I am slowly going crazy

Re: I am slowly going crazy

• mcgeeva member

  January 2014

  Blah.. How many days in are you?? Hoepfully the rest of the time goes fast. I think everyone hates the 2ww and I have never been good about not testing. It's like you need to be in a vacation to be busy enough to not think about it.

  Married: 5/09 ~ TTC Since: 10/10 ~ PCOS ~ Progesterone from 10/10 - 2/11 ~ HSG on 3/18 - Clear ~ Started Metformin 1000mg & Clomid 50mg 2/11 ~ Metformin upped to 1500mg 4/6 ~ 6/7 Now going to SG and put on Clomid, Ovidrel, Gonal F, Prometrium, Estrace ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP!!!!!! March 6th our little man was born. 

  6/17/13 - Ovidrel, Follistim, Prometrium ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP! March 17th our St. Pattys day baby arrived

  10/29/17 - Started process for IVF, got pregnant & miscarried a 2nd time since summer. 2/22 started stims - Menopur, Gonal F, Cetrotide - retrieval 3/6 - , PIO, estrace 3xday - FET 4/18 = Beta 1: 616; Beta 2: 1342 = BFP 

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• PennyLane26 member

  January 2014

  Bake something!! If you don't have time to do it right this minute, spend your free time googling a good recipe - that always gives me something to do! FX this wait goes by super fast for you kaf!

  dx: MFI 0% morph & low count. Occasional Anovulatory cycles.
  

  
  

  TTC #1

  • IVF #1 4/21/12 - c/p
    
  • IVF#2 8/1/12 - BFP! DD arrived 4/10/2013.

  
  

  
  

  
  

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  • FET #1 3/18/14 - BFP! DS arrived 11/19/2014.

  
  

  
  

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• ccam member

  January 2014

  Waiting is the worst!!  I always try to start something, like a project or a new book that will help me keep my mind off of it.... kind of

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  Trying for #1 since May 2010   l   DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011

  IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks

  November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

  Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

  1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12    **TEAM GREEN!**

  Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

  

  Trying for #2

  FET #1 - October '13 - c/p   l   FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled    l   FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN

  ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

  Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14     **TEAM GREEN!**

  Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14

   

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• TJ1979 member

  January 2014

  How much longer are you waiting? Your 2ww is killing me too!

  TTC with PCOS since November 2009
  

  IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c
  IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
  IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
  beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
  beta #2 11/28 = 2055
  Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
  Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
   
  

  
  

  

  

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• kaf7 member

  January 2014

  Beta is Monday. I am trying to hold off poas until Sunday. Glad to know I'm not alone in my own 2ww angst!! You guys are the best

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• JBDamonM member

  January 2014

  The 2WW is the WORST. I seriously lost my shit during mine. It was ugly. I dread having to do it again at some point.

  I reccomend Gone Girl. If you have not read it yet - it's a fantastic book. IT got me through my IVF!

  
  

  "I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I"m still looking up."
  TTC #1 since August 2011 MFI Diagnosis - April 2012
  IVF #1 - July 2012 - Stims start 7/2, ER 7/12, 20 retrieved, 16 mature, 13 fertilized!
  ET - 7/17 - 1 blast transferred. Beta - 7/26 273, Beta 2 7/30 - 1143. Beta 3 8/6 - 11,597
  12/25 - Santa tells us "IT'S A GIRL!" EDD - April 4th
  
  Our Little Easter Bunny has arrived!

  Molly Mildred born 03/31/13
  

  
  

  TTC A Sibling....... FET #1 11/14/14, Transferred one beautiful blast

  Remaining four frosties arrested due to "embryologist error"
  

  Plllllleasssee stick little icicle.....Beta 11/23...BFN

  Starting ALL over with a fresh IVF cycle

  Stims start 11/28/14, ER December 10th, 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature, only 4 fertilized 

  1 Blast Transferred on December 15th..... Beta Christmas Eve... Please Santa, bring me a baby!

  Beta #1 345.....Beta #2....750/ First U/S 1/13/15/HB 131....EDD 9/2/2015

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• mdiblasi10 member

  January 2014

  Waiting stinks!! I hope the time flies by and Sunday brings good news!

