I am so sorry for your loss, I am lurking over from the March '14 board. I also had a loss at 38 weeks. I haven't been able to see if anyone mentioned it to you but the Loss board here is where parents who have lost their babies or children get support and it is very supportive. I am so glad you had time with him. I held my baby every minute I was awake after I delivered her. When you feel like you can or want to the Loss board will be there for you.
Update on us. We left the hospital as late as we could on Sunday afternoon and are now home. DD is a good distraction during the day, but we are all having a hard time. No one is sleeping well. DD isn't napping normally so we are all kid of an emotional mess.
My parents and sister are coming int town from Alaska tomorrow afternoon. The funeral arrangements are not finalized yet, but it will probably be Monday or Tuesday next week.
I'm having all kinds of weird issues. I think some are related to the pain meds I'm on. I am also only able to sleep for a couple of hours at a time. I have a doctor's appointment this morning so hopefully I will be able to resolve some of that.
I lost my baby boy 3 years ago and it helped me to find a support group afterwards with others who had experienced a similar loss. Allow yourself the time and space to grieve and to heal. There are some supports out there that can comfort- PM me anytime if you wish.
I hope you can get some help at your appt this morning.
My thoughts are with you and your family amd your beautiful, perfect, sweet angel. (((((((Hugs)))))))
I read your story when you first posted, but I didn't know what to say. Now that some time has passed, I still don't know what to say...
I'm so sorry for your loss and will be thinking about you and your family. My friend lost her twins in a similar situation and was understandably absolutely devastated for a very long time. She is finally now, however, so much stronger and in a happier place, so I hope that you are able to get there too; just be sure to take as much time as you need.
I hope your appointment was able to help with some of those issues...all others will take time. I'm also glad you have family coming and will hopefully be able to lean on them for more support. My heart continues to go out to you and your family at this time. May you find comfort and strength in one another to get through this beyond difficult time.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby boy. He is beautiful. We lost our 6 month old son in 2012 so I understand the pain you're feeling. I hope somehow you are able to find some comfort soon. Thinking about and praying for your family.
Our baby boy passed to SIDS on 12/6/12
A gift from Heaven...Our LittleRAINBOWarrived 1/31/14!
Oh, sweet angel baby. I am so very sorry for your loss. There are no words. He is just beautiful. I'm so glad that the hospital gave you and your husband all the time you needed to be with Nathaniel. I'm glad that your family is flying to be near you. I don't really know what to say, just that I'm keeping you, your husband, your daughter, and Nathaniel in my thoughts and sending love and strength your way.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I too don't know quite what to say but want you to know that you are supported and being thought of with sympathy and compassion.
BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
TTC #1 since 1/10
DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues
Our lil' lost sparks:
5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013
Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked,
2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal
Moving on to IVF.
IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy
Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14
After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14 We are so in love with her.
"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."
Re: Dadalou's labor story - warning, loss mentioned **Update on pg 5**
BFP #3 -mm/c @ 7wks, discovered at 9wks, D&C 9/28
BFP #4 5/29 EDD 2/9 - please be our rainbow
Age: 35 TTC since 2005, MFI & DOR
IVF #1 Sep '11 - canceled poor response
IVF #2 Nov '11 8R/8M/4F 3dt x2 - chemical
IVF #3 April '12 11R/6M/4F 3dt x2 - m/c
FET #1 Aug 2012 3dt x2 - BFN
**new RE**
IVF #4 Jan '13 BFN 11R/6M/6F 5dt x2 - BFN
IVF #5 July '13 16R/10M/10F 5dt x2 + 1 frostie
9dp5dt Beta 1 = 344!! 16dp5dt. Beta 2 = 4822 7wk u/s= 2 heartbeats!
Twin girls! 3/6/14
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He is a beautiful boy, I am so sorry.
Baby Girl #2 is on her way!
February 2014 Moms Siggy Challenge... Turkeys
I lost my baby boy 3 years ago and it helped me to find a support group afterwards with others who had experienced a similar loss. Allow yourself the time and space to grieve and to heal. There are some supports out there that can comfort- PM me anytime if you wish.
I hope you can get some help at your appt this morning.
My thoughts are with you and your family amd your beautiful, perfect, sweet angel.
(((((((Hugs)))))))
I'm also glad you have family coming and will hopefully be able to lean on them for more support.
My heart continues to go out to you and your family at this time. May you find comfort and strength in one another to get through this beyond difficult time.
TTC #1 since 1/10
DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues
Our lil' lost sparks:
5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013
Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal
Moving on to IVF.
IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy
Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14
After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
We are so in love with her.
"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."
Everybody is welcome!!!