My orthopedic doctor is starting me on a new medication today and it is pregnacny class d. I have had a ton of pregnancy systems lately that I am certain stem from adjusting to bcp (but its been 5 months) but it still makes me nervous to take with poas. I feel confident it will be negative but I know I am probably still going to cry when it is. Dh has made it very clear he doesn't want another child at least for several years. But sil just had a baby and bff is pregnant, (our dds are 5 weeks apart). My baby fever is really getting to me. Today is the 2 year anniversary of when we last saw Harrison alive on ultrasound. This I guess was more a rant than fffc.
FFFC: I try not to cuss in front of DS but I totally do way more often than I'd like to admit I'm afraid he's going to be that kid who gets in trouble for teaching the F bomb to the other kids. And it's not like I would be able to blame an SO or even his dad ::hangs head in shame::
FFFC: I try not to cuss in front of DS but I totally do way more often than I'd like to admit I'm afraid he's going to be that kid who gets in trouble for teaching the F bomb to the other kids. And it's not like I would be able to blame an SO or even his dad ::hangs head in shame::
The other day, I said oh sh*t in front of dd. I hit her head on the car. I was apologizing and telling her not to use that word. She looked at me so seriously and said, Momma, I say oh nuts. I assume she learned that from her older cousin.
Why on earth are people my age still taking pictures of themselves with that stupid duck face????? My confession: I instantly think less of such people, and even if you are a good friend I will not "like" your FB baby bump selfie if you have that face on.
This literally just happened on my feed, could we know the same person?!
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.
My orthopedic doctor is starting me on a new medication today and it is pregnacny class d. I have had a ton of pregnancy systems lately that I am certain stem from adjusting to bcp (but its been 5 months) but it still makes me nervous to take with poas. I feel confident it will be negative but I know I am probably still going to cry when it is. Dh has made it very clear he doesn't want another child at least for several years. But sil just had a baby and bff is pregnant, (our dds are 5 weeks apart). My baby fever is really getting to me. Today is the 2 year anniversary of when we last saw Harrison alive on ultrasound. This I guess was more a rant than fffc.
My orthopedic doctor is starting me on a new medication today and it is pregnacny class d. I have had a ton of pregnancy systems lately that I am certain stem from adjusting to bcp (but its been 5 months) but it still makes me nervous to take with poas. I feel confident it will be negative but I know I am probably still going to cry when it is. Dh has made it very clear he doesn't want another child at least for several years. But sil just had a baby and bff is pregnant, (our dds are 5 weeks apart). My baby fever is really getting to me. Today is the 2 year anniversary of when we last saw Harrison alive on ultrasound. This I guess was more a rant than fffc.
Hugs to you! I am so sorry for your loss. Today is my bday and 3 years since I found out I was pregnant with Grace. It was snowing and a wonderful day of planning how to tell dh. I am sorry again for the loss of Harrison.
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.
FFFC: I try not to cuss in front of DS but I totally do way more often than I'd like to admit I'm afraid he's going to be that kid who gets in trouble for teaching the F bomb to the other kids. And it's not like I would be able to blame an SO or even his dad ::hangs head in shame::
I am also admittedly terrible at this. My husband always says, "Words are just words, people give them power when the assign meaning and context to them." Which is a load of crap, lol. I still don't want my 2 yo saying a 'dirty' word. I try to curb it, and I know as DS gets older I will do a better job. My parents swore in front of us all the time, in a variety of contexts. Somehow it was understood that they were grown up words and we weren't allowed to say them. lol So I guess that's what I will tell DS if he ever says them. Just like there are privileges (like voting, driving, and drinking) that are only for grown-ups, some words are, too. We'll see how that shakes out...lol...
ETA: And I never swear in front of other people's children. I guess I should just pretend DS is someone else's haha.
I curse waaaaay too much in front of DS. I have struggled a lot with my temper since having him. He is so high needs, I get overwhelmed daily.
More confessions, because I need to purge. In relation to the SPD thread, I wonder if that is what's going on with my kid. I know it's too early and quite possibly my paranoia running rampant. I also worry he could be on the autism spectrum. Again maybe I am totally off base, much too early to say.
DH and I got into an argument this week about sex and he said something to the effect of "he could be getting it somewhere else." I was blind sided and hurt because I've made a strong effort to put out once a week despite lack of interest.
Oh I also started stuffing my bra on one side because DS only nurses on one side and I am lopsided as hell.
I curse waaaaay too much in front of DS. I have struggled a lot with my temper since having him. He is so high needs, I get overwhelmed daily.
More confessions, because I need to purge. In relation to the SPD thread, I wonder if that is what's going on with my kid. I know it's too early and quite possibly my paranoia running rampant. I also worry he could be on the autism spectrum. Again maybe I am totally off base, much too early to say.
DH and I got into an argument this week about sex and he said something to the effect of "he could be getting it somewhere else." I was blind sided and hurt because I've made a strong effort to put out once a week despite lack of interest.
Oh I also started stuffing my bra on one side because DS only nurses on one side and I am lopsided as hell.
Please pass all the booze.
I would be super hurt by that! I'm sorry! Sending you virtual booze and hugs!
My FFFC,... My DS and I moved in with my mom about a month ago. Though I know in my heart that a divorce is the ultimate ending in all of this, I still love my husband through all the lies that I have been blindsided with the past 4 years of our marriage. I question whether or not I'm taking the coward's way out by ending everything. I know that if DS wasn't in the picture, I would have been gone a long time ago. I'm just torn between finding a real male role model for him or providing a "normal" family setting for him.
