update: I just can't even deal. I've never been so scared

kalemi · January 2014

Update: Went to pedi, did ekg. She said it wasn't horrible but wasn't great. Sent us straight to er. Did another ekg and sent to a specialist to look at. Said it was fine. Now we are waiting for a room up on pediatrics. They're going to monitor for sleep apnea and possibly go home tomorrow. Thanks everyone for the support. This has been a terrifying Gah, I feel so horrible and sick. I don't want to tell any of my friends or family because I don't want them to worry and constantly ask if DS is ok. Sorry to just post when I havent been as active lately.

DH accidentally woke DS this morning at 4am which is about 3 hours earlier than he gets up. So 6:30 rolled around and DS went down for a nap...so I took a nap too since I had only gotten 3 hours of sleep. I wake up on my own around 10:45 which was weird because he is a very loud sleeper and almost always wakes me while he is still sleeping. Usually DS naps maybe 2 pphours but I figured since he had been woken early he was making up for it and was in a deep sleep and that's why he wasn't making noises. 11 rolls around and I get this horrible, horrible feeling in my stomach. So I run to Christian's room and and creep over to his bed and watch him. He was laying on his side and neither his chest or back were rising. I started rubbing and patting his back while saying his name and he never moved...like at all. I grab him and lift him up so I could see his face and he doesn't move an inch. I start yelling his name and he was just completely and totally limp like a doll and very pale. After about 30 seconds I'm in full panic mode screaming and crying and am dialing 911. He takes a HUGE gasp of air and starts crying.

There's no point to this. I feel like I'll never be able to leave him alone in his room again. I just keep crying every time I look at my baby. I have never been so scared in my entire life.

EDIT: I did speak to his pedi. We already had an appointment scheduled for early tomorrow morning. She said I could bring him in if I wanted and then do our appointment tomorrow but since he is smiling and happy now we will wait for the appointment. He has had RSV and bronchiolitis these past few weeks as well. If it happens again I will take him straight to the ER. I couldnt take him to the pedi now anyways because we sold my car and dh in 30minutes away on post with our vehicle and they wont let him off. Thanks everyone. I've already set up his pnp next to my side of the bed and he wont be leaving my sight.

[Deleted User] · January 2014

Omg did anyone come and check him out? That's really scary. I'd be a mess too.

MagickalNarwhal · January 2014

Oh my goodness how absolutely terrifying!!!! I think that's pretty much everyone's worst nightmare. I'm so sorry!!

chiboo9 · January 2014

Ugh, that is terrifying. I'm so sorry that happened!

I can't even imagine...

Have you called the pedi? Maybe see what that was about?

blairwitch · January 2014

How terrifying! DD1 scared me a few times too. Enough that I touched her, felt no movement, and pulled her out of bed as fast as I could. She would inhale loudly and give me a dirty look for waking her.

jennipalmer · January 2014

I would be scared to leave my Lo too. I hope doctor can tell you what happened

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kalemi · January 2014

He has an appointment with his pedi tomorrow morning. He has had RSV and bronchiolitis while treating to prevent pneumonia these past 2 weeks so we've had to postpone shots. He still isnt 100% better. I called her and she called me back but since he is smiling and happy I figured we would just wait for his appointment in the morning.

redrocksmama · January 2014

Holy shit. That is so scary. Glad he's ok. Have lots of cuddles with him today!

atlvol · January 2014

So scary! I'm glad he is okay. I would definitely go get him checked out, if you haven't already.

RainbowHope · January 2014

So scary! I hope they get to the bottom of this!

Married071709 · January 2014

That made my heart stop. I'm glad he is doing ok. I would have freaked the f out.

pgermain11 · January 2014

Wow. I am so sorry you went thru that! That is absolutely terrifying! Have you spoken to the doctor already? Keeping you in my thoughts!!

geoffandjen728 · January 2014

So so scary! Hugs and glad he's ok now... Hope it never ever happens again!!

giraffeluvspi · January 2014

OMG! I don't blame you for being freaked out. I would have a reall tough time sleeping while he slept, ugh. Hopefully the pedi will have some answers tomorrow. I would invest in an Angelcare monitor for sure!

jackson290721 · January 2014

Oh no. I'm so sorry. I would have panicked.

Carrie3102 · January 2014

Hold him and if you never want ot put him down again, that's ok too... I'm sorry mama... I'm glad he's ok.

bumpuser8571475 · January 2014

Omg so glad he turned out to be ok! I also suggest getting an angelcare monitor.

fabk · January 2014

How scary!! I hope everything works out well at his appt!

Clyde013 · January 2014

Omgosh I'm in a panic just reading this. I'm glad he's happy now and I hope it never happens again.

Hilaboo86 · January 2014

Omg my nerves are shot for you. Keep a good eye on that beautiful baby tonight!! Good luck momma!! Fx hubby lets you rest at some point!

DenverBride2005 · January 2014

How scary, I am so sorry that happened!! I am so glad your mama instinct woke you up! I also agree about getting an Angelcare monitor! I hope his dr. visit goes well!

roashem2008 · January 2014

I'm so sorry you had to go through that! I am glad he is okay now.

Karebear6978 · January 2014

Im so sorry.... that is every ones biggest fear and just reading ur post made my heart drop

lancomechica · January 2014

Huge hugs. I'm crying just reading this.
I would be a wreck.

RoRo10733 · January 2014

Oh my. I too had tears reading this. I'm so sorry it happened but so happy to hear that your baby is doing okay now.

Nickel726 · January 2014

I'm glad your sweet LO is okay. Definitely a scary experience.

kalemi · January 2014

Thank you all. Hes down for his second nap. He NEVER lets me cuddle him and gets fussy if I hold him too long after he falls asleep. But he is curled up against me with his right hand against my cheek. Thankfully, dh called me and he will be home in an hour. My nerves are shot. I keep going back to "what if I hadnt checked on him?"

We always said we would never get a monitor since the walls in our apartment are so thin and his room is next to ours. But as soon as dh gets home, I will be going out to purchase one.

UTQT09 · January 2014

Terrifying! Glad he is ok!!!

karen0477 · January 2014

Omg, I'm so scared for you, could hear the panic.....hopefully his pedi will be able to find an answer for you.

je2161 · January 2014

How terrifying! I also would recommend the angelcare monitor. Thinking of you!!

emandia · January 2014

OMG. I have a huge pit in my stomach reading this. I just can't imagine. OMG. That is terrifying.

Lelo2006 · January 2014

So glad everything is ok! I'm sorry you went though that

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rondokye · January 2014

I know that I would be in tears too if that had happened to me! Thank goodness he is ok.

coco2787 · January 2014

Oh gosh, big hugs! I teared up just reading this, that must have been so awful. I hope everything checks out at the pedi and I'm glad he's okay. >:D<

JTA2426 · January 2014

So scary! I would want an apnea monitor for sure, something like the angel care or snuza. Any false alarms would be worth it for me after a scare like that. Every mom's worst nightmare.

EVA116 · January 2014

What did your pedi say? Anything about why she thinks it might have happened? I am so glad he is okay! How scary!

PrimRoseMama · January 2014

What a horrifying ordeal. I'm glad he's alright but holy heart attack!

( I'm so sorry!

EagleWife · January 2014

What a horrible scare! I'm so glad you listened to your gut. I'm a firm believer of "if you have a bad feeling, it's there for a reason" - Thank God your little one is okay. Hugs.