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barackollamabarackollama member
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Okay, I really can't decide where to post now. I was on this page for about three weeks, did the intro, commented whenever I could (tried to several times a day) and then silently moved on when I got a BFP. Someone who's name I didn't recognize (and don't remember) followed me to November 14 and announced the the world this board thought I was a self centered troll. They believed I was an AE from someone previously on the board. I know I'm not, you can search my profile for my past forum behavior if you'd like to see for yourself. 

Anyway, 1.5 weeks ago at my 8 week ultrasound the doctor couldn't find a heartbeat. Yesterday I had the D&C because I hadn't started bleeding naturally. It's my third loss since November.

I'm hesitant to return here. I joined after a short (about a week) period of lurking originally because cheesypeas made me smile. I thought I would fit in. Then I hear that not only did I not fit in but all these people were talking about me behind my back. 

None of this is really making sense. Sorry, I'm rambling.  My question is: Do you guys really think I'm a self centered troll (if you even remember me at all. Again, my stay was only about three weeks) or can I ease my way back onto the board?
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  • barackollamabarackollama member
    Here, I found the post if anyone wants to see.
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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    Ok, so I remember you. Not gonna lie, I really did think you were another person that kind of got pushed off the board (I actually liked this person, but a lot of others thought she was.. I guess "uppity" in her TTCing..) that probably seems silly, but people dealing with IF are super sensitive about this shit. 

    I did think it was weird that you posted A LOT back then, and then just snuck off to a BMB without even saying "Got my BFP, bitches!" I was NOT offended by it- I just thought it was weird. I know some of the girls were offended by it, and called you out. 


    Now, a lot of the girls have graduated. If you want to post here, go ahead and post here. I don't know if people will talk behind your back? Personally I am too busy talking about other people behind their backs to talk about you ATM. 




    I am really sorry for your loss. Did you just get a surprise BFP? If so, then maybe you don't actually need to be on the IF boards? Maybe you'd feel more comfortable on the TTGP board? 


    Good luck :) 






    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    Shout out to Amerbutt! I thought she was funny 


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • barackollamabarackollama member
    edited April 2014
    Definitely not a surprise BFP. We've been trying since December 2012. I made the faux paux of introing during my first medicated cycle though. 

    I moved on silently because I had asked on the rules post (the one that was deleted when we first elected a mod) how long before someone was a regular. I was told 3-4 months so I thought I would offend more people by saying goodbye. I was really trying to do everything right and follow the rules. Which is why it took me by surprise to be called out on my BMB.

    Thank you for your answer. 

    Edited to add: We're moving on to genetic testing and specialists when we're ready to try again. I have a TTC board on Facebook with the mom's from my first pregnancy. I love them but definitely need more than TTGP has to offer. Eventually I'll stop crying over the last week and begin researching what to expect from here on out.
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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    Also FTR, you got called out by an AE on that thread. You gotta see the humor in that? You got called out by an A/E for being an A/E. 



    I feel like saying "O TOODLES!" because my daughter makes me watch MMCH all day long. 


    It's the Mickey Mouse Club House! Come inside, it's fun inside! 


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • barackollamabarackollama member
    Yeah, that's what threw me off! I had no idea who that person was. And I was all weepy from horomones. It seriously almost made me (silently) GBCB and go back to my Facebook group. Then I figured fuck it, I know who I am. 
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  • barackollamabarackollama member
    *I'm not actually Harry Potter. 
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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    PrincessPetunias said:
    Yeah, that's what threw me off! I had no idea who that person was. And I was all weepy from horomones. It seriously almost made me (silently) GBCB and go back to my Facebook group. Then I figured fuck it, I know who I am. 
    That's really ALL that matters, girl.  :-bd


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    Sorry to hear about your loss.  



      


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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    PrincessPetunias said:
    *I'm not actually Harry Potter. 

    But it would be awesome if you were. 



      


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  • designer303designer303 member
    I'm sorry about your loss too, I missed all the drama about this, so you're cool with me. Welcome back. Don't f*ck it up, just kidding :)

    TTC#1 May 2009- July 2010 on our own with no luck

    Started with RE in August 2010, dx with unexplained IF and then finally our 3rd IUI cycle using Follistim and Trigger resulted in our wonderful little man.  Born 12/2/11

    TTC#2 Never really prevented, but were careful early on as Dr. reccomended

    Surprise BFP 12/16/13, started progesterone immediately as first numbers came back low, but betas were good.  Progesterone wasnt enough. Natural MC 12/24/13.

    Back with RE as of January 2014...

    5/27/14- Chemical Pregnancy :(

    April 2015 IVF#1

    5/13/15- BFP, please stick LO!

    Oh and I'm a major Harry Potter Nerd :)

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  • Momarazzi007Momarazzi007 member
    edited April 2014
    freakyfast said:


    PrincessPetunias said:

    *I'm not actually Harry Potter. 


    But it would be awesome if you were. 

    Then we'd have two guys on the board (one with maaaagic!!!) lol.

