Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
Yaz14
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I think I know the answer...
Yaz14
member
Hi ladies,
I posted here a couple of days ago on another post. I just want to vent right now X(. As I said in one of those posts I am playing the waiting game to find out whether I've had a missed miscarriage or not (here is my original story from another board: https://forums.thebump.com/discussion/12297411/frustrating#latest). Unfortunately I think I already know the answer. All the signs point to mmc 
. I went and had my second bloods taken this morning to check my HCG, the whole time I was there I couldn't help thinking there was no point in me doing this because it's all going to end badly anyway. I am having the hardest time trying to be positive and hopeful. I just know in my heart that the results aren't going to be good. I felt yesterday that my pregnancy symptoms had started to taper off. Well this morning I woke up and they have completely disappeared. I no longer feel pregnant in the slightest. I keep poking and prodding my boobs trying to see if I can make them hurt but nope. A few days ago if I had done that I would have winced in pain, even yesterday they were at least a tiny bit sore. I know symptoms don't always mean anything but for some reason I know my loss of symptoms means everything. I've been cramping slightly, although I've been cramping throughout the pregnancy but this time it feels different. No blood thank God but If I don't bleed then I won't know the answer for sure until Monday when I'm supposed to be having a follow up scan. The waiting is absolutely killing me. My boss has insisted I take the week off work so I'm just sitting around freaking out but I can't actually do anything but think about the fact that I may be miscarrying anyway. I'd be thinking about if if I was working too I guess. This is my first pregnancy and never in a million years did I think that it would be anything but prefect. Although I have lost almost all hope I am still praying to God that he will let our little baby live and hoping like crazy there will be some kind of miracle. Like I said I just wanted to vent so thanks for reading 
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. I went and had my second bloods taken this morning to check my HCG, the whole time I was there I couldn't help thinking there was no point in me doing this because it's all going to end badly anyway. I am having the hardest time trying to be positive and hopeful. I just know in my heart that the results aren't going to be good. I felt yesterday that my pregnancy symptoms had started to taper off. Well this morning I woke up and they have completely disappeared. I no longer feel pregnant in the slightest. I keep poking and prodding my boobs trying to see if I can make them hurt but nope. A few days ago if I had done that I would have winced in pain, even yesterday they were at least a tiny bit sore. I know symptoms don't always mean anything but for some reason I know my loss of symptoms means everything. I've been cramping slightly, although I've been cramping throughout the pregnancy but this time it feels different. No blood thank God but If I don't bleed then I won't know the answer for sure until Monday when I'm supposed to be having a follow up scan. The waiting is absolutely killing me. My boss has insisted I take the week off work so I'm just sitting around freaking out but I can't actually do anything but think about the fact that I may be miscarrying anyway. I'd be thinking about if if I was working too I guess. This is my first pregnancy and never in a million years did I think that it would be anything but prefect. Although I have lost almost all hope I am still praying to God that he will let our little baby live and hoping like crazy there will be some kind of miracle. Like I said I just wanted to vent so thanks for reading .Me(24) DH(26)/Married since March 2013
BFP#1 February 18th 2014/EDD October 27th/MMC discovered at 10w/D&C April 7th
BFP#2 July 24th 2014/EDD April 4th 2015/Please be our RAINBOW!
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Re: I think I know the answer...
I read your post and had to reread who posted this because I just went through the same thing. I started the Cytotec last Saturday and had blood drawn today. My HcG levels went down and am glad that the physical part is over. Emotionally I'm pretty much bipolar. I'm fine if I'm distracted. When I'm alone I get sad.
The wait to find out the fate of your baby is horrible. I haven't posted since I found out but felt compelled to reach out to you. Good luck and I hope that you get some good news. >:D<
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
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(((Hugs)))
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
All Welcome
Chart
Remember if it's confirmed that it isn't a miscarriage (and I truly hope for you that it isn't), we are a board of grieving women. Sometimes in grief it is hard to embrace someone else's rainbow, so I ask for sensitivity please.
(((Hugs))) hope you get your answer soon. Waiting is horrid.
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
All Welcome
Chart
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
All Welcome
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