I am having a rough day. (AM)

AnyMax · January 2014

I am 5w6d today. This is how far along I was back in July when my OB sent me off to the ER with the promise that a rhogam shot would save my pregnancy. Which led to laying there alone for hours, unable to reach my husband at work, until a doctor had to come explain to me that my OB did not explain the purpose of the shot correctly, and that my betas had dropped dramatically.

I cannot stop replaying the day. I have myself so worked up and I have been on the verge of tears the moment I woke up this morning.

I know this pregnancy is not that pregnancy, but it does not stop my brain from going there. My betas got far higher this time than they ever did that time, my progesterone is through the roof now compared to then, and I had a great u/s on Friday. I go again this Friday to check for a heartbeat.

Despite all the logic in the world, and flying so high after the u/s on Friday, I cannot get myself to calm down.

MrsWallick · January 2014

I totally understand these days. So sorry AnyMax. You're doing a great job looking at all of the positives and all of the things that are going perfectly on track with this pregnancy. Keep reminding yourself of those things and remember our PgAL mantras. Big (((hugs)))

P.s. something that may make you laugh- my phone autocorrected "hugs" to "jugs" and I almost didn't catch it. Big (((jugs))) to you also AnyMax lol :-P

HorseLover11 · January 2014

Pgal brain is the worst!! You've got so many great positive signs to focus on and you're right - this is not that pregnancy. I thought I'd share what helps me that I actually need to do this minute to calm myself down too - if you can lie down (or sit and close your eyes) and just practice deep belly breaths for a few minutes. It's hard to get started but it really does help with anxiety. (((Hugs))) and I hope this week goes by quickly!

[Deleted User] · January 2014

I'm sorry you're having a tough day *hugs* It's impossible not to be nervous.

ksyknelvr73 · January 2014

Just sending ((HUGS)) b/c I think we unfortunately all have this jaded mindset now - and some days are much worse than others.

doglover31 · January 2014

Sending hugs your way. I hope the day gets better for you.

gingerkid9989 · January 2014

I'm sorry you are having a tough day! ((hugs)) I think @lindsayhilleary posted good advie. Try the mantras. They have been keeping me sane lately. You are in my thoughts today.

jlworden710 · January 2014

So many ((hugs)) love. I love all the positive things that you are able to focus on through this pregnacy. Those are amazing celebrations. I hope you're nervousness and feelings subside today. I can't wait to hear about your heartbeat update Friday!

Third&goal · January 2014

Just hugs. I know what you mean about the high of the ultrasound and then feeling like you come crashing back to the reality and remembering the history. You are doing a great job looking at the positives.

Squiddly · January 2014

((Hugs!)) I, too, struggled the day of this pregnancy that I lost the last one (5w4d), but I made it through the day one hour at a time. I'm glad you came the boards because hopefully the ladies here will help you! Today will be over before you know it!

meli1025 · January 2014

Big ((hugs)). I'm sorry you're having such a rough day and I hope you feel better soon. The PgAL journey is such and emotional roller coaster. I wish you peace and comfort throughout this time.

AnyMax · January 2014

Thank you all so much for the support. I did so well through the weekend that I feel blindsided by this today.

@Qfrump Yes, this is my last milestone.

@MrsWallick That did make me laugh, big jug hugs right back to you.

@lindsayhilleary Thank you, I try to tell myself those, but it is very helpful to read them today.

chknma · January 2014

More ((hugs)). Milestone days are hard. Please take extra good care of yourself and give yourself some room for all those tough PGAL feelings. Try to hold on to all the positives and know that we're all here. Wish we could speed the week up and get you to Friday!

samjen2010 · January 2014

Sending T&P your way that you will be able to be calm and peaceful today. (HUGS)

SandSunBliss · January 2014

Everyone else has already said all of the things I would say. So I just want to give you lots of hugs and love. I hope you are able to calm down a bit.

mandiroo · January 2014

I hope your day gets better! Many (((hugs))) sent your way!

