I posted a couple days ago about needing a place to go for the negative feelings we might be having during our pregnancies.. Just wanted to check-in..
How is everyone doing?!
*if you want a special name for this check in (I will do every Wed) just let me know what you think it should be called below with your update =]
Re: Support Check In
Eating is still a daily struggle and is only getting harder as the days pass. I still hate the way I look and am hoping I can just sit at this weight for a little while until I can accept it and move forward. I am trying not to lose any more weight, but thats not guaranteed it wont happen.
I see my OB on Friday and am looking forward to anti depressants to hopefully bring me back to myself.
Xoxoxo
Thanks for this!
I feel horribly moody this time around, especially my anxiety. Poor DH gets the brunt of both my temper and my anxiety. I think he's looking forward to next week when I'm away for a night for a work, even though he has to deal with C by himself. My catastrophic thinking is in over drive and all I can picture all the time is DH dying or something happening to my parents. Oddly I'm not at all worried about C and the baby, it's all focused on grownup stuff. Work sucks, which doesn't help and is something else for me to worry about. I talk to DH as much as I can, but I'm beginning to think I might want to ask for a therapy referral. It's just so hard to find one with evening hours, and I can't afford to miss more work time-wise...sucks.
I will get through this, I've done it before, and the shining light at the end of the tunnel is being able to become a SAHM. I'm so done with this job. I keep telling myself that work will be over soon and that DH will be fine. Some days that works better than others. I am trying to do a little meditation, we'll see if I can keep it up.
Good luck @SaraJoy00!
Married DH 7/30/11
CSC arrived 5/7/12
CHC arrived 6/2/14
I'm off all my meds. Except the only one I wouldn't survive without and weaning off that too. (Still safe but my choice) I feel like people just don't understand. So yes I may be a lit more emotional and unstable but I'm pregnant!! I think I'm doing great considering what I'm like with no meds at all.
I try to only ponder on what I have control over. SO was afraid to tell me my car was involved in a hit and run. Surprised him when I literally laughed it off. "Well maybe now I can get the part I damaged fixed" "at least I was not in the car"
But if he hurts my feelings and makes me cry, he ignores me until I say something or 30 min of complete science. Then feels the need to justify why he made me cry. I'm just so sick of it. How about just an I'm sorry? Without attitude ?
I would for sure check into a therapist if you can! It is definitely helpful in the since you can get everything off of your mind and leave it at that office rather than talking with your husband and having it be constantly around ya know? I hope things get better for you!!
DD 3/15/12
DD 6/3/14
#4 Due 10/26/18!
I've been so moody and anxiety prone lately. My bf is so understanding but I feel horrible that I'm such a beezy all. the. time. I am not being the best worker and I'm so ready to be done with work.
I had a full on breakdown in the Ikea parking lot tonight. I'm hoping I can figure out a way to rise above this soon
I am going to put this up every Wed!!! =] so we will always have a place to come for the week! =]
I hope your neck starts feeling better! You might feel a little sore after the massage because it moves tissues and liquids around, but hopefully the initial pain is gone!! Hopefully you just slept on it funny!! But I can understand how that would make you feel emotional when you are limited on what you can do because of it!!
Yeah, I used my eating disorder before as a way to numb the pain of my past and keep control of current situations. Now I have no coping mechanism to numb any pain I feel and have no control over my body so my mind is just completely freaking out. Thank you for your sweet words!! xoxoxo
I am sorry you ended up having a break down, but i am glad you were able to release those feelings you were having! Sometimes all we need is a really good cry and a long sleep to help us get our head back on the right track. I hope you start feeling better soon and I am glad you have a supportive bf that is able to stick by you during your hard times!!! ((Hugs))
As far as my weight, she said even though I lost I am still at a good weight at not to worry about it. Kind of triggering cuz now I dont want to gain weight and am going to try not to unless its the baby doing it and not me. I also hate the fact that I could potentially weigh less and still be okay weight wise which makes me regret all the weight I have had to gain =[ ughhhh.
DD 3/15/12
DD 6/3/14
#4 Due 10/26/18!