TTC After a Loss

--- Thursday & Friday crazy train ---

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edited March 2014 in TTC After a Loss
Welcome to Crazy Train. This is a thread posted daily for any of us who need to get out our frustrations about waiting to O, the 2WW, or vent about our cycles.

If you find yourself checking FF obsessively, MF is getting the best of you, POAS issues, let it out here!

In order for the conductors to be better able to help you, please make sure you either have a FF chart link in your sig, or make sure you post a link. Don't chart? You should consider it, not only will it give you a lot more insight to your cycles, but conductors will be able to answer a lot of your questions just by looking at your chart!



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Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO:

Can I just ______ already?!:

Signs/Symptoms:

Explain your Crazy here:

Re: --- Thursday & Friday crazy train ---

  • Good morning lovely (((hugs)))

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  • Crazy level from 1-10: 7

    CD/DPO: 49

    Can I just ______ already?!: O

    Signs/Symptoms: my ute feels funny

    Explain your Crazy here: I suppose I should be happy that I'm not menstruating any more, but I'm just a bit crushed right now that I don't have a confirmed O (haven't had one since my loss in December). I was so excited last weekend when I had EWCM. I guess I will try to console myself with the fact that at least my temps have stabilized.

    Thanks for listening.


    BFP #1 11/02/13, EDD 07/04/14, BO diagnosed 12/12/13 at 9w5d
    BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15

  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8
    CD/DPO: CD 29 / 9 DPO
    Can I just ______ already?! POAS!
    Signs/Symptoms: mild cramping
    Explain your Crazy here: I'm dying to POAS and get some good news after the sucky week I've had. I haven't had a single symptom until this morning when I had some mild cramps, but if I wasn't in the 2ww I'm not sure I would have given them a second thought. The crazy part of me is convinced it's implantation.. I don't know how much longer I can wait to test but I feel like it's still too soon. I def need a CT ticket today.

    (((Hugs))) @smcniff‌ waiting for your body to get back to normal after a loss is tough.

    imageLilypie - (zxAe)

  • smcniff said:

    Crazy level from 1-10: 7

    CD/DPO: 49

    Can I just ______ already?!: O

    Signs/Symptoms: my ute feels funny

    Explain your Crazy here: I suppose I should be happy that I'm not menstruating any more, but I'm just a bit crushed right now that I don't have a confirmed O (haven't had one since my loss in December). I was so excited last weekend when I had EWCM. I guess I will try to console myself with the fact that at least my temps have stabilized.

    Thanks for listening.
    Have you spoken to your doctor about this? FX that your temps continue to stabilize and you see a clear temp shift soon.
  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8 CD/DPO: CD 29 / 9 DPO Can I just ______ already?! POAS! Signs/Symptoms: mild cramping Explain your Crazy here: I'm dying to POAS and get some good news after the sucky week I've had. I haven't had a single symptom until this morning when I had some mild cramps, but if I wasn't in the 2ww I'm not sure I would have given them a second thought. The crazy part of me is convinced it's implantation.. I don't know how much longer I can wait to test but I feel like it's still too soon. I def need a CT ticket today. (((Hugs))) @smcniff‌ waiting for your body to get back to normal after a loss is tough.
    FX the next couple of days fly by for you and don't bring too much crazy! FX!
  • Thanks @PinkCamino‌ :) It's hard not to think about it all day!

    imageLilypie - (zxAe)

  • Hi ladies.  I am waiting for my first AF after my M/C.  Last week my blood work showed my levels were almost back to normal but not quite there yet, but FF predicted that I O'd.  My temp is up but who knows.  My doc says that I can get back to TTC as soon as I'm ready after AF so I am (not) patiently waiting for her to arrive.
    2/10/14 BFP- EDD 10/20/14- M/C 3/3/14


  • Just went to bathroom and AF has arrived!  1st AF since we lost Claire.  I'm hoping this is AF since I had quit bleeding a few weeks ago and now I am bleeding again.  Now maybe I can try the BD to a positive test.  I'm hoping so.  
  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8 CD/DPO: CD 29 / 9 DPO Can I just ______ already?! POAS! Signs/Symptoms: mild cramping Explain your Crazy here: I'm dying to POAS and get some good news after the sucky week I've had. I haven't had a single symptom until this morning when I had some mild cramps, but if I wasn't in the 2ww I'm not sure I would have given them a second thought. The crazy part of me is convinced it's implantation.. I don't know how much longer I can wait to test but I feel like it's still too soon. I def need a CT ticket today. 
    I am in the EXACT same boat. :/  Hang in there!

    Pregnancy Ticker

    Joanna (30) Michael (31) 
    Twin sons born June 2009 after 1 Year ART, 
    Anthony and Brandon 6/25/09 
    Trying for #3 for 2 years
    IUI #10- BFP! m/c 2/23/2014 



  • Crazy level from 1-10: 9

    CD/DPO: 9 dpo

    Can I just ______ already?!: Stop feeling so anxious, nervous and negative!

    Signs/Symptoms: Lots of small ones, but nothing significant or that I would ever notice if it wasn't 2ww. Sore books, tired, peeing alot, mild cramps, etc.

