I'm still in bed. I don't teach first period this morning so I'm being bad and going in later. I still sent DD with DH to day care so I can have a little me time! I'm debating getting up and having breakfast (belly DD is hungry) or just laying here for awhile to see if I can sleep more
@artroyer I'm jealous you can come in late if you don't teach first period!! I couldn't do that because I have morning homeroom!! What do you teach btw, I feel like I should know this!
I am worried ds is a dwarf. He is off the charts for height he is so short. But his head is off the charts for being so big. My family brushes me off like I am crazy. I realize he is little and can be just disproportioned right now and it can change. But the ped. kept.going. on. about his height at the last visit.
@drea926 I teach French... 8th grade and one hs class. That's how I'm able to do this. One day a week I don't have my hs class first period, so I don't actually TEACH until 11... there's a meeting I should go to at 930 today though. The middle school assumes I'm at the hs so it's no big deal when I walk in later. My schedule changes every year, so I can't usually do this! I'm taking advantage of it and it's amazing :-)
@drea926 I teach French... 8th grade and one hs class. That's how I'm able to do this. One day a week I don't have my hs class first period, so I don't actually TEACH until 11... there's a meeting I should go to at 930 today though. The middle school assumes I'm at the hs so it's no big deal when I walk in later. My schedule changes every year, so I can't usually do this! I'm taking advantage of it and it's amazing :-)
@drea926 I teach French... 8th grade and one hs class. That's how I'm able to do this. One day a week I don't have my hs class first period, so I don't actually TEACH until 11... there's a meeting I should go to at 930 today though. The middle school assumes I'm at the hs so it's no big deal when I walk in later. My schedule changes every year, so I can't usually do this! I'm taking advantage of it and it's amazing :-)
DH and I haven't had sex in almost 3 weeks. Just a combination of being tired, not in the mood, and busy. He's been working so late every night, I barely even see him lately. Still, I think the only time we've gone this long is when I was post partum, and it makes me a little sad Maybe tonight....
PCOS with long, irregular cycles First round of Clomid in May 2012= BFP #1, DD born January 2013 BFP #2 in January 2014, DS born September 2014
I hope I don't come off holier-than-thou or in any way douchy by this...
My FFFC is that I let the way the DC handles the tiny babies in his class get to me wayyy too much. I nurse DS at pick up, so I spend a little longer in the room at the end of the day than normal. They are not being mistreated or neglected by state (or normal person) standards, but I guess I just wish the babies had it... idk, better. It causes me pain when I hear them say things like, "Oh, she just wants to be held" somewhat flippantly while bouncing a crying newborn in a bouncer. I know they have so many other kids to care for, and like I said, they're not being neglected, I just have trouble not letting it get to me. Hearing a baby - especially a newborn - cry drives my anxiety through the roof, which is at the center of this problem. I have to work really hard to consciously let go of the things I cannot change when I drop off and pick up DS. Yesterday, one of the new teachers was bouncing one of the newborns in a bouncer to calm him down wayyy too hard - like, his little head was flopping around on the headrest, and he had a look of shock and fear in his eyes. One of the other teachers corrected her and told her to be more gentle, but I am having trouble letting go of the mental image. Like, how do you work for a childcare facility and not know how to rock a newborn?
Ok, long story short, I need to let. it. go. I just want to snuggle all the babies! lol
I hope I don't come off holier-than-thou or in any way douchy by this...
My FFFC is that I let the way the DC handles the tiny babies in his class get to me wayyy too much. I nurse DS at pick up, so I spend a little longer in the room at the end of the day than normal. They are not being mistreated or neglected by state (or normal person) standards, but I guess I just wish the babies had it... idk, better. It causes me pain when I hear them say things like, "Oh, she just wants to be held" somewhat flippantly while bouncing a crying newborn in a bouncer. I know they have so many other kids to care for, and like I said, they're not being neglected, I just have trouble not letting it get to me. Hearing a baby - especially a newborn - cry drives my anxiety through the roof, which is at the center of this problem. I have to work really hard to consciously let go of the things I cannot change when I drop off and pick up DS. Yesterday, one of the new teachers was bouncing one of the newborns in a bouncer to calm him down wayyy too hard - like, his little head was flopping around on the headrest, and he had a look of shock and fear in his eyes. One of the other teachers corrected her and told her to be more gentle, but I am having trouble letting go of the mental image. Like, how do you work for a childcare facility and not know how to rock a newborn?
