Baby #2 after first was preemie
First, I want to say that this is a post to say some things "out loud" and not have my mom or anybody else say, "Stop worrying" or "You're crazy." I just need to get this off my mind.
So, with my first, I went into premature labor at 30 weeks, delivered via emergency c-section at 32 weeks after 2 weeks of hospital bedrest. They do not know what caused me to go into labor except maybe some dehydration and a possible uterine infection. So no real answers. Now, I am 25 weeks along, have been monitored more closely, with cervical length u/s along the way, and I've also been getting the P17 shots since week 16. I've had a few bad days, with Braxton-Hicks and not feeling great, but otherwise, nothing abnormal. Here's my qualm though. Everytime I fell a sharper than normal kick/tug/pull, everytime I got to the bathroom, even when I'm just not feeling exactly "right", I fear the worst. I fear that when I wipe after going pee, I'll see blood (this is what happened last time), I worry when I don't feel her kick for about 30 minutes that something happened. I've had horrendous dreams this time around, with everything from car accidents where I lost the baby AND my little boy, to where the baby dies in-utero and I have to deliver and then bury her. I am normally a level-headed woman, and am doing my best to not stress, but sometimes I feel so overwhelmed with the enormous responsibility of carrying this child to term. I don't know if anyone else feels this way, but if you want to share your experiences, go ahead. Thank you for at least reading this.
Re: Baby #2 after first was preemie
I just want to say I'm sorry that you are going through these emotions...and it seems that it is normal to worry. Try not to worry you are getting the proper care.
I have read on other posts that women do have full term babies after having a preemie. which gives us hope. Currently we are TTC and we worry but we try to have faith and hope we'll just get through it.
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I'm sure many would feel the same way in your shoes. I haven't even thought about #2 yet, but I know when the time comes I too will not be able to help but worry! Especially when things seem out of your control. All you can do it listen to your insticts, take as good care of yourself and your baby as you can, and try to enjoy all the positive moments that you can! I wish you all the luck in the world, and I hope that even if your mom can't relate that you find support in your husband or in places like this board!
With my first pregnancy I went into pre term labor at 33 weeks after 5 days of hospital bedrest I delivered my baby girl. ?We have no idea why I went into labor! ?Like you with this pregnancy I'm super scared and worry about every little thing. ?I'm seeing a maternal fetal specialist this time and I'm going to start the 17P shots at 16 weeks but I still feel like I'm not going to carry this baby full term. ?I can relate to what you are feeling and it sucks.
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I just want to tell you that you are not alone. To say that being pregnant can be very overwhelming is the biggest understatement. You put it perfectly into words that have escaped me... "the enormous responsibility of carrying a child to term"......
I had a m/c w/ my first pregnancy 2 1/2 years ago. Now that I am pregnant again, I just keep thinking the worst.....first that it would be a chemical pregnancy, then when I went in for my first appt/ultrasound that there would be no heartbeat etc etc. I am now at the exact point where the dr discovered my missed m/c 2 1/2 years ago but the difference is that I had an appt on xmas eve and we saw our bean moving and kicking and saw and heard the heartbeat. What a relief. Now I worry about my first tri screening next week that they will find a problem w/ my baby. and it goes on and on. I don't even want to know what type of crazy paranoid mother when my baby is born.
I'm sure if you and I feel this way, there are many more of us out there.
Best of luck to you.
BFP #2 10/29/08 ...stillborn via c/s @41w 7/20/09
missing my baby everyday
BFP #3 1/20/10 My angel's little sister Grace Madison was born September 8th 2010 @37w. We're so blessed! Thank you angel for getting her here safely.
BFP #4 12/30/11. Jackson Christopher 8/22/2012 via repeat c/s @ 37w 3d
Like you I was very scared when I was PG with #2. I also got the 17P injections from weeks 16 - 36. Many of the others on here probably feel the same way you do. All I can say is that having a preemie the first time around changes you. Many women who have carried babies to term simply don't understand these feelings.
I can tell you that after having my DD at 26w3d -- I did go on to carry my DS to term. I had him at 37 weeks. So just remember -- every pregnancy is different. There is no reason why you won't carry this baby to term. I believe that luvmyfireman was close to having her term baby (her son was very early).