I posted here a couple of days ago on another post. I just want to vent right now X(. As I said in one of those posts I am playing the waiting game to find out whether I've had a missed miscarriage or not (here is my original story from another board: http://forums.thebump.com/discussion/12297411/frustrating#latest)
. Unfortunately I think I already know the answer. All the signs point to mmc
. I went and had my second bloods taken this morning to check my HCG, the whole time I was there I couldn't help thinking there was no point in me doing this because it's all going to end badly anyway. I am having the hardest time trying to be positive and hopeful. I just know in my heart that the results aren't going to be good. I felt yesterday that my pregnancy symptoms had started to taper off. Well this morning I woke up and they have completely disappeared. I no longer feel pregnant in the slightest. I keep poking and prodding my boobs trying to see if I can make them hurt but nope. A few days ago if I had done that I would have winced in pain, even yesterday they were at least a tiny bit sore. I know symptoms don't always mean anything but for some reason I know my loss of symptoms means everything. I've been cramping slightly, although I've been cramping throughout the pregnancy but this time it feels different. No blood thank God but If I don't bleed then I won't know the answer for sure until Monday when I'm supposed to be having a follow up scan. The waiting is absolutely killing me. My boss has insisted I take the week off work so I'm just sitting around freaking out but I can't actually do anything but think about the fact that I may be miscarrying anyway. I'd be thinking about if if I was working too I guess. This is my first pregnancy and never in a million years did I think that it would be anything but prefect. Although I have lost almost all hope I am still praying to God that he will let our little baby live and hoping like crazy there will be some kind of miracle. Like I said I just wanted to vent so thanks for reading
Me(24) DH(26)/Married since March 2013
BFP#1 February 18th 2014/EDD October 27th/MMC discovered at 10w/D&C April 7th
BFP#2 July 24th 2014/EDD April 4th 2015/Please be our RAINBOW!