LO will be 11 months old on the 28th, and while I love BF DD, "I am so done with it!"
I spoke with my pediatrician and she gave me the okay, to start letting DD have tiny amounts of WCM once she turns 11 months old, so that is what we are going to do. I know research says 12 months, but I hardly think 30 days makes a difference, and my pedi agreed.
My daughter has NEVER taken the bottle, and has BF from only once source the last 11 months, me! So, that means that for 11 months me and baby girl have been tied to the hip. I have never left her more than 3 hours since birth. While I love the time with her, everyone needs their "me time" or "adult time" and I am so ready for it! I need just one night out where I can let loose and a fun night out with friends. Its been years! Literally.
I am not one to drink even one drink while BF, so I am SO ready for a beer or glass of wine. I can just taste the freedom, the leash being slightly let go.
I know that I am going to miss BF her, and I feel terrible that the time has ended, but I am so ready for it!
I am still going to nurse her to sleep for a while longer (probably until she is about 14 months or so), but just knowing that I can do something on my own for a while makes my body feel alive!
I feel like the worse mom ever ( i know im not) for wanting that freedom, but i so, so, so need it and want it.
Anyone else in the same boat?
I feel like there is a whole world out there that i can explore again! A bar, a concert, a night away with the DH, a party, etc. Even with DD we leave weddings early etc. so LO isnt out til 1 am. Maybe I can stay at a wedding for the entire time again!
Me: 28 | DH:32
DD: 4 years | Born: 03/28/13
Due Date #2: 10-14-17