  Dx: Unexplained Infertility

  
  

  TTC #1 

  IUI's #1 - #3 Clomid = BFN's, IUI #4 Follistim = BFP

  Grayson arrived via emergency c-section on 7/28/12!
  
  TTC #2 

  IUI's #1 - #4 Follistim = BFN's

  IVF #1 w/ ICSI + PGS: Lupron/Follistim/Menopur

  ER 4/13 - 19R, 13F, 4 PGS tested embryos, 1 normal

  5/14 FET: BFP. Beta #1: 123, Beta #2: 327, Beta #3: 854

  Cora arrived 1/23/15 via RCS!

  
  

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• mcgeeva member

  January 2014

  Your almost there!!!!! Looks like you made it pretty far Hang in there!

  Married: 5/09 ~ TTC Since: 10/10 ~ PCOS ~ Progesterone from 10/10 - 2/11 ~ HSG on 3/18 - Clear ~ Started Metformin 1000mg & Clomid 50mg 2/11 ~ Metformin upped to 1500mg 4/6 ~ 6/7 Now going to SG and put on Clomid, Ovidrel, Gonal F, Prometrium, Estrace ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP!!!!!! March 6th our little man was born. 

  6/17/13 - Ovidrel, Follistim, Prometrium ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP! March 17th our St. Pattys day baby arrived

  10/29/17 - Started process for IVF, got pregnant & miscarried a 2nd time since summer. 2/22 started stims - Menopur, Gonal F, Cetrotide - retrieval 3/6 - , PIO, estrace 3xday - FET 4/18 = Beta 1: 616; Beta 2: 1342 = BFP 

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• Mnerani member

  January 2014

  It's the PITS! I was talking to a newly pregnant friend on Skype the other night and she didn't test until she was late on her period by 6 days! And was really innocently like "I didn't really see the point in knowing any earlier than that." Meanwhile, I'm thinking how I POAS 6 days post ovulation, just because the tests are burning a hole in my bathroom drawer.

  
  

  Sunday seems like a long time from now...because it kind of is. That's not helpful, just sayin that I feel your pain

  DH and I are Americans living an adventure in Kenya since 2011

  DX: PCOS (annovulatory)

  Feb 2012: IUI #1 w/ only 1M sperm and a single follie = BFP! 

  Nov 2012: Little buddy born in Kenya

  Nov 2013: Trying for a second, still w PCOS

  Dec 2013: IUI cycle canceled for non-response

  Jan 2014: Break cycle BFP!

  
  

  

  
  

  
  

  

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• queenbone member

  January 2014

  Baking is a great idea. I would also try to kill time catching up on baby albums. Although that can backfire and make you more nostalgic for a baby. Hope time starts to fly for you!
  

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• Mrs.AmyDylan member

  January 2014

  Oh Kaf! I agree with TJ, your 2ww is killing me! 

  
  

  I couldn't POAS, I could only get the news once. Good for you for not having sticks in the house or office. Sunday sounds like a good plan so you don't get news while at the office.

  TTC Since 3/2010
  Me-36, Unexplained Infertility, DH-35, all clear
  Clomid 50mg 12/2011 = BFN
  Clomid 100mg 1/2012 = BFN, with Cyst
  IVF #1 Lupron/Menopur/Gonal-f/HCG Trigger
  ER 4/19/12 = 11 retrieved, 6 fertilized,
  ET 4/22/12 = 2 transfered (day 3), remaining 3 weren't good enough to freeze
  Beta 5/3 = BFP, 87 Beta #2 5/7 560.9 Beta #3 5/9 1376.5 First u/s One Baby, 125bpm!
  Second u/s, 176bmp! Kicked over to the OB by the RE at 8w. Team Green!! 

  Baby girl J arrived two weeks early! Born into water, med-free. Hooray for Team Pink!

  
  

  TTC #2 - back to the RE, treatment started 12/2014. 
  
  
  

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• kaf7 member

  January 2014

  We'll and the other thing is that I am now getting my beta done across the country from where my RE is and even though it says to fax them the results on the form I worry that they won't do that or they won't agree to use the out of province requisition so that's partly why I want to poas. I don't want to get caught up worrying about having tested too early and that leading to a negative test or conversely testing and catching a chemical...