Ok, long story short, I need to let. it. go. I just want to snuggle all the babies! lol
I get your feelings and don't think you're being "douchey" lol. Although I have to admit, as a newborn I totally rocked DS hard because he preferred faster, swift movements! My kid is going to be an aderenaline junky, I know it!
Yeah, DS and I had some pretty intense bounce sessions in the Moby to get him to sleep at a few points but this was more borderline dangerous. I think the fear in the little guy's eyes is what disturbed me the most.
@holly321...how tall is your DS? Sarah is tiny and I kinda worry abou the same thing!
A little over 27 inches. The lower part of his legs seems disproportioned too. Dh sees it, so I am not being a complete crazy person. How tall is Sarah?
DH and I haven't had sex in almost 3 weeks. Just a combination of being tired, not in the mood, and busy. He's been working so late every night, I barely even see him lately. Still, I think the only time we've gone this long is when I was post partum, and it makes me a little sad Maybe tonight....
I'm replacing sex in my life with a few BOBs. I don't plan to start dating again until at least 2015. Is that a FFFC?
DH and I haven't had sex in almost 3 weeks. Just a combination of being tired, not in the mood, and busy. He's been working so late every night, I barely even see him lately. Still, I think the only time we've gone this long is when I was post partum, and it makes me a little sad Maybe tonight....
We just recently got TV in our bedroom, so I am lounging in bed watching the news. Now I need to figure out how to move coffee this way with my mind. DD woke up screaming at 5:15 with a turd, so I fixed that, fed her, told her it was far too soon to get up, and left. She's aleep again, but she's been throwing me for nap loops lately. If she gets up around 7, it's 2 naps. If she sleeps in (which she does a lot when she gets this early am feed), I only get 1. Makes it very hard to plan my days. ETA: who am I kidding? The only thing I'm doing today is going to Target
LOL to the coffee part!
I totally hear you on the nap front. DS sometimes sleeps in these days (once he slept in til 9:15!) and naps are just totally crazy pants. I have no idea what's going on!
Not really worthy of a FFC but I've kinda been phoning it in here at work. I'm here physically, mentally not so much (as evidenced by me being on here). I don't know what my deal is. Think I'm getting the lovely S.A.D I get every January :P
Married: August 2008 DS born: February 2013 TTC #2: Nov. 14 Chemical pregnancy 09/16/15 BFP: 12/25/15 EDD: 09/04/16
OMG DC, you totally just reminded me that my FFFC should be that getting to eat whatever I want is definitely a (big) factor in my decision to want to extended BF...
I hate having sick kids. I know we all do, but I'm so exhausted right now, after only an hour and a half of sleep that I actually resent my dd begin sick. As if she could help it somehow.
I also resent dh sleeping peacefully after work while I'm up now, probably for the day, with a dd who was throwing up all night and a DS who is into literally everything at all times. I try not to feel this way, dh works so hard so I can stay home with the kids. But I can't help it. This pregnancy is kicking my a$$. I feel mean.
Also, I really hate the ads right beneath the post button on mobile. More often than not I bump the ad by accident.
Well, not sure about this one, I don't post a lot bc I'm always on my iPad and it's such a pain in the ass. I need to get one of those rubber attachable keyboards. I hate typing with one finger.
I have a true one this time around. I really really really want a cigarette. I have not had one in over a decade, so I will not be having one, but there are 3 really big things happening that we will not know more about any of them until early next week. And they are completely stressing me out.
The wine drinking cannot begin soon enough.
Ohhhh, I feel ya girl. I'm an ex-smoker too, but I definitely have those very stressful days (like this whole week- on my period and we're in the middle of moving this month) where I know I would just love to enjoy a ciggy.
@holly321...at her 9 month appointment (2 mths ago) she was 25 inches (she was 6 weeks early but that is still small) . She is just now getting to where her 3 month pants are too short. Her head measurement I have written down at home but it's pretty much what it should be for her age....Just curious, is he developmentally on track? With gross motor skills?
I think I am smarter than my husband. Just, all around. Book smart, street smart, common sense. That is not to say I think he is not smart or doesn't have common sense. I just have more lol. I'm pretty much a snob. :-*
@Dc2london - that sounds awesome. And to edit my first FFFC, apparently I may NOT go to Target, b/c it's FRIGGEN SNOWING AGAIN. WTF? And sticking like whoa. Mother %^+=#?!€. I mean... Arrrghhhh. #%^<€*+. $&@%^*#>.
Lady, I feel you. I am at the end of my rope with the being cooped up in the house with the kids all day every day. I really need to go to the library today but IDK if they will be open bc the schools had a delay today. GRRRRRRR.
