We went to our baby care basics class last night and I started feeling kinda dizzy and nauseous when they were talking about taking care of the cord stump. Then I almost passed out. How am I going to make it through childbirth class??
I know people are tired of "healthy weight" posts, but this is more specific to me and it's been on my mind. I feel FFFC is a good place to get this off my chest.
So I never really participate in the discussion about "how much weight have you gained" on the May board, because everyone is different and what I gain has nothing to do with what you gain, etc. I also don't participate because I was never that worried about it. I don't have a perfect body, but I was very happy with my pre-pregnancy body.
The idea of gaining the weight I needed to during my pregnancy was not scary to me, but it did take time to get myself to the head space of having a different body, during and after my pregnancy. I haven't worried about it much (shape or number-wise) since I started showing and putting on the pounds around 19/20 weeks.
Well, I had my 30 week appointment yesterday and I was really surprised when I weighted myself and I am only 3 pounds away from what I thought my "maximum" pregnancy weight would be. And this baby has at least 3-5 pounds to gain still, so ... I know I will be going over my "comfort zone" number in the next 10 weeks.
And now I'm kind of bummed about it. Not the weight now, but I'm already starting to worry about loosing it afterwards. I never thought I would feel like this about baby weight; it's a requirement of making a human. But I guess however "okay" I thought I felt, since I know I'm going over my comfort zone number all that "worry free" side of me is gone. I'm sure I'll get over it in the next week or two, but this just happened yesterday and I needed to confess my dirty, lack-of-confidence secret.
I am dreading my baby showers! 1) I have 3 of them (no joke!) 2) I hate being the center of attention 3) I don't usually enjoy baby showers in general. I appreciate that people want to have them and that people want (or feel obligated) to come but I will be happy when they are over.
I'm amused at watching Ms Kitty move around as awkwardly as I do now that we're both past the halfway mark. I find it hilarious how this usually thin cat now has a belly to contend with and she's having a hard time getting around like she used to. I know, its awful of me. Sorrynotsorry.
Also, I'm cheating on you hoars with Parenting. I feel no shame!
I am dreading my baby showers! 1) I have 3 of them (no joke!) 2) I hate being the center of attention 3) I don't usually enjoy baby showers in general. I appreciate that people want to have them and that people want (or feel obligated) to come but I will be happy when they are over.
Because I love to type in the quote box:
Me too! I didn't want one to begin with, but now I am having one and there are more people than I want and too many questions. If I must have one, I would rather the hostess just pick everything and let me show up
When I rent DVD'S, I return them without rewinding them.
IF DX: DOR & Fragile X pre-mutation carrier
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54
2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4; BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014
I didn't open a single present at my wedding shower for DHs side. My bridesmaids and DH had to open them all. As soon as I stood in front of everyone, I began having one of the biggest panic attacks I've ever experienced and had to be "escorted" out. Every time I would somewhat calm down and get close to the door to go back in it would start all over again. Everyone gave up. I sat outside of the room and hid when everyone left because I was so embarrassed.
I'm a fvcking pro at writing thank you/apology notes thankfully.
DH has a man cold and I asked him to sleep in the guess room last night. Not because of the cold but because I wanted the whole bed to myself.
I do that on a regular basis and don't bother to offer any explanation other than "I need my sleep". Our dog usually sleeps with us, two nights ago I kicked out my husband but let the dog stay in bed with me. We were out of space and the dog was fast asleep, it was easier to get my husband to move.
I text my hubby every time I'm actually able to poop, it's out of sheer pride and joy in the accomplishment. I think he's too scared to ask me to stop.
I think when people post T&P requests for random people they know through a cousin's friend's boss or through their HS BFF's sister's hometown it almost always comes off as AWish. Yeah that really sucks that something bad happened to that person. Why AW it up on the internet when it's not your story to tell? It's clearly not about awareness or advocacy, it's just "hey this shitty thing happened! thought you'd want to know!" Or that's how it feels to me sometimes.
Disclaimer: This FC is not directed at any individual or post so don't go getting all paranoid or whatever.
I text my hubby every time I'm actually able to poop, it's out of sheer pride and joy in the accomplishment. I think he's too scared to ask me to stop.
I do this too, or I announce proudly as as I exit the bathroom. DH always looks slightly amused. I need that "I pooped today!" tee shirt!
Mu husband is unemployed at the moment and hasn't been able to sleep at night so instead of trying he stays up until 3 or 4 in the morning playing damn video games. Well I work from home but still have to be up bright and early at 8:00 or so to start work. I have also been working from bed rather than my desk that way I can keep my feet propped up. I am slightly annoyed that he is still asleep so I've been extra loud and obnoxious so he will get his ass up and I don't feel slightly bad about it. I've got work to do bro! Get yo ass up!
I think when people post T&P requests for random people they know through a cousin's friend's boss or through their HS BFF's sister's hometown it almost always comes off as AWish. Yeah that really sucks that something bad happened to that person. Why AW it up on the internet when it's not your story to tell? It's clearly not about awareness or advocacy, it's just "hey this shitty thing happened! thought you'd want to know!" Or that's how it feels to me sometimes.
Disclaimer: This FC is not directed at any individual or post so don't go getting all paranoid or whatever
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That annoys me so much. Along similar lines, I find it even more annoying when someone gets AWish about a tragedy/loss they were not close to in the first place . I lost a close friend in high school, and I remember many teenagers who were (at best) mild acquaintances with him carrying on very dramatically (IMO) following the tragedy. I know everyone handles grief differently, but the way a lot of people conducted themselves seemed as if they were trying to direct attention toward their grieving-selves, and I found it borderline disrespectful.
I text my hubby every time I'm actually able to poop, it's out of sheer pride and joy in the accomplishment. I think he's too scared to ask me to stop.
I do this too, or I announce proudly as as I exit the bathroom. DH always looks slightly amused. I need that "I pooped today!" tee shirt!
Pooping is a huge accomplishment around here anymore. I've had 2 great poops 2 days in a row and am pretty excited about it. I don't remember the last time that has happened.
I know people are tired of "healthy weight" posts, but this is more specific to me and it's been on my mind. I feel FFFC is a good place to get this off my chest.
So I never really participate in the discussion about "how much weight have you gained" on the May board, because everyone is different and what I gain has nothing to do with what you gain, etc. I also don't participate because I was never that worried about it. I don't have a perfect body, but I was very happy with my pre-pregnancy body.
The idea of gaining the weight I needed to during my pregnancy was not scary to me, but it did take time to get myself to the head space of having a different body, during and after my pregnancy. I haven't worried about it much (shape or number-wise) since I started showing and putting on the pounds around 19/20 weeks.
Well, I had my 30 week appointment yesterday and I was really surprised when I weighted myself and I am only 3 pounds away from what I thought my "maximum" pregnancy weight would be. And this baby has at least 3-5 pounds to gain still, so ... I know I will be going over my "comfort zone" number in the next 10 weeks.
And now I'm kind of bummed about it. Not the weight now, but I'm already starting to worry about loosing it afterwards. I never thought I would feel like this about baby weight; it's a requirement of making a human. But I guess however "okay" I thought I felt, since I know I'm going over my comfort zone number all that "worry free" side of me is gone. I'm sure I'll get over it in the next week or two, but this just happened yesterday and I needed to confess my dirty, lack-of-confidence secret.
I was the same way with DD1. I had this expected range that I thought I'd hit and I made it to that point well before the end. Was I still healthy? Yes. In fact, the surgeon for my c/s said there was barely any fat on me, but that doesn't make those numbers on the scale any smaller, ya know? I had a ton of extra fluid. But in my head, certain numbers were just way over my comfort zone, mentally.
And even after going through it once already, I still hate seeing the nurse slide those weights further and further to the right every time I get weighed. So you're not alone!
My FFFC is that I can't stop reading the newborn questions thread on Feb 14. I keep checking that thread with embarrassing frequency.
Also, I refuse to look at the scale at the OB's office. I look up at the ceiling and ask them just to tell me if I'm going too fast. Ignorance is bliss and I love living in sweet sweet denial.
I have reached level 519 in Candy Crush. Lots of doctor's appointments this summer for IVF means lots of waiting rooms to perfect my crushing skills.
No shame.
I can't get past 165 and I've pretty much quit because of it.
I text my hubby every time I'm actually able to poop, it's out of sheer pride and joy in the accomplishment. I think he's too scared to ask me to stop.
I do this too, or I announce proudly as as I exit the bathroom. DH always looks slightly amused. I need that "I pooped today!" tee shirt!
Whenever I come out of the bathroom, DH asks "How'd it go?" haha
My FFFC is that I can't stop reading the newborn questions thread on Feb 14. I keep checking that thread with embarrassing frequency.
Also, I refuse to look at the scale at the OB's office. I look up at the ceiling and ask them just to tell me if I'm going too fast. Ignorance is bliss and I love living in sweet sweet denial.
At my OB's office the scale is in the private washroom and before each appointment they ask you to go pee on a protein/sugar test strip and weigh yourself (so it's very private) and then report it to the nurse at the beginning of the appointment. No avoiding the number ...
I'm losing my voice (thanks, cold) and DH made some stupid crack about life getting better since he doesn't have to listen to me whine. I may have called him a slew of nasty things in my newly garbled voice, including: shmucky-pants, dickwad, buttfink, and cocksludge (we tend to make up strange pseudo insults), and then I ate all his doughnuts.
My FFFC is that I can't stop reading the newborn questions thread on Feb 14. I keep checking that thread with embarrassing frequency.
Also, I refuse to look at the scale at the OB's office. I look up at the ceiling and ask them just to tell me if I'm going too fast. Ignorance is bliss and I love living in sweet sweet denial.
At my OB's office the scale is in the private washroom and before each appointment they ask you to go pee on a protein/sugar test strip and weigh yourself (so it's very private) and then report it to the nurse at the beginning of the appointment. No avoiding the number ...
Noooooooooo! Asking a pregnant woman to weigh herself - that is cruel and unusual punishment! I think that scale should only read "You're good, girl!" every time you step on it!
My FFFC is kinda personal. I have a real hangup about the fact that my mum was a lot more beautiful than I am. She had an amazing bone structure, whereas I have my dad's round face. She hardly wore makeup and I wear a full face every day because otherwise people ask me if i'm ok. She was slimmer than me at my age and infinitely cooler than i'll ever be. I'm pretty much jealous of her. She was the most incredible mum though and i'd give absolutely anything to have her back.
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
So, totally failed my 3-hour on Wednesday. I've had a sugar sensitivity this whole pregnancy, so the drink didn't help. I am the one that knows it's not my fault, that there is nothing that I could do to prevent this, yada yada yada. Other people think I'm crazy for "taking this so well."
They don't know that now I'm afraid to eat...
In memory of the angel babies that were too perfect for Earth.
I block people / " fb friends" after they send me requests to play games on fb like Candy Crush or Farmville or whatever the latest is... I have a zero tolerance policy with it.
And "hoars" is spelled "whores".... I can't help myself from correcting spelling and grammar mistakes.
I block people / " fb friends" after they send me requests to play games on fb like Candy Crush or Farmville or whatever the latest is... I have a zero tolerance policy with it.
And "hoars" is spelled "whores".... I can't help myself from correcting spelling and grammar mistakes.
I'm thinking that "spelling mistake" was made on purpose...
Re: FFFC
Also, I'm cheating on you hoars with Parenting. I feel no shame!
2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014
May 2014 January Siggy Challenge:
I'm a fvcking pro at writing thank you/apology notes thankfully.
And even after going through it once already, I still hate seeing the nurse slide those weights further and further to the right every time I get weighed. So you're not alone!
No shame.
I sent four in two days.
Pregnant lady has to pee.
Mommy to my sweet boy, JG, born May 15, 2014
Baby #2 due 4/26/16!
I still don't feel bad about it, either.
DD born 2/3/03
BFP 3/21/13 w/ EDD 12/02/13, C/P 3/29/13.
BFP 9/18/13 w/ EDD 5/26/14,
Beta #1 @ 14-16dpo = 375, progesterone 33.6
Beta #2 @ 20-22 dpo = 8,782!
Beta #3 @ 27-29dpo = 44,230, dx subchorionic hemorrhage/ threatened mc
Beta #4 @ 29-31dpo = 72, 080
Grow, little one, grow!
***** All AL Welcome *****
09/23/11 - Married DH
04/01/13 - BFP at 4wks
05/30/13 - MMC - BO @ 12wks 5d
08/29/13 - BFP @ 4wks 4d
09/17/13 - 7wks 2d - Normal HB Detected! Baby measuring perfect for dates and positioning!
10/23/13 - 12wks 3d - Perfect NT scan! HB 167 & baby wriggling, waving & yawning!
12/17/13 - 20wks 2 d - We're having a beautiful baby girl! Go Team Pink!
05/03/14 - Bobbie Gloria was born at 39+6 weighing 6lb 14oz!
They don't know that now I'm afraid to eat...
I block people / " fb friends" after they send me requests to play games on fb like Candy Crush or Farmville or whatever the latest is... I have a zero tolerance policy with it.
And "hoars" is spelled "whores".... I can't help myself from correcting spelling and grammar mistakes.