    Explain your Crazy here: Tested this morning, just to confirm trigger is gone. It is. So now its make it or break it time from here on out. I am honestly so scared of whats to come. If its good, obviously I am beyond terrified of losing another pregnancy. If its bad I am beyond terrified of never seeing a BFP again. Either way, I feel like I am at the edge of a very very big cliff that I am inevitably gonna fall from within 3-4 days. I have really bad anxiety right now that will not go away anytime soon with either outcome  I just want to curl up and sleep til next week  :(

    Pregnancy Ticker

    Joanna (30) Michael (31) 
    Twin sons born June 2009 after 1 Year ART, 
    Anthony and Brandon 6/25/09 
    Trying for #3 for 2 years
    IUI #10- BFP! m/c 2/23/2014 



  • Mikesfan said:
    Crazy level from 1-10: 9

    CD/DPO: 9 dpo

    Can I just ______ already?!: Stop feeling so anxious, nervous and negative!

    Signs/Symptoms: Lots of small ones, but nothing significant or that I would ever notice if it wasn't 2ww. Sore books, tired, peeing alot, mild cramps, etc.

    Explain your Crazy here: Tested this morning, just to confirm trigger is gone. It is. So now its make it or break it time from here on out. I am honestly so scared of whats to come. If its good, obviously I am beyond terrified of losing another pregnancy. If its bad I am beyond terrified of never seeing a BFP again. Either way, I feel like I am at the edge of a very very big cliff that I am inevitably gonna fall from within 3-4 days. I have really bad anxiety right now that will not go away anytime soon with either outcome  I just want to curl up and sleep til next week  :(
    (((hugs)))) Anxiety is awful. I had really bad anxiety last cycle and I know how debilitating it can be.

    Do you have any hobbies? I find that doing yoga frequently helps keep it slightly under control.


  • Just went to bathroom and AF has arrived!  1st AF since we lost Claire.  I'm hoping this is AF since I had quit bleeding a few weeks ago and now I am bleeding again.  Now maybe I can try the BD to a positive test.  I'm hoping so.  
    Glad to hear AF came! FX for you!
  • @mikesfan Breath deeply. You can do this.


    BFP #1 11/02/13, EDD 07/04/14, BO diagnosed 12/12/13 at 9w5d
    BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15

  • I'm only at a 5 for crazy because it's finally a happy crazy! I'm 1 day post ovulation and TTC for the FIRST TIME in months. I really came on here because I am DYING to scream out that I'm off the bench, but I'm not really ready to tell anyone we're trying again yet... I have had 2 mc and a ute surgery... I don't have a can I just, because it was "can I just try again" for so long that I'm psyched to be where I'm at. So... No symptoms except happiness about having just had sex without a goalie in MONTHS.... Like, months... So awesome.

    TTCAL Siggy Challenge: "He's my favorite.  His birthday is the same as mine almost"

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    Missing my little one lost at 9 weeks on 2.24.13. brokenhearted but not broken... 

    d&c 5/21/13... Still Healing, Still Standing... 

    MMC discovered 10/2/2013, TWINS... d&c 10/7/2013.  I still miss you, little ones. 

    Surgery December 2013 to remove a 10+cm fibroid... Open myomectomy. Benched for 3-9 months... 
    Will TTC summer Summer 2014 we hope!

    Dear God, Since I couldn't hold my little one in my lap and tell him about you, could you hold him in your lap and tell him about me? 

    PgAL and PAL always welcome...
  • SoxFan777 said:
    I'm only at a 5 for crazy because it's finally a happy crazy! I'm 1 day post ovulation and TTC for the FIRST TIME in months. I really came on here because I am DYING to scream out that I'm off the bench, but I'm not really ready to tell anyone we're trying again yet... I have had 2 mc and a ute surgery... I don't have a can I just, because it was "can I just try again" for so long that I'm psyched to be where I'm at. So... No symptoms except happiness about having just had sex without a goalie in MONTHS.... Like, months... So awesome.
    Yaaaaaay!!! I totally get this!!!! I came off the bench last month and although terrified it was such a surreal and exciting feeling. FX for you!
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    Crazy level from 1-10: 8

    CD/DPO: cd 17

    Can I just ______ already?!: grow mature follicles and trigger!

    Signs/Symptoms: follicles that are not growing, but a lining that looks ok

    Explain your Crazy here: Ugh. So, I took letrozole cd 3-7, then Bravelle Wednesday and Thursday nights. I was really hoping by now that I would be ready to trigger and do my IUI. Nope. I have to take Bravelle again tonight and tomorrow and go back Sunday for my FIFTH follicle u/s this cycle. Please talk some sense into my ovaries and coax them into cooperating, this is getting ridiculous.
    Multiple TTCAL 1image
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     TTC #1 since March 2011 
    BFP #1: EDD 4/16/13~~blighted ovum w/ 2 gestational sacs~~Loss on 9/18/12
    BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
    9/13, 10/13, 1/14: letrozole + trigger + TI = All BFNs
    3/14: IUI#1 letrozole/Bravelle/Menopur + trigger = BFN
    BFP #3: EDD 1/27/15 Please be our rainbow! ...Team Green


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