I keep forgetting to take my prenatals. I was so sick last week, I couldn't take them at all. Then, I forgot to restart once feeling better. I remembered last night. Pg brain is setting in. I can't f'ing remember anything.
I just took a huge dump at my sister's house while over to feed her cats. I congratulated myself the whole drive home at how proud I was to finally get it out of my system. I feel so much better, more normal now!
I sort of hate myself for whining that we didn't a better look at the baby at my failed NT scan yesterday. I know that wasn't the point of the ultrasound. It was just such a disappointing experience compared to DS.
I have never eaten a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, because peanut butter is kinda gross. Peanut butter is only acceptable in the form of a peanut butter cup.
I have never eaten a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, because peanut butter is kinda gross. Peanut butter is only acceptable in the form of a peanut butter cup.
I told H was I was going to get up and work out downstairs this morning, and instead I ate Lucky Charms and slept on the couch for 30 minutes. Guess I have a date with the treadmill after work.
I had some Lucky Charms too. I ate them dry without milk and they were still dang good.
I actually cooked two nights this week, first time in probably two weeks. Though they weren't all that great. Last night was frozen country style steak, green beans, rice and some gravy. Tuesday we had fried spam and mac and cheese because it's what I was craving and I liked that meal better than last nights. I couldn't even eat the country style steak because it was too thick. I gagged every time I thought of it.
Every morning I usually let the dog out first thing after my shower and 9 times out of 10, I do it while I'm in my underwear. We have a fence but it's only about 4 feet high and our dog is known to jump it if he's unsupervised so I have to stand out there with him. I don't really care that the neighbors might be able to see. I always put lotion on right after my shower and the cold air usually helps it dry before I put clothes on (because clothes over wet lotion is THE WORST).
TTC #1 since 2/2013 BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
I really wish people would just give me a hug and tell me they understand when I try to discuss my anxiety about this pregnancy/baby. Instead, everyone does the whole "you'll love being a parent!" thing or some other variation of how I should be over the top excited. I JUST WANT MY FEELINGS VALIDATED, not to be treated like I'm being silly or like I'm not living up to someone else's expectations.
@triumphgrrrl I feel the same way! Before I was expecting I would tell some people how much giving birth scares me, which it still does, and everyone would tell me that it would be OK and so many woman do it and do it multiple times so it can't be that bad. It made me feel stupid to have those feelings so I know how you feel!
Every morning I usually let the dog out first thing after my shower and 9 times out of 10, I do it while I'm in my underwear. We have a fence but it's only about 4 feet high and our dog is known to jump it if he's unsupervised so I have to stand out there with him. I don't really care that the neighbors might be able to see. I always put lotion on right after my shower and the cold air usually helps it dry before I put clothes on (because clothes over wet lotion is THE WORST).
I actually cooked two nights this week, first time in probably two weeks. Though they weren't all that great. Last night was frozen country style steak, green beans, rice and some gravy. Tuesday we had fried spam and mac and cheese because it's what I was craving and I liked that meal better than last nights. I couldn't even eat the country style steak because it was too thick. I gagged every time I thought of it.
I cooked chicken breasts the other night and nearly threw up the entire time I was preparing the raw meat. After that I had no appetite at all, and couldn't even look at the chicken.
Also, your siggy challenge gif gives me so much anxiety! Did he lose the ring in the waves?!?! Gah!
Definitely doesn't help the pre-pregnancy meat sometimes already grossed me out if I thought about it too much.
Lol, makes you wonder? I would be pretty upset if I were both of them. But hey, what's better than being proposed to near massive waves?
Every morning I usually let the dog out first thing after my shower and 9 times out of 10, I do it while I'm in my underwear. We have a fence but it's only about 4 feet high and our dog is known to jump it if he's unsupervised so I have to stand out there with him. I don't really care that the neighbors might be able to see. I always put lotion on right after my shower and the cold air usually helps it dry before I put clothes on (because clothes over wet lotion is THE WORST).
I'm assuming you live someplace warm...
If I did that today I'd be frozen to the deck still. It was -9 when I got up today.
Haha, actually I don't live someplace warm. -1 here this morning. I am always overheated when I get out of the shower and the 60-90 seconds of cold air while my dog does his business is very refreshing! Crazy, I know.
TTC #1 since 2/2013 BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
I really wish people would just give me a hug and tell me they understand when I try to discuss my anxiety about this pregnancy/baby. Instead, everyone does the whole "you'll love being a parent!" thing or some other variation of how I should be over the top excited. I JUST WANT MY FEELINGS VALIDATED, not to be treated like I'm being silly or like I'm not living up to someone else's expectations.
It's okay not to love pregnancy, it's okay to be afraid of things and anxiety can suck the joy and excitement out of lots of things. Sometimes even without anxiety pregnancy can suck! This one has been very difficult for me to enjoy and since it's my last I was excited to relish in it and enjoy every bit. Nope, it's been the scariest and the hardest and I'm hoping it gets better but if it doesn't it's not permanent and i know holding the new squishy is worth it in the end. I have anxiety too, I understand!
Soon to be mommy of 3! DS Grayson (3yrs) (Emergency Csec) DS Camden (1yr) (All natural Vbac) DD Isabella due 8/2/2014
I really wish people would just give me a hug and tell me they understand when I try to discuss my anxiety about this pregnancy/baby. Instead, everyone does the whole "you'll love being a parent!" thing or some other variation of how I should be over the top excited. I JUST WANT MY FEELINGS VALIDATED, not to be treated like I'm being silly or like I'm not living up to someone else's expectations.
I think this is very normal, at least normal for me. I was never overly excited with my first. I felt like other people were more excited about my pregnancy than I was. I'm not very excited this time either, but for completely different reasons than the first time around.
My mother is pretty religious, and something has come up in our family with regards to fertility treatments that she doesn't agree with. In her defense, she is keeping her mouth shut to the people who are actually doing it bc she knows it's not her business. And she isn't angry, exactly, but it's making her very, very sad. She keeps bringing it up to me, and telling me how hurt she is.
I am feed up. It's not about her. People are making hard decisions. NOBODY is happy here. I feel like she's being selfish. And I am about one more late night tear-fest from losing my shit.
ETA: my mother is a kind, loving, wonderful person. This is honestly one of the only times she's ever said or done anything that's really upset me, which makes this harder.
Started TTGP July 2013 ~ BFP! 11/21/13 ~ TEAM PINK!!!
**Josephine Aimee** born 5/21 at 29 weeks 2 days
You should know how great things were before you. Even so, they're better still today.
Now I can't think who I was before you ruined everything in the nicest way
I keep forgetting to take my prenatals. I was so sick last week, I couldn't take them at all. Then, I forgot to restart once feeling better. I remembered last night. Pg brain is setting in. I can't f'ing remember anything.
I can't remember either. When I do remember, it has been a while since I ate and can't take it because it will make me sick.
I was having a hard time remembering too. Sometimes I couldn't remember if I had taken it or not so I'd skip it. DH bought me an old lady pill keeper, and a bag of Haribo mini rainbow frogs. He put one vitamin and one frog in each day. I still can't remember if I took my prenatals, but I can remember if I ate a gummy frog
Married June 2012
DH: 31 Me: 30 dx PCOS 2001
Surprise BFP 12/8/13 EDD 8/14/14
Stroke: 3/15/14 dx expressive aphasia: had to relearn how to communicate
I volunteered to make some stuff for our churches Valentine's banquet tomorrow and now i'm thinking "what the heck was I thinking". I don't want to do it at all. My mom was supposed to help out, it's a recipe of hers i'm using, well now she has to go out of town. I just want to be lazy and not make anything or help out.
I understand DH wants to wait until the 2nd tri to tell people (besides our parents), but I am tired of being hidden away. I will be 12 weeks tomorrow. It is time already. I know we will get the verifi results next week, but I want to go out tonight and DH won't let me because it will be obvious to our friends when I am not drinking. Ugh. Let's just tell people already!
TTC Since January 2012
Me:37 DH:34 DX July 2013: Unexplained Infertility New DX Dec 2013: DOR
Yesterday I bought three different kinds of cereal, and before 4pm, every single box had been opened and sampled.
I was actually just finishing slurping up the last of my rice crispies when I heard the garage door opening and quickly ran to the sunk to dump my bowl so hubby wouldn't know I totally ruined my dinner on cereal.
Yesterday I bought three different kinds of cereal, and before 4pm, every single box had been opened and sampled.
I was actually just finishing slurping up the last of my rice crispies when I heard the garage door opening and quickly ran to the sunk to dump my bowl so hubby wouldn't know I totally ruined my dinner on cereal.
This is so me. I eat cereal almost every afternoon before H gets home. It's one of a few things I can eat and not get tired of or turn my nose up at it.
I only bump from my phone, and am entirely too lazy to dust off the laptop to change my siggy (if I even have one) and this bizarre profile pic of DD at a few weeks old.
