Hi ladies! Our DS turned one last week and we are in the early stages of TTC #2. Before DS, I had 2 m/c and 2 failed IUI's. I got 7 eggs at ER but nothing fertilized and they had to do rescue ICSI which somehow magically worked. I had basically a WTF appt this month to ask "Why did everything go wrong last time and yet we got a kid ... and how will we do it this time?" We're planning on the same antagonist cycle but with a higher dose and ICSI on day one.
I'm surprised at how stressful this is even the second time around. I almost cried when I was getting ready for the mock transfer/saline sono this week because I just don't want to deal with it. We are lucky enough to have 1 more insurance covered cycle, but we can't afford to go on after that so this is our last shot. I feel guilty and selfish for feeling not "done" and robbed of the decision of how to space any potential sibling out because I feel like I'm racing time on a body that wasn't working right even when I was younger.
But overall I really try not to be a negative Nelly.

Really! I look forward to getting to know you all and am glad this board is here!
Married 6/08, TTC 7/09
MC w/ D&C 3/11 ~ 9.5 weeks
CP/MC 1/12 ~ 5 weeks
2 IUI's w/ BFN
IVF 6/12 ~ 8R, 0F ~ Rescue ISCI gave us 3dt of 2 (6 cell, 9+ cell)
DS born ~ 3/3/13
IVF 6/14 ~ Operation Sibling ~ 10R, 5F ~ 5dt of 1 Blast
Beta 1: 1600+, Beta 2: 4588
Everyone Welcome!
Re: Hello!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Me: 27 DH: 33
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI
TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope