Jake is showing absolutely no desire to stand or walk right now, and it hit me in the gut because my friend's daughter, who is a month younger, took her first unassisted steps today, and it seems like there's a new post on here every day it seems of another mother announcing her baby began walking. Also, he's one of the oldest babies in his DC room, but, besides the two newest additions who are weeks old, he's the only one not standing up or walking yet. And every time we go to church or I talk to a coworker we haven't seen in awhile, they ask if he's walking yet. And i feel like a failure by saying no.
On one level, I know parents should never compare their babies to other babies...but I can't help but feel like I've failed him on some level because he doesn't even seem to want to try. He's just over a month from being considered developmentally delayed, and I'm nervous because I'm not sure we can afford the PT his ped is going to order if it gets to that point. There's also a part of me that is mad at him for not wanting to stand or walk while babies we know who are his age or younger seem to have no problem with it...and then I feel like a terrible mother for putting any fault onto him at all.
In my head, I know I'm overreacting and thinking the wrong way. "Just be patient, he'll walk when he's ready."...but I'm growing tired of "being patient" while all the babies around us seem to be cruising along in their development. The mothers of the babies in his daycare class didn't have to wait this long for their babies to be ready. Neither did my friend. So why do I?
Thanks for letting me vent. I just needed to get that out.