Meanwhile, when the weather is like this, all I want to do is stay home in comfy clothes with hot chocolate an my fireplace, snuggling with DD while she's awake and reading when she naps. I like my job, but I soooo did not want to leave the house this morning!
I have EP since the day DD was born and I am done. I want my freedom back and am going to reduce pumping ASAP. We have been giving her one formula bottle a day for a few weeks to make sure she takes it fine and it doesn't bother her. Now, i'm done, selfish yes.....but I want to get to work on time and have my free time as actual free time not hooked up to a machine. FYI, she will be 1 on Feb 14 but I can't stick it out, especially since i'm not sure DD gets enough solids to go cold turkey WCM at a year.
I feel guilty but I think moving on is what is best for my sanity/stress levels. We have a 21mth old foster son and 11 mothe old DD, I need what little free time I can get.
I hate having sick kids. I know we all do, but I'm so exhausted right now, after only an hour and a half of sleep that I actually resent my dd begin sick. As if she could help it somehow.
I also resent dh sleeping peacefully after work while I'm up now, probably for the day, with a dd who was throwing up all night and a DS who is into literally everything at all times. I try not to feel this way, dh works so hard so I can stay home with the kids. But I can't help it. This pregnancy is kicking my a$$. I feel mean.
Also, I really hate the ads right beneath the post button on mobile. More often than not I bump the ad by accident.
I would be annoyed, too, man! Also, those ads on mobile make me batty.
There are about 500 things I SHOULD be doing right now, but instead I'm sitting here bumping. Why? Because I am in pain and resentful. I pinched a nerve in my neck while stretching on Wednesday, and while it's slowly getting better, I can still hardly move my head. So DH took on all childcare and other duties yesterday and most of them today, and he is right now gone with DD1 to pick up my parents at the airport. They, by the way, not only had to get on a flight that got them here a day later (which I posted about on Wednesday), but they then had a delay that caused them to miss their international flight out of Newark. They got on a later flight, so instead of getting in at noon today, they're arriving at 4:30pm.
And this all ticks me off because I do not deal well with pain. I mean, I do fine if everybody just leaves me the heck alone. But if I'm in pain and someone talks to me, I want to snap at them. Even if it's DH saying, "Honey, how about if you go and take a nap and I'll deal with the kids?" (True story. He said that yesterday. And I think I snapped at him for it. Poor guy.).
It's probably for the best that I never actually went into labor and had to go straight to c-sections. I probably would have been one of those women who didn't want anyone near her at all the whole time and if her husband talks to her she flips out and blames him for "doing this to her." That totally could be me.
BFP1: DD1 born April 2011 at 34w1d via unplanned c/s due to HELLP, DVT 1 week PP
BFP2: 3/18/12, blighted ovum, natural m/c @ 7w4d BFP3: DD2 born Feb 2013 at 38w4d via unplanned RCS due to uterine dehiscence
I think I am smarter than my husband. Just, all around. Book smart, street smart, common sense. That is not to say I think he is not smart or doesn't have common sense. I just have more lol. I'm pretty much a snob. :-*
Haha, this has caused the demise of a few romantic relationships of mine. I like to be as close to even as possible, even if it's in different areas. I just can't with guys who aren't on my level. #snobbierthanu
Wow am I bitchy today.... I have another. I hate the postal service where I live. I haven't gotten mail in 8 days because I refuse to shovel my LAWN to let the postman walk across the grass to deliver mail. The sidewalk and the front walk are cleared but the jerk walks across the grass instead of around. So now he goes down the neighbor's UNshoveled front walk, to the street, PAST my house, and back up my other neighbor's front walk.
I realize I might not have mail every day, but I find it impossible to believe I haven't received anything in 8 days. Especially when all my bills are coming due and I have yet to receive the statements.
Haha, as a teacher, I should probably say "He's just a different kind of smart." And he is, and that is probably why we compliment each other. But sometimes I just have to shake my head at him lol.
My son comes into my room at 8:20 with the baby and says "mom wake up it is 8:20". Crap they need to be on the bus at 8:30!!! So I fly out of bed get them all dressed, they showered yesterday but I spritz them all down this colgne and perfum just incase. I do all 3 kids hair, and they are all looking good. Breakfast what about food?!? Its is all good they have been up since SIX AM! They have just been hanging out playing. They came upstairs and made themselves toast and poured some milk (I tell them to eat breakfast in case that is not enough). When the baby woke up at 7 they took him out of his crib and played with him for almost an hour and a half. Now some people would see this as something to be ashamed up, and in a way I should. I am some lazy ass mom sleeping while my kids are up hanging out on a freaking school day. FFC part is I see it is a success. HELLO I slept till the blessed time of 8:20, and I still managed to get them all off to school on time. Yeah they might have gotten a cologne bath, but it is all good. From now on I guess I can't use them as my alarm clock, and I will have to set it to get up (on school days) because I made it work today, but we can't do that every day.