I just started my job in November. This pregnancy was unplanned. I am already thinking that I want to SAH when baby comes, because I did with DS and I right now I can't imagine going back to work after mat leave. DH *just* got out of the military and is trying to figure out what he wants to do for a job. Soooo....totally smart that I want to SAH, right!?
I never have and never will sterilize bottles after each use. I boiled them the first time and just washed them like regular dishes after that. I think it's pointless. I also mixed formula with plain ol tap water.
I guess if for some reason these babies have some kind of immune issue I will if the dr says to, but only if that's the case.
I literally forget my age sometimes. Then I have to do the math from my birth year or some other life event (like I know I was this old when I had DS and he's 2.5, so...)
I automatically want to tell people I'm 30. Oh wait that was 2 years ago.
I love reading the 1st and 2nd trimester boards for all the drama. Seriously, there's a mermaid woman and all sorts of crazy going on. When I read it, I sometimes pretend the posters are some Real Housewives type character. Then it becomes a scene of table flipping and weave pulling over flu shots.
I have a Facebook friend that I give the side eye to every single day. She was going to move to Seattle at the beginning of year for no reason, never mind that she's never lived anywhere cold or where it's rained in her entire life. I 100% believe she's going to hate it. So they postponed the move until summer but she's already decided to jump on the Seahawks bandwagon. It was bad enough before the Super Bowl, but I was expecting it to end afterwards. She's still posting shit about Seattle and the Seahawks every.single.day. It annoys me more than it should. I can't wait for her to move to Seattle and realize that she hates the cold and the rain and slink back to California.
I love reading the 1st and 2nd trimester boards for all the drama. Seriously, there's a mermaid woman and all sorts of crazy going on. When I read it, I sometimes pretend the posters are some Real Housewives type character. Then it becomes a scene of table flipping and weave pulling over flu shots.
I need a hobby.
I told H the other night about mermaid woman. Told him she kept talking about fish and diving and it was hilarious. I was like how ironic her name is mermaid something all she seems to do is talk about fish and diving.
I really wish people would just give me a hug and tell me they understand when I try to discuss my anxiety about this pregnancy/baby.
I had an epic cry yesterday. I was upset that we may have made a mistake having another kid so soon and that DS will only have 2 years of being an only. Huge ugly cry. You are not alone.
I cried a bit when the Seahawks won the Super Bowl!
I slept through the last half of the Superbowl.
FFC: My DS puts his hand up in the air when he wants food in the car. It's super cute because all I can see is his hand, but I feel bad that I give him food enough in the car that he's learned this trick.
I love reading the 1st and 2nd trimester boards for all the drama. Seriously, there's a mermaid woman and all sorts of crazy going on. When I read it, I sometimes pretend the posters are some Real Housewives type character. Then it becomes a scene of table flipping and weave pulling over flu shots.
I need a hobby.
I told H the other night about mermaid woman. Told him she kept talking about fish and diving and it was hilarious. I was like how ironic her name is mermaid something all she seems to do is talk about fish and diving.
It's like a train wreck on those boards and I CANNOT LOOK AWAY!
Re: FFFC
I feel so much better, more normal now!
I'm trying to figure out a way to eat some chocolate pudding this morning without my boys figuring out what I'm eating.
(Most of the reason is I want all the pudding to myself...oh, and also it's not healthy to eat chocolate pudding before 9 in the morning...)
son#1 born 6/2010
son#2 born 4/2012
son#3 born 7/2014
DS Grayson (3yrs) (Emergency Csec)
DD Isabella due 8/2/2014
BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
I'm assuming you live someplace warm...
son#1 born 6/2010
son#2 born 4/2012
son#3 born 7/2014
BFP 12/9/13! Adeline Rose born 8/21/14
DS Grayson (3yrs) (Emergency Csec)
DD Isabella due 8/2/2014
Mom to S-07/22/10 & Q-12/14/11 L-8/23/14
I am feed up. It's not about her. People are making hard decisions. NOBODY is happy here. I feel like she's being selfish. And I am about one more late night tear-fest from losing my shit.
ETA: my mother is a kind, loving, wonderful person. This is honestly one of the only times she's ever said or done anything that's really upset me, which makes this harder.
4 rounds of clomid, 2 with IUI = BFN
I was actually just finishing slurping up the last of my rice crispies when I heard the garage door opening and quickly ran to the sunk to dump my bowl so hubby wouldn't know I totally ruined my dinner on cereal.
I automatically want to tell people I'm 30. Oh wait that was 2 years ago.
I slept through the last half of the Superbowl.
>>>---FSU--->
Baby Boy due October 2017