WTF really didn’t provide me with any clarity. I wish it did, it just raises more questions for me. She really doesn’t know why it didn’t work. She feels we have MFI on top of DH’s BT, because our embryos usually look good up to day three, including the cycles with my eggs. It sucks that all our SA’s are perfect, DH’s sperm DNA fragmentation was only 1%, anything below 15% is considered normal. I guess there just isn’t a test for what is wrong with DH’s sperm.
I discussed my concerns of implantation dysfunction. **TMI warning** I told her about spotting before each period and having clots. I was thinking I may have blood clotting issues. I have told every doctor and RE I have seen about this. Up until today, every doctor I have talk to about this has not been concerned about this, well she is. She said this is symptomatic of endometriosis, which could explain my unexplained DOR and possibly our failures.
She is going to run a complete RPL panel, the one I had drawn at my old clinic was not complete. I have had NK cells lab work completed in the past—she is going to look at that more closely to make sure something wasn’t missed. I am going to schedule a Lap to rule out endometriosis. She has to coordinate this with her partner, because she is not a preferred provider for my insurance, but her partner is.
We also discussed our options if we decide to cycle again.
1. Cycle again with DE and DH’s sperm—as this may have just been a bad cycle, but everything suggests it wasn’t. However, she stated she would be thrilled if we tried again.
2. Cycle with my eggs and donor sperm.
4. Donor Embryo. The wait list is 6 months to a year at my clinic
DH is open to trying DS in the future. Although he is not interested in cycling anytime soon. I’m not sure if this means we will cycle in 6 months, a year, or two.
I’m at the point that I’m not sure if it will ever happen for us. On top of DH wanting to take an extended break, money is a huge factor into when we will be able to cycle again. We are middle class, with no IF coverage. We have utilized all our financial resources. We have no equity in our house—we bought it right before the housing market crashed. We borrowed from our cars for our first three cycles. We took out a significant loan for this DE cycle. I am at a loss.
I’m open to any theories/suggestions to why we can’t get knocked up. After TTC for almost 6 years I’m getting tired, but I know that I am not one who will ever be able to move on and live a CF lifestyle.