PinkCamino · January 2014

Big huge hugs for you... I'm around if you want to talk - you know how to find me.

Allison7 · January 2014

(((Hugs))) milestone days are so hard. Just try to take it one day at a time. You have to be realistic - even when you have passed all of your milestones there are still good days and bad, but it does get a little easier as time goes on. Just take it one day at a time. Everyday (good or bad) I tell myself that today I am pregnant and I celebrate that victory. I wish you the best of luck!

megrae12 · January 2014

**Lurking**

((Hugs)) love. You are on my mind.

MollySm · January 2014

((hugs)) I found those early days to just be so terrifying. You'll get through them, but I know it's hard. It sounds like everything looks good so far! I hope Friday comes quickly so you can get some reassurance.

Skeemer · January 2014

***hugs*** >:D<

I'm so sorry you're having a rough day. It's hard to relax when PGAL brain is giving you a work out.

RedTwizzlers · January 2014

**lurking**

So many ((((hugs)))) sweetie.

katiebartton · January 2014

I'm so sorry you are having a rough day. Lots of ((hugs))

blackbird818 · January 2014

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Big squishy (((((HUGS))))) AM!!!!!

lsuhoneybadger · January 2014

Lots of (((hugs))) to you hon!

princezjk · January 2014

I am so sorry that today snuck up on you like this. But that seems to be the thing about PgAL that I hate the most, logic seems to have little effect on it. I wish I had some great words of wisdom to help get you through this day, but I do have (((hugs))) and lots of them ((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))). Oh and cake. I find cake helps most things!

I hope the rest of the day is gentler on you and you can check off another milestone before you know it!

LizBlue · January 2014

Big lurky hugs to you AM. I hope you get through today.

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Serenla · January 2014

((((Anymax))))) it's tough, the logical side of the brain can be swamped buy the pgal one. I hate to see that you're having a hard time with the milestone today. Here is a cute huh for you, I hope your furbaby gives you one later as well

Oh and here is a pic of Lincoln riding a bear, because why not?

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carlsonbaby2014 · January 2014

AM - sending you a ton of squishy ((((((((((hugs))))))))))

heather52904 · January 2014

((HUGS))

CaitNMatt · January 2014

So many ((hugs)) to you that today goes by quickly. When I was super nervous in the beginning I would tell myself that this is not the same pregnancy, therefore it is an entirely new situation and could very well have a happy ending. And also that it is OK to have bad days, to cry, and that no one will fault me for it! Lots of good thoughts sent your way!

nyg2042 · January 2014

((Hugs)) for you! I'm 6w1d today and this is the exact day we found out that my pregnancy was no viable last time. I can relate to the worry. We can be buddies on Friday - I go for my ultrasound as well!

Okiewife2011 · January 2014

I am so sorry for the anxiety today. I am sending all the big ((Hugs)) in the world your way. I had a moment like that when I hit that same point with this pregnancy. Try to keep breathing and remember that today you are pregnant. Can't wait to hear that things went well Friday after your next u/s!

porterlove525 · January 2014

Everyone already has had such great advice and support so I'm just offering more and more ((((hugs)))) for you.

Daisy1232 · January 2014

It's hard when you start going back to that place. Focus on all the things that are different this time. I can totally relate. Hugs

slensic · January 2014

Just sending lots of ((hugs))

ZAngel · January 2014

This process is so hard. I hope things get better for you soon! ((BIG HUGS))

buggirl72 · January 2014

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Sending you so many (((hugs))).

SuperKim13 · January 2014

Just chiming in with more (((HUGS))), Anymax. I found those mantras to be so helpful. We are all here for you!

MsAmandaPants · January 2014

Oh, love, big, big ((((hugs)))). I completely understand that this is just a really, really scary (and wonderful, but really scary) time. It bears repeating, though: this pregnancy is not your past pregnancies. Everything has just looked beautiful thus far. Deep breaths.

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Began trying for a baby January 2012
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BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014