    Seriously, I am truly sorry for your loss. It is heartbreaking when you lose a child in pregnancy. I echo all the above sentiments and hope things go much better this time around edit to clarify (with successfully pregnancy!)
    January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this!
    June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS. image

    November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
    January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS!     February 2011- lost twin. BS. image

    SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
    November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
    April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
    FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
    BABY BOY VINCENT!
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    We can't wait to meet you!
    Conception:image    imageimage Potato Love!

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  • SassFrassSassFrass member
    Sorry for your loss, I wasn't here for the drama, but welcome back, I hope your stay is short and sweet.

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  • Jodee37Jodee37 member
    i'm rather new here so i wasn't here for the drama. i am so very sorry for your losses. no one should have to lose their child. big hugs and welcome back.
    Me: 36, DH: 36
    DH's SA = normal
    1 tube only wonder
    AFC 3-5, AMH 0.30

    BFP #1 3/29/11.  EDD 12/4/11... Missed m/c 5/9/11. Cytotec fail. D&C 5/17/11.
    BFP #2   7/5/11.  EDD 3/14/12... Our rainbow Kellen born 3/14/12 via c/s.
    BFP #3 5/30/13.  EDD 2/8/14...  6wk u/s HB 126. 8wk u/s lost HB. D&C 7/12/13.
    BFP #4 2/18/14.  EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
    BFP #5 7/27/14.  EDD 4/9/15...  m/c @ 5w4d.

    IVF #1    Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN. 
    IVF #2    Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.  Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
    IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.

    BFP #6  (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15.  EDD 11/30/15...  CP at 4w2d.
    IUI #2:    Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
    IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN. 

    BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).

    the universe can fuck off.


     "You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope

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  • GraceyandTroyGraceyandTroy member
    Welcome back.  I'm sorry for your loss.  
    Happily Mrs. C 
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    start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
    dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
    Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
    Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
    Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
    Hoping holistic approach works!!!

    BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
    Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!

    Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
    Back on metformin Aug 2013
    Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw, and red raspberry leaf
    DS weaned in April 2014
    Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.  
    Planning medicated cycle end of summer.  FX I get KU before then!!!
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  • HawaiianSunset09HawaiianSunset09 member
    Im so sorry for your loss! :(
    .Became a mama to my sweet little boy after 3 years of waiting and praying in October '12. Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    Miscarried twins from our first IUI cycle. D&C on August 14th, 2014
    Second IUI cycle: BFP
    Beta #1 (13dpiui): 74 Beta #2 (16dpiui): 505 Beta #3 (18dpiui): 1205
    First Ultrasound- 6w2d 110BPM! Our baby has a heartbeat!!
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  • annibesannibes member
    I'm sorry for your loss. Welcome back.
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  • MrsLaurenandDanMrsLaurenandDan member
    I wasn't around then, but I'm so sorry that you were treated like that, and so sorry for your loss. <3
    TTC #1 June 2010
    1/3/11 S/A - Count 45; Motility 32; Morph 4.3 - 2/10/11 - S/A Count 17mil; Motility 39; Morph 7.9
    1/5/11 Femara Cycle #1 = BFN  2/4/11 Femara Cycle #2 = BFP: 3/4/11 - Starting Progesterone suppositories 
    Beta#1 15DPO = 108; Beta#2 17DPO = 179; Beta#3 18DPO = 259; Beta 4# 20DPO =659!!
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    TTC#2 Pulled goalie 5/12, PPAF 3/13, BFP 6/27 Beta 15DPO=248! 
    Dx Severe Hydrocephalus and severe Dandy Walker Cyst.   Stillborn 10/19/13
    Lilypie - Personal pictureLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers 
    TTC#3 - (No preventing, TTC+progesterone starting 12/13)
    4/7/14 CD3 BW - FSH 5.6; AMH 0.469 - 4/11/14 S/A Count 35, Motility 47, Morph 1.5
    4/16/14 - Cycle 6 - Natural IUI - Beta 12DPIUI = 3; Beta 13DPIUI=4.  15DPIUI=6. 17DPIU=4. Chemical Pregnancy  
    TTC #4
    5/5/14 Dx MTHFR homozygous A1298C, Benched 1 cycle HSG 5/14 both tubes open w/scarring on the left   
    5/28/14 Starting clomid 6/8/14 IUI #2 1 dominant follicle 31mm Beta 11DPIUI =4, 15DPIUI = 74, 17DPIUI = 165 
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  • Amerbutt81Amerbutt81 member
    You know what the funny thing is? I didn't do a drive by BFP on this board. I never once posted a BFP on this board at all.  

    I don't think I was necessarily a jerk face, either-- just a misunderstanding as to my intentions while on this board.  It's a bummer, because I still think most of you ladies are pretty fantastic.  

    So very sorry  for your loss OP, and I am sorry you got confused with me.

    Shout out to @Mrs Castillo for the love!


    (sorry for the zombie thread.  Googled my screen name and this came up.  Thought I would set the record straight).  
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  • ScarletBegonia79ScarletBegonia79 member

    Sorry for your loss.

    TTC #2 since 8/2012

    IUI #1 April 2014: BFN

    IUI #2 July 2014: BFN

    IUI #3 August 2014: BFN

    BFP: September 15, due May 22nd 2015

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