I have a peri appt this morning and know I will get a US but I thought about canceling it yesterday b/c I just don't want to go and drag DD b/c it's a PITA. When I had these apointments with DD I couldn't wait to see her but now?......mehhhh......
'I loved you for a thousand years and I will love you for a thousand more'
I stayed in bed later than I normally would this morning. After finally dragging my ass up (with only 20 mins to pee/poop, change, eat, feed pets & pack my lunch) I looked in the mirror. Crap. I was supposed to shower this morning!! I only shower every other day so that means no shower since Wednesday. Ah well. Hope I don't stink because I totally look greasy.
I watched this week's episode of Glee last night and it made me ugly cry. This show is so dumb, but I watch it anyway. In the few years it has been on, it has made me cry more than I care to admit.
I watched this week's episode of Glee last night and it made me ugly cry. This show is so dumb, but I watch it anyway. In the few years it has been on, it has made me cry more than I care to admit.
I can't watch Glee anymore. The school shooting episode killed any desire I had to watch it. I'm a teacher, and have been through a legitimate school lockdown (there was an idiot outside our school, drunk, shooting at squirrels with a handgun). We didn't know the extent of the situation until after the SWAT team left, and we had a debriefing. That was the scariest hour and a half of my life. Between that experience and the other mass shootings I've been effected by, I just can't watch something like that for entertainment.
Married June 2012
DH: 31 Me: 30 dx PCOS 2001
Surprise BFP 12/8/13 EDD 8/14/14
Stroke: 3/15/14 dx expressive aphasia: had to relearn how to communicate
This is the first time in my life I have ever considered quiting my job.
They want me to travel 10 hours away, to oversee training (that I was originally supposed to attend), for a month, while pregnant, and be happy about it? GTH!
I'm terrified of having a newborn again. I really dislike that stage and wish they came out like a 3-4 month old. (Stupid fourth trimester). I do not do well on little sleep and I worry about how this new baby is going to effect our family dynamic. I'm a sahm and I worry that I will not be able to meet the needs of two under two.
If I could afford a baby/night nurse I think I would absolutely get one. I would still wake up to bf but the night nurse would be responsible for getting the baby back to sleep.
I am terrified about the sleep thing as well. DS and I have had it good in the sleep department for almost 3 years now and I constantly wonder if I can really do the newborn stage again.
I am so worried about being cranky and tired and not able to do all the fun stuff DS and I normally do in the summer.
I am really excited that it's Pi Day. I may or may not have been singing "Pi Day" To the tune of Friday since I woke up this morning. I have a cherry pie here and it's going to be amazing
This is the first time in my life I have ever considered quiting my job.
They want me to travel 10 hours away, to oversee training (that I was originally supposed to attend), for a month, while pregnant, and be happy about it? GTH!
What now? are they at least paying for a plane or are they making you drive?
I am considering buying a roll of duct tape for my 6 hour flight home. If I have a child kicking my seat for 6 hours, like I did on the way here, I might jump over the seat and tape them to their chair.
I have a peri appt this morning and know I will get a US but I thought about canceling it yesterday b/c I just don't want to go and drag DD b/c it's a PITA. When I had these apointments with DD I couldn't wait to see her but now?......mehhhh......
I took my dog in yesterday to update his vaccines. I took C with me, thinking it will be no big deal.
i ususally love me some Scandal, but these last few episodes are so over the top & the acting is so melodramatic. Almost every single scene has these intense over-acted exchanges. I still like the plot, but they need to tone it down. And all their creative camera angles & horrible clothing trying to disguise Kerry Washington's big old PG belly are annoying too.
I love this show too, but haven't had a chance to watch the last few episodes. The DVR is saving them for me for a rainy, lazy day! I've been excited about getting the chance to sit down & watch a marathon of them, I hope that I'm not too disappointed.
I am considering buying a roll of duct tape for my 6 hour flight home. If I have a child kicking my seat for 6 hours, like I did on the way here, I might jump over the seat and tape them to their chair.
Karma might bite you in the ass on this one someday, jussayin'
Fully aware of that. I don't judge crying babies or wiggly kids on airplanes cause I know that will be me some day. But after about hour 4 of my unwanted massage I can start to daydream.
I put sour cream on my bagel this morning instead of cream cheese. I figured this out half way through eating. I was on my way to work so I ate the other half. I was hungry...I am ashamed.
I don't want my mom to babysit or spoil this baby much. It came out last night that my parents don't really see my stepson as their grandchild (which I've known based on their actions, but hearing it said made it worse). Even though my stepson is older, I don't think it's very fair that this baby get treated differently just because of biology. My mom thinks she's going to be around this baby all the time and I really want to just tell her off about the whole thing. But I know that I'll end up keeping my mouth shut with my hurt feelings to avoid conflict.
