I finally got up the courage to post my goodbye. 
On Wed I went to my 24w appt and my dr was unable to find my son's heartbeat.  Within 10 minutes I was getting a u/s, where we discovered he was gone.  It looks like he passed within the last 2 weeks. 
Everything had been fine.  Perfect.  
On Friday I had a D&E.  My milk started coming in today.  

  otherwise physically I'm doing well. 
Emotionally I'm a mess.  This is my 3rd loss (previously had a missed m/c at 13w and a CP).  I'm not sure I can do this again. 
I just keep loving my son and mourning that he might never be a big brother.  
We named him Timothy.  
                 
                BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011 
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy.  Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)    
                              
 We love and miss you Timothy 
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014
Re: Goodbye
Friends for 17 years. Married 10. TTC since Jan 2009.
2013: IVF#3/FET#4 Elisabeth CJ born April 30, 2014
Cerclage, P17, and 3 months of bed rest brought us our Rainbow.
Dum spiro, spero.
Me: 31, DH: 34, Married 5/29/05
BFP #1: 6/22/10, EDD 3/6/11, DS born 2/25/11 @ 38w5d
BFP #2: 7/27/13, EDD 4/9/14, CP 8/3/13
BFP #3: 8/31/13, EDD 5/10/13, DD born med-free 5/9/14 @ 39w6d
Nora - 10.26.12
Henry - 5.9.14
EDD #2 5.4.17
Mommy to my sweet boy, JG, born May 15, 2014
Baby #2 due 4/26/16!
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
BFP#2 2.5.11 (EDD 10.15.11) DS born 9.28.11
BFP#4 8.27.13 (EDD 5.6.14) DD born 4.23.14
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