, and baby and I will follow once we're recovered) We have been trying to pack up our stuff this week. DH is a total packrat and it really annoys me. I'm totally on Team "throw shit out." FFFC: I really want to get rid of some of his stuff (nothing important) while he is away working next week. I probably won't, though.
I usually assemble a pile of "suggested" stuff to throw away - DH will usually consent to about 3/4 of it being tossed, so there's that. He does like to hold on to some random things (I'll find phone chargers for phones we haven't had for year, etc). Uber annoying! I hate clutter.
Now that LO has dropped, I am constantly terrified of sneezing or coughing too hard and pushing too hard during BMs for the irrational idea that baby might come shooting out.
I also keep thinking that I'm starting to have contractions because my back will begin to hurt/cramp out of nowhere, but it's just gas pain and it goes away as soon as I fart.
You have no idea how badly I wish it worked this way...
That would be super easy. One sniff of pepper, sneeze - done and done!
Right!?! I have a sinus infection right now and sneezing every couple of minutes, so that would be pretty dang convenient!
I only have a few pairs of comfortable underwear left that they no longer make. Everything else is too uncomfortable. So I tried going commando when I was out of comfy panties. This doesn't work well either because I am having a lot of discharge.
My phone also auto corrects everything and changes it to weird stuff and I am just to the point idgaf...usually i don't catch it until later anyway. I will let people use context clues.
IF DX: DOR & Fragile X pre-mutation carrier
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54
2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4; BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014
FFFC: I haven't weighed myself once this pregnancy (that's not the confessy part). I just ask the doc if I'm going to fast (I look away from the scale) and they say I'm good. My confession: I come from a family that's super judgey about weight, so whenever my mom/dad asks how much I've gained I just say "Oh, 20 pounds." In reality I have no effing idea how much I've gained, all I know is my ass is huge and IDGAF.
I have absolutely no desire ever to own or even operate an Apple product.
We should be friends. I hate all things 80s pop culture. And Apple is dumb. We do have an iPad at the house, but it's rarely used. I'd rather lug the laptop around than deal with the iPad.
@hfooter Love Actually is awesome! Sure, it has plot holes you can drive through and some things make no sense. But it's funny! And also, Rodrigo Santoro in undies. You are missing out!
I've weighed myself every day since DD was born. So far, it's been a major pick me up after I look in the mirror at my gross hair, tired face and dumpy body. At least that dumpy body is getting smaller.
When DS was born, the MW handed him to me and said "congratulations! What do you think?" And honestly my two thoughts in that moment were 1) MY VAGINA HURTS and 2) Thank God I don't have to eat anymore dates. The intense love and bond really didn't come until the next day.
I was so hot and sweaty last night that the sheets got so damp, I thought my water broke. Then I realized it was mainly my hair and chest that were damp. My fffc - I'm not changing my sheets. They're dry now.
Re: FFFC
I'm that desperate...
DS: 11/8/11 | 9 lb 7 oz, 22 in
DD: 5/22/14 | 9 lb 9 oz, 21.5 in
I have absolutely no desire ever to own or even operate an Apple product.
DS: 11/8/11 | 9 lb 7 oz, 22 in
DD: 5/22/14 | 9 lb 9 oz, 21.5 in
Anyway, as much as I'm like, "no good reason for a cervix check," my midwife asked if she could check baby's position vaginally and I said sure. Didn't tell me much other than a fingertip dilated and still pretty high.
In other news, I feel badly saying this...but I'm sure my SIL1 who is due in June will have her baby before me--and I'm annoyed. I'm also annoyed that the girl I used to baby sit as a kid also just had her baby. She's a FTM and so obviously she should have gone late. Nope. Early. /hate
I hate Forrest Gump and don't really get the big deal about Mean Girls.
T 2.12 | W 5.14
After I looked her up, I knew who it was, I'm just terrible with celebrity names.
BFP#3 9-4-13 Benjamin Lee born 4-28-14
I no longer have any interest in going to bed with DH at night. I dont sleep well (or at all) when he is in bed with me and I have really had to restrain myself from smothering him. Instead, I am staying up super late and go to sleep when he leaves for work. DH gone = big bed with ALL the pillows just for me
BFP #1 - 3/23/13 // EDD - 11/27/13 // M/MC - 5/3/13 // D&C - 5/4/13
BFP #2 - 8/26/13 // EDD - 5/10/14 // Born 5/18/14
I also keep thinking that I'm starting to have contractions because my back will begin to hurt/cramp out of nowhere, but it's just gas pain and it goes away as soon as I fart.
I don't think Emma Stone is cute.
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
@hfooter, Love Actually is one of my fave movies and DH is like, you're watching this again???
@ho11yday, I don't like Forrest Gump either.
I don't have anything interesting to share but its early...
DH asked in passing last night if I remember what labor is like so I'll know when it's started this time. I said yes, but it's really more of an "I think so... pretty sure?"
My mom is planning to come watch Benjamin when it's go time. I want to labor at home as long as I can, and am a little ashamed to confess that I'm worried about trying to do the first stage of labor with my mom, and possibly my dad depending on when things start happening, and my toddler in the house. I just remember wanting silence and privacy in the beginning with Benjamin, and am not sure how well that's going to work at home.
Off to google blurred lines...
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
Since the shinnanigans with she-who-must-not-be-named and our recent late loss, I have been actively avoiding posting very much. I'm battling what I think may be oncoming depression.
I talk to my mother daily, and DH is on me like a hawk. Since I'm already on leave, he has helped me schedule either a visitor or an outside errand/activity every day to keep me in good spirits. Through all the gloom I'm feeling I love him so hard right now.
You have nothing to be ashamed of. Do what you need to for your well-being.
Right!?! I have a sinus infection right now and sneezing every couple of minutes, so that would be pretty dang convenient!
My phone also auto corrects everything and changes it to weird stuff and I am just to the point idgaf...usually i don't catch it until later anyway. I will let people use context clues.
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014
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