I was like this with my stepmoms family. Her mother, so my step grandma treated me really differently. She would tell people I was her grandchild, but she when she did presents her own blood grandchildren always got more or just little things like that. A few years ago we sort of had a falling out due to my dad helping fix up my stepsisters car but never helped me when I needed something for my car, his own flesh(totally a long story). I kind of acted like a bitch (not mouthy, just didn't talk much)at her sweet 16 and my step grandma had something to say about, but she didn't to my face. She took it to FB. I ended up deleting her because I was hurt how she broadcasted to the entire world instead of to me. We eventually added each other back, but I am no longer considered a grandchild to her.
We're going to the beach this weekend and a really good friend of mine and her BF will be down there. I'm really excited to see her, but I definitely don't intend to spend the whole weekend with her and him. I think she thinks that we will but I don't want to. I do want some time down there with H. We had already talked about going to the beach anyways, so this was pretty much planned before we knew they were going to be down there. I love her to death too, but she can be really flaky on plans.
I'm pretty sure I've gained quite a bit of weight this week. I've been stress eating like crazy and my healthy eating went out the window. Anything pasta or dessert related has been my friend. Now, I feel so guilty for being out of control.
FC: I briefly considered getting an elective ultrasound to find out the sex and not tell H about it. He thinks it's silly to get one early, but I'm dying to know if I have an extra vag or a peen.
I put sour cream on my bagel this morning instead of cream cheese. I figured this out half way through eating. I was on my way to work so I ate the other half. I was hungry...I am ashamed.
I totally did that a month or so ago, but I put cream cheese on my taco...in front of other people. I didn't eat it, but it was embarrassing.
My mom is visiting this week. I want to be one of those people with an amazing relationship with her parents--I just can't be. I don't like who they are as people. They are money driven, judgmental, and have unrealistic expectations.
Example from yesterday: Me: How are Cousin 1 and wife doing? (my cousins) Mom: Oh Cousin 2 and wife (other cousins) are doing great! He made law partner and she got promoted in her accounting firm. Me: No I asked about Counsin 1 and wife// Mom: well I think counsin 1 wife spent more money on a tattoo and still works at that trashy bar. Me: Ok, I figured you would talk about their children and health being that he has cancer--but it is cool, at least I have an update on her tattoo status.
I tried to have sex with DH last night. The foreplay was going really well, but as soon as we got down to business I started bawling. I felt so bad for him, because this happened last time we had sex, but after he finished. I'm now terrified of having sex because I don't want to cry again. But I'm horny, so it's a problem. I also feel like a terrible wife because we've only had sex 2.5 times since I got pregnant. And I cried 2 of those times.
I tried to have sex with DH last night. The foreplay was going really well, but as soon as we got down to business I started bawling. I felt so bad for him, because this happened last time we had sex, but after he finished. I'm now terrified of having sex because I don't want to cry again. But I'm horny, so it's a problem. I also feel like a terrible wife because we've only had sex 2.5 times since I got pregnant. And I cried 2 of those times.
Oh dear That's only happened to me once during, but it was a few years ago, completely not pregnancy related. Totally ruined the moment!
I tried to have sex with DH last night. The foreplay was going really well, but as soon as we got down to business I started bawling. I felt so bad for him, because this happened last time we had sex, but after he finished. I'm now terrified of having sex because I don't want to cry again. But I'm horny, so it's a problem. I also feel like a terrible wife because we've only had sex 2.5 times since I got pregnant. And I cried 2 of those times.
The past two or three we have had sex. I cried after H finished. The first time he freaked, I told him I was fine and I just had the urge to cry. The second time when I cried, he just let me cry.
I am freaking out a bit about having another child. We had things *somewhat* under control around here for a while, and things are about to be very upside down again for a very long time. I also feel like I'm in a weird spot pregnancy-wise - I'm not super sick, but I can't feel baby move regularly. I don't feel connected to this baby, but I honestly can't remember whether it was different the other times. I am also worried that I won't be able to give all of the kids the attention they need.
I feel some resentment towards my husband, who somehow manages to find time for himself on a regular basis. If I planned activities to get away, I think he would support me in that, but honestly, my mind just doesn't work that way. So it's not really fair for me to resent him needing his time, but I kinda do (must stop that, be better wife!). I just need to figure out what I would enjoy doing away from my family and plan it. But for some reason that seems really hard!
I can't read any more dog posts. I love dogs, I have a strong opinion about owners commitment to their animals. If your dog is tearing apart your house or freaking out at guests we can't help you - get a trainer. No, you shouldn't commit to a puppy when you'll have a newborn in your house in a few months. Puppies are in the puppy stage for 2-3 years and need a strong training commitment to help them learn to be good dog citizens.
