Gabriel's Blanket

diamante1181 · January 2014

Yesterday I went to my mom's house, cause I was in the neighborhood. When I got there, she gave me the blanket she had made for Gabriel; I had already the one she made for Sophie already. My mom was finishing up the blanket the week before I went to the hospital. It was so hard to see the blanket I would never wrap my son in. It is so hard thinking that they would be here next month if nothing would have happened. DH and I are so alone in this. They are the most beautiful blankets, and they are just put away, never to be used. I feel so bad in retrospect, because I remember my mom was making them 'infant' sized, but I told her to make them bigger because I wanted them to use their blankets for a long time (at least through the toddler and otherwise "little kid" phases), and now no one will use them. Why does the emptiness never go away? I have not been having a good week emotionally, and have just been throwing myself into work, but I also don't want to avoid my feelings. So desperately do I just want to heal, and I'm afraid I never will. I miss my babies and love them so much.

kflynn81 · January 2014

I'm so sorry

My MIL makes baby blankets for everyone so I know, I just know, she was making one for Jack. She swears she wasn't.... That hurts too.

Tons of ((hugs))

jonahsma · January 2014

I'm sorry ... ((hugs))

VyD81 · January 2014

I'm sorry. I know my mom was knitting a blanket for Raynor and I don't know what she did to it, she hasn't bring it up

Poisonives · January 2014

Im sorry for your loss.

We named our son Gabriel too. I assure you the emptiness will go away and will be replaced by hope. Just keep the faith. *hugs*