prayers please...water broke at 21 weeks...update loss mentioned

hopin4babies · March 2014

Ive updated the original post with everything that happened and a few pictures of McKenzie. Things will get better but they are still pretty hard right now so I'm not sure if I will be back on here much. I hope that all of you continue to have healthy pregnancies and that no one else has to experience this pain. We have had too many losses on the board already. Thank you all so much for your support and prayers. It helps knowing that there are people I can talk to if needed and knowing so many are praying for us. thank you

Cstarks2013 · March 2014

Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

b48kate · March 2014

Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful girl with us. I can't imagine the weight of this loss on you and your family, but you are clearly a woman strong in spirit and faith and I can't help but admire your grace. I will be thinking of you often.

Mowill59 · March 2014

I am so very sorry. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

nikki0808 · March 2014

I am so sorry. Keeping you and your DH in my thoughts and prayers.

temursgirl · March 2014

So sorry for your loss. T&P for all of you.

JlWhite14 · March 2014

I'm so sorry for your lost. I pray for peace and love for you and your family. God just had bigger plans for your little angel... Stay strong and God bless!

MissBHaven1024 · March 2014

I am still so very sorry for your loss and that you are enduring something that no one should have to experience. I continue to pray for you and your husband. I hope with time that God brings you peace and comfort. I truly am so sorry.

nunzchucks · March 2014

So sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.

hazeldublin · March 2014

I'm so sorry for you and your family, thinking and praying for you x

hjl050308 · March 2014

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

BabyCurtiss2014 · March 2014

I am so so sorry honey, and I will be praying for you! I can't even imagine what you are going through. You will forever have an angel looking over you. I wish I could give you an actual hug, but here is a creepy internet hug {( )} xoxoxo

LilyGracesMommy · March 2014

So sorry for your loss, thinking and praying for you during this time of healing and grieving. Wishing you the best.

Read247 · March 2014

Oh honey, I was ugly crying reading that and looking at pictures of your beautiful baby girl. I wish there was something I could say to take away your pain. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Sending ((HUGS)).

otter1103 · March 2014

So sorry for you and your family. You will all be in my prayers as well as beautiful angel baby McKenzie.

deepoceanmama · March 2014

I am so, so incredibly sorry. Prayers and love to you.

ncbelle · March 2014

So sorry for your loss mama - will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope that you find peace and healing.

babyglo350 · March 2014

She was beautiful. I'm sorry for your loss. Praying that you find strength everyday.

JuneRunner14 · March 2014

I'm so terribly sorry.

roundthree24 · March 2014

I will be praying for you, your DH, and your beautiful McKenzie. So very sorry that you are going through this.

RaisingABuzz · March 2014

Mc Kenzie is beautiful! I am so sorry that you had to experience this and that you are missing your sweet girl. Keeping you in my thoughts.

tnd1218 · March 2014

I'm sorry for your loss. Please know I continue to pray for you.

kbellizio3 · March 2014

So very sorry

T&P for you and your DH during this time

megzep · March 2014

I'm so sorry. :,(

BMaidPlanner · March 2014

Sending you so much love and strength as you heal. xoxo

ashquack · March 2014

I am so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you and your family.

Ahug77 · March 2014

hopin4babies said:
Update*
First I want to say thank you to everyone who has been praying for my family, and thank you to my labor buddy for updating for me when I couldn't. I know its been almost two weeks since this post but wanted to give a more detailed update. After my original post I tried to go to sleep but barely slept 2 hrs all night. They checked me many times for a fever because that would indicate an infection starting. The next morning the dr came in and said that it didn't look like I was getting an infection and that if everything continued to go well and she looked good on the ultrasound that after another day of IV antibiotics I would get to go home on strict bed rest and more antibiotics until I was 23 weeks. Then I would come back there and stay until I delivered and basically the longer we could keep her in there the better chance she would have. After that we had an ultrasound and she was breech but still had plenty of fluid and was kicking so much it took the tech a good 5 minutes to get her heartbeat. After that I finally got to eat after almost a day and even threw up like I always did. I felt so much better and tried to get some sleep but after a few hrs I started getting very strong contractions and was already dilated to a 10 so there was nothing they could do. They told me ahead of time that she was going to be too small for them to try to save because their tools were too big for her and her lungs werent developed enough at 21 weeks. My heart sank but I basically already knew this. They also couldn't give me an epidural because of something they had given me earlier that day so I could only have morphine. That helped the contractions but not the actual birth. About an hr later at 3:35 McKenzie Nicole was born weighing exactly 1 pound and was 10 1/2 inches long. She looked perfect and beautiful just small. She had my nose and my husbands lips and feet. She passed away about 45 minutes later but we got to hold her for as long as we wanted. We had her baptized in our room and basically all took turns holding her until around 9pm. It was hard to say goodbye but I knew we needed to. Later after everyone left we ended up asking the nurses if we could hold her just a little bit longer and I'm glad that I did because I don't think I was ready to say goodbye before. As of right now we are still waiting on the chromosome tests to come back but my dr doesn't think that will show anything since they had already tested her while I was pregnant and she looked absolutely perfect just small. The placenta didn't come back with anything abnormal so they aren't sure what happened. My husband and I are doing ok under the circumstances. I seem to have good and bad days but it helps to write or talk about it. Tonight seems to be a bad night but it has helped writing this. Thank you everyone for your thoughts, prayers, and support and please continue to pray that this gets easier. I miss my baby girl so much and just can't get over how quick everything changed.
I'm attaching a few pictures of her as well. I know its sad but she was just too beautiful not to share with you all.

If you all get a chance please pray for my baby girl McKenzie, DH, and me. We are currently at the hospital. I have been having watery discharge last night and all day so I finally called my dr. They had me go to the hospital and honestly I was expecting them to tell me I was fine and go home. Turns out my water broke. Its been trickling out for the past day. They said that I still have a good amount in there so I have been admitted. They are going to keep an eye on my white blood cells count and make sure I do not get an infection. If I do I will have to deliver baby girl and she will not have a chance to live. If they can keep me from getting an infection at least a few weeks then she will have a small chance of survival. Please pray for my baby girl and that we can keep her in as long as possible. Thanks in advance.

She was beautiful. My heart goes out to you and I have full faith that God is taking good care of McKenzie.

I'm praying for you and your husband, wishing you all the best.

ahastin1 · March 2014

I'm so, so sorry you are going through this. Lots of hugs for you and your family at this time.

Puka99 · March 2014

many thoughts and prayers for you.

eryale · March 2014

She was perfect and so beautiful. It's so hard to wrap my head around why/how this happens? My heart aches so much for you and your husband as you try to find a way to move forward after such an unimaginable loss. There truly are no words... Thank you for sharing your story and your pictures with us. I hope it has been at least somewhat therapeutic for you to do so. I know I speak for all of us "Bumpies" when I say that we all are happy to be here for you and all of our June 2014 friends no matter the news... It's like a family and certainly a great support network. I will keep you all in my thoughts... Rest in peace as you now watch over your mommmy and daddy little McKenzie Nicole ❤

butterflymom2010 · March 2014

I am deeply sorry. Many hugs to you.

Dharmatron · March 2014

Sending you love and prayers.

whoberry · March 2014

I am so sorry. Sending thoughts and hugs your way.

MSUMands · March 2014

So sorry to hear about McKenzie

Thinking of you!

bodvarsson · March 2014

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I'm thinking of and praying for you and your beautiful girl.

cMichelle0423 · March 2014

I am so so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you and your family are going through. Sending you lots of thoughts and prayers. Stay strong!