This is the first time in my life I have ever considered quiting my job.
They want me to travel 10 hours away, to oversee training (that I was originally supposed to attend), for a month, while pregnant, and be happy about it? GTH!
What now? are they at least paying for a plane or are they making you drive?
If I drive, I will have my vehicle for the entire month, and be compensated. Flying would take 5hrs (no direct flights), and no rental cars.
I will be getting a small stipend, as well.
The part that is pissing me off is that they just told me that I'm going. And unless I get a doctor's note (unlikely), I have to go.
I sometimes wish I worked for the volunteer squad.
I have a peri appt this morning and know I will get a US but I thought about canceling it yesterday b/c I just don't want to go and drag DD b/c it's a PITA. When I had these apointments with DD I couldn't wait to see her but now?......mehhhh......
I took my dog in yesterday to update his vaccines. I took C with me, thinking it will be no big deal.
Nope. Longest 10 minutes of my life.
Freaking Peri takes forever! 1.5 hours! DD was amazing except when freaking out while I was getting the US so needless to say I had her sit next to me and wave at the baby on the screen and play peek-a-boo for the 15mins it took. She sat in her stroller the rest of the time and ate snacks..... I just hate juggling her while doing US, blood work and talking to dr/nurses. Next time she will be at the sitters.
'I loved you for a thousand years and I will love you for a thousand more'
I've had Chick-fil-a 3 times this week (mostly hash browns in the morning) despite packing my breakfast/lunch for those specific days.
I'm not a fan of getting flowers for a present (thankfully, H is on this bandwagon as well). With the exception of this one place downtown where I live that has gorgeous fresh flowers bouquets for $10-15, I think it's overpriced since they die after a few days. (FWIW - not saying it's not thoughtful for those who enjoy it, it's just not my style).
So one of my FB friends is anti-vax and posts about it all the time. I know I should just block him, but I'm always so tempted to go off on him. But, I don't think I have enough medically backed knowledge about the subject to get into a full scale debate with him. I know I should do some research and fire back, but I don't have the energy.
Here's a sample:
Him: "So if you do the math, in the US you have about a 3.5 billion to 1 chance of catching the measles and dying from it. Stop the madness"
And I really want to respond with something along the lines of, "That's thanks to all the people who have gotten their vaccines and stopped the spread of the disease, your welcome"
So one of my FB friends is anti-vax and posts about it all the time. I know I should just block him, but I'm always so tempted to go off on him. But, I don't think I have enough medically backed knowledge about the subject to get into a full scale debate with him. I know I should do some research and fire back, but I don't have the energy.
Here's a sample:
Him: "So if you do the math, in the US you have about a 3.5 billion to 1 chance of catching the measles and dying from it. Stop the madness"
And I really want to respond with something along the lines of, "That's thanks to all the people who have gotten their vaccines and stopped the spread of the disease, your welcome"
oooo that's an excellent response. Because measles WAS considered eradicated in the US in the year 2000, but now there are outbreaks in major cities. I'd say something.. Calling out idiots is like crack to me.
I've had Arby's twice for dinner this week and am thinking I might have to make another trip there for lunch today, using cash of course so H doesn't think I'm too crazy.
Also, my parents had to put down the family dog yesterday and while I'm really upset and sad about it, I'm trying not to dwell on it too much because I know if I let it get to me, I'll be bawling my eyes out for a few hours straight.
I'm so sorry! I lost my dog in December. I cried for days. H was just lost on what to do. I would cry myself to sleep and if I thought about it, I would just cry. After a week of dwelling, I realized I just needed to stop. Doesn't mean I don't think of her, I just had to stop the dwelling.
So one of my FB friends is anti-vax and posts about it all the time. I know I should just block him, but I'm always so tempted to go off on him. But, I don't think I have enough medically backed knowledge about the subject to get into a full scale debate with him. I know I should do some research and fire back, but I don't have the energy.
Here's a sample:
Him: "So if you do the math, in the US you have about a 3.5 billion to 1 chance of catching the measles and dying from it. Stop the madness"
And I really want to respond with something along the lines of, "That's thanks to all the people who have gotten their vaccines and stopped the spread of the disease, your welcome"
There have now been 2 confirmed cases in my city of kids with measles. The one who originally contracted it had been to the Philippines with his/her family and is totally unvaccinated. Guess what? When s/he started getting sick they went to 3 clinics, the children's hospital and a regular hospital. Now one of his/her unvaccinated classmates has contracted it. I feel bad for the child but TAKE THAT stupid parents who think they know science & medicine better than scientists and doctors.
