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TTC After a Loss
anitaflora
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(****BFP warning****) The line is darker!
anitaflora
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I don't even know how to start this post. It's been a rollercoaster the last few days and given how extremely late this BFP is and my history, I think it's far more likely that I'll be back here shortly vs. this becoming a viable pregnancy.
Here's how it's gone so far (all FRERs):
Thu,10dp5dt: thought I may have seen a really, really faint line but only under certain light and I was really, really unsure. And I thought it might be an early evap or something. Definitely no confidence it was a positive.
Fri,11dp5dt: no line. Went back to look many times and stark white, no line.
Sat, 12dp5dt: like Thu, saw a super, super faint line again but this time it was just barely dark enough that with some adjustments I was able to take a pic and get some votes on whether or not I was seeing things. Seemed I wasn't from the feedback I got.
Today, 13dp5dt: definitely a discernible line! My husband, I think, has no idea that I've been testing. He has been completely against it because he knew it would make me a little nutty, and he kept telling me "I'm waiting for the blood test."
So next stop is first beta on Monday. I'm not sure if I'm ready to intro on any of the pregnancy boards until I at least get my first beta back. But I also didn't want to continue to post over here now that I know I have a BFP, even if it's just for a short time. I wanted to explain why I wasn't posting to anyone on here for now.
There are no words... No way in the world I can find the right ones to explain how much this board means to me and how much I am rooting for all of you ladies - those I've known for so long now and those I've just gotten to know. I seriously would be out of my damn mind if it weren't for the support of this board. So just thank you is all I can say. I am hoping I get to stay on the other side this time, and that you will all get to join me. And while extremely excited, I cannot think that without also worrying I'll be back yet again. I'll be posting probably on the IF and PAL boards for now and I'm just hoping and praying for all of you and me right now that I get to see all of you on PGAL!
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Here's how it's gone so far (all FRERs):
Thu,10dp5dt: thought I may have seen a really, really faint line but only under certain light and I was really, really unsure. And I thought it might be an early evap or something. Definitely no confidence it was a positive.
Fri,11dp5dt: no line. Went back to look many times and stark white, no line.
Sat, 12dp5dt: like Thu, saw a super, super faint line again but this time it was just barely dark enough that with some adjustments I was able to take a pic and get some votes on whether or not I was seeing things. Seemed I wasn't from the feedback I got.
Today, 13dp5dt: definitely a discernible line! My husband, I think, has no idea that I've been testing. He has been completely against it because he knew it would make me a little nutty, and he kept telling me "I'm waiting for the blood test."
So next stop is first beta on Monday. I'm not sure if I'm ready to intro on any of the pregnancy boards until I at least get my first beta back. But I also didn't want to continue to post over here now that I know I have a BFP, even if it's just for a short time. I wanted to explain why I wasn't posting to anyone on here for now.
There are no words... No way in the world I can find the right ones to explain how much this board means to me and how much I am rooting for all of you ladies - those I've known for so long now and those I've just gotten to know. I seriously would be out of my damn mind if it weren't for the support of this board. So just thank you is all I can say. I am hoping I get to stay on the other side this time, and that you will all get to join me. And while extremely excited, I cannot think that without also worrying I'll be back yet again. I'll be posting probably on the IF and PAL boards for now and I'm just hoping and praying for all of you and me right now that I get to see all of you on PGAL!
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dream 1 CAME TRUE 2.13.2010
<dream 2> 12.2011
2.10.12 : 4 weeks
6.17.12 : 10 weeks
10.10.12 : 4 weeks, 6 days
12.13.12 : 9 weeks, 1 day
4.6.13 : 4 weeks, 4 days
10.27.13 : 5 weeks, 6 days
4.2.14 (IVF #1) : 4 weeks, 1 day
6.19.14 : IVF #2 Negative
</dream 2>
AMA, Diminished Ovarian Reserve, heterozygous MTHFR
"all it was was a fairytale and devotion to a dream"
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Re: (****BFP warning****) The line is darker!
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
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BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy. Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
TTC since April 2012
BFP #1, 10/03/2012 - EDD 6/15/2013 - MMC 11/15/2012 - D&C 01/04/2013
BFP #2, 04/06/2013 - EDD 12/17/2013 - MC 04/19/2013
6/12/2013 Diagnosed with Balanced Translocation (12 & 16)
IVF #1 with PGS: 10/2013: Canceled 9/27/2013 for issues with genetic lab
IVF #1.5 with PGS: 11/16/2013: Canceled. 11 eggs retrieved, 9 mature & 9 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
IVF #2: 1/22/14: Canceled. 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 7 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
IVF #3 with PGS: 5/10/2014: Switched to FET in July. 10 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized, 2 healthy embryos!
