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Trying to keep a positive mindset is SO hard.

I have my FET this week and I feel honestly SO jaded. Like "this will NEVER work" but I don't want to feel that way!!!! We have done SO many changes...

We...

Changed clinics, added steriods, CGH tested our embryos, added metformin (just in case), added intralipids...

I guess I'm just scared b/c we have made SO many changes so if this doesn't work... what next? *sigh*

I want SO badly to have a positive attitude but I just can't dig deep enough....

Me (28) DH (32)  Endometriosis                                                                                   IVF  #1 (1/2013) - 17 Retrieved, 16 Mature, 14 Fertilized- 2 transferred- BFN
FET #1 (7/2013) - 2 embryos - BFN
FET #2 (9/2013) - 2 emrbyos - BFN
New RE. Fresh Start
IVF  #2 (2/2014) - 25 Retrieved, 19 Mature, 16 Fertilized, 9 blasts.
                             CGH Testing: 6 Normal
FET #3 (4/2014) -1 embryo -  BFP! Beta#1: 35 Beta #2: 16 :(
FET #4 (5/2014) -1 embryo -  BFP! Beta#1: 321!!! Beta #2: 727.9!
6/5/2014 Heartbeat! 144bpm It's a girl!
Due January!
 

 

Re: Trying to keep a positive mindset is SO hard.

  • It definitely is difficult to stay positive.  I (luckily?) don't believe in the notion that positive thinking will give a positive outcome/negative thinking will produce a negative outcome.  Trying to stay positive all the time is just too much pressure on top of an already super emotionally and physically loaded process. 

    I hope your FET goes smoothly, and that your embryo (or embryos) snuggle in nicely <3
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    edited March 2014

    It's ok to not feel positive. I think it's a defense mechanism we build up.

    I'm really hoping this is it for you!

    Fingers crossed!

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    Me: 32 H: 31
    DX: MFI-Very Low Count, I have Hashimotos.
    IVF prep September 2013 cancelled due to Ovarian Cyst
    IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI  ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze)
    ET delayed due to OHSS 
    FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!)
    FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN 

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    Sorry you're feeling this way. Good luck tho! Fx!
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    IVF#1: No Eggs to Retrieve
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  • It definitely is difficult to stay positive.  I (luckily?) don't believe in the notion that positive thinking will give a positive outcome/negative thinking will produce a negative outcome.  Trying to stay positive all the time is just too much pressure on top of an already super emotionally and physically loaded process. 

    This is exactly how I feel.  Don't put too much pressure on yourself.  It is so normal not to be optimistic during infertility.  We're all rooting for you during your FET cycle, so think of that as the positive thinking that you need :)
  • Its hard a lot of times... I totally understand where you are coming from. I struggle every day with keeping up beat and positive. I try to make light of situations but its sooo hard. We are thinking of you. 


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  • SKLHSKLH member
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    @kz's_girlygirl Thank you! I agree, I don't think our "mindset" changes outcomes but I hate goinginto this so unconfident! ya know? Thanks for the encouragement!!
    Me (28) DH (32)  Endometriosis                                                                                   IVF  #1 (1/2013) - 17 Retrieved, 16 Mature, 14 Fertilized- 2 transferred- BFN
    FET #1 (7/2013) - 2 embryos - BFN
    FET #2 (9/2013) - 2 emrbyos - BFN
    New RE. Fresh Start
    IVF  #2 (2/2014) - 25 Retrieved, 19 Mature, 16 Fertilized, 9 blasts.
                                 CGH Testing: 6 Normal
    FET #3 (4/2014) -1 embryo -  BFP! Beta#1: 35 Beta #2: 16 :(
    FET #4 (5/2014) -1 embryo -  BFP! Beta#1: 321!!! Beta #2: 727.9!
    6/5/2014 Heartbeat! 144bpm It's a girl!
    Due January!
     

     

  • SKLHSKLH member
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    Thank you ALL you ladies who can relate to thi spost!! I'm doing a bit better today but still trying ot dig deep!! lol
    Me (28) DH (32)  Endometriosis                                                                                   IVF  #1 (1/2013) - 17 Retrieved, 16 Mature, 14 Fertilized- 2 transferred- BFN
    FET #1 (7/2013) - 2 embryos - BFN
    FET #2 (9/2013) - 2 emrbyos - BFN
    New RE. Fresh Start
    IVF  #2 (2/2014) - 25 Retrieved, 19 Mature, 16 Fertilized, 9 blasts.
                                 CGH Testing: 6 Normal
    FET #3 (4/2014) -1 embryo -  BFP! Beta#1: 35 Beta #2: 16 :(
    FET #4 (5/2014) -1 embryo -  BFP! Beta#1: 321!!! Beta #2: 727.9!
    6/5/2014 Heartbeat! 144bpm It's a girl!
    Due January!
     

     

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