The thing is, he posted that as a response to someone else who posted that exact article! I think I need to just take @nobadwriting 's advice and just let him stew in his crazy. And make sure my pediatrician is ok with my kid hanging out with his kids ahead of time.
So one of my FB friends is anti-vax and posts about it all the time. I know I should just block him, but I'm always so tempted to go off on him. But, I don't think I have enough medically backed knowledge about the subject to get into a full scale debate with him. I know I should do some research and fire back, but I don't have the energy.
Here's a sample:
Him: "So if you do the math, in the US you have about a 3.5 billion to 1 chance of catching the measles and dying from it. Stop the madness"
And I really want to respond with something along the lines of, "That's thanks to all the people who have gotten their vaccines and stopped the spread of the disease, your welcome"
There have now been 2 confirmed cases in my city of kids with measles. The one who originally contracted it had been to the Philippines with his/her family and is totally unvaccinated. Guess what? When s/he started getting sick they went to 3 clinics, the children's hospital and a regular hospital. Now one of his/her unvaccinated classmates has contracted it. I feel bad for the child but TAKE THAT stupid parents who think they know science & medicine better than scientists and doctors.
Love this response. What a surprise? Kids aren't vaccinated and they get vaccine-preventable diseases! If it wasn't for all of us who do vaccinate, all these non-vaccinated kids would be in a lot more danger from these diseases. They are basically taking advantage of all the vaccinated kids to protect their kids.
It would be REALLY hard for me not to comment back on that type of stuff...I'd probably have to unsubscribe from his feed.
Re: FFFC
'I loved you for a thousand years and I will love you for a thousand more'
I only shower every other day so that means no shower since Wednesday. Ah well. Hope I don't stink because I totally look greasy.
'I loved you for a thousand years and I will love you for a thousand more'
This is the first time in my life I have ever considered quiting my job.
They want me to travel 10 hours away, to oversee training (that I was originally supposed to attend), for a month, while pregnant, and be happy about it? GTH!
Baby Girl born 7/9/2014 at 34.5wks
I am so worried about being cranky and tired and not able to do all the fun stuff DS and I normally do in the summer.
I may or may not have been singing "Pi Day" To the tune of Friday since I woke up this morning. I have a cherry pie here and it's going to be amazing
Mom to S-07/22/10 & Q-12/14/11 L-8/23/14
Mom to S-07/22/10 & Q-12/14/11 L-8/23/14
Fully aware of that. I don't judge crying babies or wiggly kids on airplanes cause I know that will be me some day. But after about hour 4 of my unwanted massage I can start to daydream.
Example from yesterday:
Me: How are Cousin 1 and wife doing? (my cousins)
Mom: Oh Cousin 2 and wife (other cousins) are doing great! He made law partner and she got promoted in her accounting firm.
Me: No I asked about Counsin 1 and wife//
Mom: well I think counsin 1 wife spent more money on a tattoo and still works at that trashy bar.
Me: Ok, I figured you would talk about their children and health being that he has cancer--but it is cool, at least I have an update on her tattoo status.
That's only happened to me once during, but it was a few years ago, completely not pregnancy related. Totally ruined the moment!
Baby Boy due October 2017
If I drive, I will have my vehicle for the entire month, and be compensated. Flying would take 5hrs (no direct flights), and no rental cars.
I will be getting a small stipend, as well.
The part that is pissing me off is that they just told me that I'm going. And unless I get a doctor's note (unlikely), I have to go.
I sometimes wish I worked for the volunteer squad.
Baby Girl born 7/9/2014 at 34.5wks
A pregnant coworker brought me a small vanilla Frosty that afternoon.
I did not tell her I'd already had one. I did not tell her vanilla Frostys are frauds.
I ate it and I loved it!
Freaking Peri takes forever! 1.5 hours! DD was amazing except when freaking out while I was getting the US so needless to say I had her sit next to me and wave at the baby on the screen and play peek-a-boo for the 15mins it took. She sat in her stroller the rest of the time and ate snacks..... I just hate juggling her while doing US, blood work and talking to dr/nurses. Next time she will be at the sitters.
'I loved you for a thousand years and I will love you for a thousand more'
www.cbsnews.com/news/measles-outbreak-in-new-york-city-health-officials-warn/
And in Los Angeles....
Love this response. What a surprise? Kids aren't vaccinated and they get vaccine-preventable diseases! If it wasn't for all of us who do vaccinate, all these non-vaccinated kids would be in a lot more danger from these diseases. They are basically taking advantage of all the vaccinated kids to protect their kids.
It would be REALLY hard for me not to comment back on that type of stuff...I'd probably have to unsubscribe from his feed.
son#1 born 6/2010
son#2 born 4/2012
son#3 born 7/2014