FET #1: 7/31/2014: Transferred 2 nearly perfect (6AA, 6BA) healthy embryos- BFFN
Laproscopy: 10/2014: Healthy uterus
IVF #4: 12/8/2014: Canceled. 17 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 10 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
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TTC #1 since January 2013
BFP #1: April 5, 2013; EDD December 11, 2013; Missed M/C May 15, 2013
BFP #2: February 17, 2014; EDD October 30, 2014; M/C March 15, 2014
BFP #3: August 1, 2014; EDD April 14, 2015 - Praying for our RAINBOW!
BFP #2 5/7/13 EDD 1/14/2014 Ectopic discovered 5/21/13, lost left tube
Referred to RE, blood work done August 2013, AMH 0.27, all else normal, HSG clear
That is a beautiful line. ((((Hugs))))
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
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Congrats Anita!!! I can see that pretty little line. FX FX FX! >:D<
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BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!
DX: Uterine Septum - Resection 9/5/13 || MTHFR Hetero A1298C || My Chart
**BFP#1 9/5/12 EDD 5/15/13 changed to 5/25/13 after u/s, missed mc 10/19/12. D and C 10/22/12**
BFP 4 10/28/19 EDD 7/6/20
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TTC #1 since June 2012
Current Status: IVF with ICSI and PGS
Genetic, RPL, SA and Fertility testing = Normal/Good HSG = All Clear
BFP #1 12.30.2012 || Blighted Ovum 02.05.2013 || D&C 02.11.2013
BFP #2 09.10.2013 || c/p 09.12.2013
BFP #3 12.1.2013 || mm/c 01.15.14 || D&C 01.21.14 chromosome abnormality
May 2014: Residual HCG and retained tissue found
05.13.2014: Hysteroscopy D&C to find and remove retained tissue
June 2014: Tissue sample results indicate a partial molar pregnancy
May - Aug 2014: TTA for monitoring and testing
08.21.2014: Hysteroscopy to remove minor scar tissue - the result of 3 D&Cs
Sept/Oct: IUI #1 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
Oct/Nov: IUI #2 Femara + Ovidrel = BFN
Nov/Dec: IUI #3 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
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Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.
June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!
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Me: 27 DH: 33
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI
TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF
TTC Since 04/01/13
BFP #1 04/28/13 Its twins! EDD 01/08/2014 MMC confirmed 06/27/13 D&C 07/17/13
BFP#2 05/19/14 EDD 01/30/2015 Please be our rainbow!
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IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
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Married August 2012. Me: 41 DH: 42
Daughter from previous marriage: 20
BFP 12/19/12: Ectopic discovered at 8 weeks, right tube removed 01/18/13
June 2013 Testing Results: Progesterone: 31.7, LH: 5, FSH: 5, Estradiol: 161
Clomid cycles Nov. 2013 and Jan, Feb, and March 2014
TTC journey over as of the end of October 2014
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NTNP 2009-2012 TTC since 2012:
Jack has handpicked his sibling up there
My blog about IF and loss ... Kate's IF Blog
BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
BFP #1 9/6/2009 EDD 5/29/10. Missy Moo born 5/12/10 after 3 months of bedrest due to PTL, IC and a bicornuate ute causing IUGR
BFP # 2 1/28/12 EDD 10/6/12 No heartbeat seen @ 10 weeks, Autumn
BFP #3 8/18/12 EDD 5/2/13 No heartbeat seen at 7w3d, Mae
BFP #4 01/31/2013 EDD 10/15/2013 No HB seen in our little girl at 10w2d due to trisomy 12, Abigail
BFP #5 6/27/2013 EDD 3/10/2014 diagnosed with protein S deficiency heparin twice a day. Luke's HB stopped at 8wks
BFP#6 12/22/2013 EDD 9/4/2014 No HB seen at 7w2d, Leia
BFP #7- 5/12/14 EDD 01/2015, ruptured ectopic 5/31/14
"It's, not, where you are, it's where you're going,
And it's, not, about the things you've done, it's what you're doing, now"
TTC Journey Began 8/12
BFP #1 11/9/12, MMC/D&C 12/21/12 @ 9w2d, EDD 7/24/13
SAs: 2%-3% Morph - RE Official Diagnosis Unexplained
BFN = IUI #1 (Clomid) | IUI #2 (Letrozole)
BFP #2 4/19/14 = IUI #3 (Letrozole)
Expecting Our Elf 12/27/14
~All Welcome~
EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14
IF Diagnosis: PCOS, MFI
Current Cycle: 5 mg Femara/1000mg Metformin + TI = BFP, EDD 4/23/15 Please be our RAINBOW
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