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• jmorta04 member

  January 2014

  2ww are brutal! I held out for mine and didn't POAS but it was so hard. Fingers, toes and eyes crossed for you! Definitely agree with the reading and the baking. My house was spotless during my 2ww!

  Married July 2011; TTC since April 2011; DX: MFI
  IVF #1 in August 2012: BFP!
  L was born on May 5, 2013, 8lb. 6oz.
  PAIF/SAIF welcome!

  Our Project Make A Baby

  

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• carrera317 member

  January 2014

  Ugh It really is a dreaded 2ww. I usually go to a few movies to help pass the time. You'd think with all this science involved in making our babies that somehow they'd be able to speed up the 2ww!!! Good luck keeping busy!

  Me = 36 with PCOS and 1 tube removed for a cyst and adhesions

  DH = 35 with low morphology

  
  

  April '09 IVF (antagonist protocol) = 5R5M, none fertilized, cancelled at ET

  May/June '09 IVF/ICSI = 6R6M6F, 2ET on 6.18.09, 1 frostie, Beta on

  6.30.09 = 51 OMG!! Beta #2 = 167 Beta #3 = 2630!!!!! An uneventful pregnancy. 

  3.16.10 a healthy beautiful miracle boy born via unscheduled c-section

  
  

  Now on the quest for another, so our dear son is not alone.

  
  

  May/June '12 IVF/ICSI (antagonist protocol) =10R9M9F, 1ET = BFN, 2 frosties

  Aug '12 FET, 1ET= beta hell, 2 rounds of methotrexate, 4 months later Hcg < 2 
  

  Jan/Feb '13 IVF/ICSI (long lupron protocol) = 18R18M18F, 1ET = BFN, 10 frosties
  

  Apr '13 FET w 2ET (one from '09 and one newer) = (strep throat during 2ww) biochemical = BFN

  June '13 FET w 2ET = 1 baby boy lost at 10w, D/E with karyotyping, loss due to monosomy 21.

  Karyotyping of me and DH negative for a balance translocation.

  Dec '13 FET w 2ET, BFP!!!! 12/26 beta #1 10dp5dt = 781, beta 2 12dpt= 2234 could this be real?!

    Not giving up yet.

  5 frosties on ice.

  
  

  Truly realizing how much of a miracle my son is and praying this will be a sibling for him.

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• Mayzie15 member

  January 2014

  Ugh nothing worst than the two week wait! On a suggestion from a fellow IVFer in their 2ww I bought a puzzle and that was my saving grace. Fx the wait picks up for you

  Me 38 MH 41 - TTC since June 2010 - dx with Severe MFI. Straight to IVF with ICSI. IVF #1 - ER 06/13/12 - 9 Eggs Retrieved - 4 ICSI'd - only 2 fert. 06/15/12 - 2DT - 3 cell & 6 cell with fragmentation. Beta 06/29/12 - IVF #1 = BFN. 07/20/12 - WTF Appt -Told by our RE to quit IVF. Second Opinion from RE is good. IVF#2 - November 2012. Estradiol Pills Started 11/6. Stims start 11/16. ER 11/26 - 7 eggs retrieved - all mature. 4 fertilized with ICSI. ET 11/29 Transferred 3 embryos. Beta is 12/10. 1st Beta 81 2nd Beta 160 and 3rd beta 360!!! First U/S 12/21/12 - We saw one beautiful gest. sac. 2nd U/S is 01/04/2013 - H/B 183 02/05/13 - NT Scan - everything looks good and IT'S A BOY!  Aiden was born 08/20/2013.
  

  IVF #2 is in progress.  ER was 05/12/14 - 11 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized with ICSI.  ET was 05/15/14 - we transferred 3 embryos as we did on the cycle my son was conceived.  We were able to freeze 3 embryos. Beta is scheduled for 05/26/14.  1st beta - 111.  2nd beta - 159 didn't double 3rd beta Friday 5/30) - not a lot of hope left. Beta # 3 is 247 - probably ectopic.  Beta # 4 is 813 - possibly vanishing multiple sydrome?  06/05/14 - 5w4days - first U/S - we see a gestational sac and yolk - still have hope!  06/17/14 - 7w1day - U/S and saw and heard the heartbeat - Finally!  06/27/14 - 8w4days - Baby and heartbeat look and sound great   EDD 02/01/14 and It's a boy!
  

  
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