Just from what you said about not being able to trust... That is a huge deal for me in a marriage. And sometimes a good family for children are parents that are happy being apart as opposed to being miserable together. While you need to make good choices for your child, you can't make anyone happy unless you are happy first. And if you are the only one trying to make a relationship work while your H is continually breaking your trust, it's not worth your time or your heart. I think the part of you that knows you are making a good decision just needs to be worn a bit longer for you to see past the heartbreak. You have nothing but time right now. Just give yourself the space you need, do some healing and make your decision when your emotions have had some time to settle down. And one small tip: when I left one of my exs, I had to wear an elastic band around my wrist for a few weeks. Every time I questioned if I was making a bad decision, I would "snap" myself out of it by snapping the elastic. It really helped me get past the doubt.
I have EP since the day DD was born and I am done. I want my freedom back and am going to reduce pumping ASAP. We have been giving her one formula bottle a day for a few weeks to make sure she takes it fine and it doesn't bother her. Now, i'm done, selfish yes.....but I want to get to work on time and have my free time as actual free time not hooked up to a machine. FYI, she will be 1 on Feb 14 but I can't stick it out, especially since i'm not sure DD gets enough solids to go cold turkey WCM at a year.
I feel guilty but I think moving on is what is best for my sanity/stress levels. We have a 21mth old foster son and 11 mothe old DD, I need what little free time I can get.
I could never EP. Have no guilt mama!
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.
I, on total accident, ran across Cadbury Mini Eggs yesterday at Target and bought two bags. The first one is completely gone and Im quickly working my way through the second one. Looks like I will be heading back to Target tomorrow to restock. (They are seasonal and there is an alarm in my head that keeps telling me I need to enjoy them while I can) The good news is I am doing the facebook 30 day plank challage with my Aunt who lives in Scotland (Im in VA) We skype everyday and remind each other to do it. Instead of just once a day we go for at least 3 times. She informed me this morning that she ate an entire chocolate bar so I dont feel quite as bad about the mini eggs. We keep joking that we are going to look like super models by the end of the month even though we have zero cardio going and besides chasing around a running kid planking is all I am doing.
I, on total accident, ran across Cadbury Mini Eggs yesterday at Target and bought two bags. The first one is completely gone and Im quickly working my way through the second one. Looks like I will be heading back to Target tomorrow to restock. (They are seasonal and there is an alarm in my head that keeps telling me I need to enjoy them while I can) The good news is I am doing the facebook 30 day plank challage with my Aunt who lives in Scotland (Im in VA) We skype everyday and remind each other to do it. Instead of just once a day we go for at least 3 times. She informed me this morning that she ate an entire chocolate bar so I dont feel quite as bad about the mini eggs. We keep joking that we are going to look like super models by the end of the month even though we have zero cardio going and besides chasing around a running kid planking is all I am doing.
Omg!!! Target has Cadbury eggs?!?!? I love those eggs!!!! I see +2lbs to my figure in my near future. Lol
My FFFC, DH has been a total duche to me for months. He is awesome with our girls, totally helps out around the house, but treats me like crap, more like a roommate he is tolerating then his wife he's supposed to love. He cancelled a big date we had planned last night and was an Ahole about it. So, I am upstairs bumping in bed at 9am because it's way better then having to go down and deal with him.
That sucks! What's his deal? No spouse or partner wants to be treated like just a roommate. I think you're awesome, so I really want to smack him for you.
Re: FFFC
This literally just happened on my feed, could we know the same person?!
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.
Hugs to you! I am so sorry for your loss. Today is my bday and 3 years since I found out I was pregnant with Grace. It was snowing and a wonderful day of planning how to tell dh. I am sorry again for the loss of Harrison.
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.
More confessions, because I need to purge. In relation to the SPD thread, I wonder if that is what's going on with my kid. I know it's too early and quite possibly my paranoia running rampant. I also worry he could be on the autism spectrum. Again maybe I am totally off base, much too early to say.
DH and I got into an argument this week about sex and he said something to the effect of "he could be getting it somewhere else." I was blind sided and hurt because I've made a strong effort to put out once a week despite lack of interest.
Oh I also started stuffing my bra on one side because DS only nurses on one side and I am lopsided as hell.
Please pass all the booze.
I like cookies.
I would be super hurt by that! I'm sorry! Sending you virtual booze and hugs!
Just from what you said about not being able to trust... That is a huge deal for me in a marriage. And sometimes a good family for children are parents that are happy being apart as opposed to being miserable together. While you need to make good choices for your child, you can't make anyone happy unless you are happy first. And if you are the only one trying to make a relationship work while your H is continually breaking your trust, it's not worth your time or your heart. I think the part of you that knows you are making a good decision just needs to be worn a bit longer for you to see past the heartbreak. You have nothing but time right now. Just give yourself the space you need, do some healing and make your decision when your emotions have had some time to settle down. And one small tip: when I left one of my exs, I had to wear an elastic band around my wrist for a few weeks. Every time I questioned if I was making a bad decision, I would "snap" myself out of it by snapping the elastic. It really helped me get past the doubt.
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.
THEY ARE. The grass is the only place with snow.
I vehemently hate our postal carrier.
Omg!!! Target has Cadbury eggs?!?!? I love those eggs!!!! I see +2lbs to my figure in my near future. Lol
Bump away! (I took the D away because he doesn't sound very "dear" at present moment! )