The last 2 weeks, my emotions have been nothing short of overdramatic. I feel so physically bad right now, and it's showing in how I respond to stuff. I have cried almost everyday for the last 2 weeks, over anything and everything. If it doesn't work out like I felt it should have, I cry my eyes out. To add insult to injury, I'm dealing with a nuisance cold that just won't go away. I have zero signs of labor right now, and I'm less than a week from his due date. The only "sign" of labor is loose stools, compared to my rock hard normal ones, but it's been 2 weeks since that started. I was 1/2 cm at my last appointment 5 days ago, so pretty much nothing. He was -3 station, and I think she said 50% effaced. I have drank a TON of RRL tea and have been on my feet 24/7 between work and cleaning. My last day of work was yesterday, so I'm currently on leave. I'm already going insane. I bounce on my exercise ball and try to get my hips moving. I haven't even had 1 BH today. He feels low, but I guess not low enough. I climb stairs pretty often since our bedroom is down the stairs. Have not lost ANY of my plug.
This is my 3rd pregnancy and birth. The first was induced. The second they broke my water for me. I never went into labor without the OB putting me in it. I'm feeling like it will be the same thing this time, and I'll be pregnant til I'm 42 weeks. The amount of frustration I feel is overwhelming. This pregnancy has been a nightmare with all of the physical ailments that I had the whole time. Now that I'm down to the final days, with no signs of his birth, it's making me crazy. I'm to the point where I over analyze every BH and just PRAY that it turns into a real contraction. It obviously hasn't. My induction with #1 was horrible, and I don't want to do that ever again. I pushed for 3 hours, he came out blue, and I was literally seconds from getting a C-section. My 2nd baby had obviously stayed in too long, was huge, and had to be vacuumed out. I don't want to do that stuff again. I just want a NORMAL birth, no weird tools and no drugs. I'm to the point where I have stopped preparing because I feel like I still have almost a month before he's here. So frustrated! I thought with multiple pregnancies/births, it got easier and faster. My body must suck with pregnancy and birth because it definitely has not.