My FFFC is that I realized I am a really judgey Mama. I NEVER say anything to other moms about their parenting style but I constantly judge it if it is not what I am doing. It is really terrible, being a mom is hard enough without other moms judging your decisions. Like I said, I would never openly say something to another mom about her choices, but I am always thinking it anytime what they do is different than what I think should be done. I hate it about myself, but I can't control my initial reactions or thoughts. I assume other moms judge me all the time too...
On a lighter note, I am supposed to be studying right now but I am bumping instead...
My son comes into my room at 8:20 with the baby and says "mom wake up it is 8:20". Crap they need to be on the bus at 8:30!!! So I fly out of bed get them all dressed, they showered yesterday but I spritz them all down this colgne and perfum just incase. I do all 3 kids hair, and they are all looking good. Breakfast what about food?!? Its is all good they have been up since SIX AM! They have just been hanging out playing. They came upstairs and made themselves toast and poured some milk (I tell them to eat breakfast at school in case that is not enough). When the baby woke up at 7 they took him out of his crib and played with him for almost an hour and a half. Now some people would see this as something to be ashamed up, and in a way I should. I am some lazy ass mom sleeping while my kids are up hanging out on a freaking school day. FFC part is I see it is a success. HELLO I slept till the blessed time of 8:20, and I still managed to get them all off to school on time. Yeah they might have gotten a cologne bath, but it is all good. From now on I guess I can't use them as my alarm clock, and I will have to set it to get up (on school days) because I made it work today, but we can't do that every day.
This is absolutely AMAZING. You should feel very proud of yourself that your kids are so independent and self-sufficient!!! I can only hope that my family will one day look like this!
I think I am smarter than my husband. Just, all around. Book smart, street smart, common sense. That is not to say I think he is not smart or doesn't have common sense. I just have more lol. I'm pretty much a snob. :-*
Haha, this has caused the demise of a few romantic relationships of mine. I like to be as close to even as possible, even if it's in different areas. I just can't with guys who aren't on my level. #snobbierthanu
Yeah, my type is definitely smart, nerdy/geeky guys. At the risk of sounding braggy, by most measures of intelligence I'm in the top 1%. Standardized tests, GPA, IQ... And more importantly, I love to learn simply for the sake of learning something new.
Of course there are tons and tons of people who are smarter than me, of course, and I don't think less of people who aren't as smart as me, just as I wouldn't want to be looked down upon by people smarter than me, but I don't think I'd be very compatible with someone who isn't at least close to my level intellectually.
DH was never as motivated as I was by getting good grades - if he was interested in a subject, he did well and if he wasn't, he did just enough to get by. But he's extremely intelligent, and we would often stay up all night talking about anything and everything. Not so much lately though, ever since DD was born we value our sleep a lot more! :-p
I tried to read the OP but got hung up on "love tits".
Also, I tend to buy a pack of smokes once every year or two, when my mother comes out. It's horrible for me. It's a ridiculous urge to give in to. But it gives me something I can go do that will immediately cause my mother to walk away. I end up taking way too many showers and washing too much laundry, every time, to get rid of the residue I am certainly acquiring every time that I do it..
That's not really my FFFC, though. Mine is that I am working to go no-contact with the woman this year... it's a necessary thing to do (not just to stop the smoking urge LOL). My mother is not a good person, and despite living on the other side of the country, she continues to send her toxic thoughts my way. The choice has been a difficult one, and I'm still working on the best way to walk away - but now that the holidays are over, it's time to figure it out before she tries to visit again.
*Spontaneous* OHSS diagnosed 08.06.2012 Right ovary removed 09.04.2012 via vertical laparotomy Essure implant placed on remaining tube 06.13.2013; successful followup scan 09.30.2013
Now, while I haven't tossed my cookies yet, my MS is definitely affecting my appetite. And I have lost 5 lbs since before Christmas. That includes making some bad food choices. And to be honest, I am kind of thrilled. I was hoping to lose all my pregnancy weight from DS (before pregnancy) and now I am 2 lbs away from that. Mind you, I am not going to force that weight loss. If it happens, it happens. But right now every time I weigh myself and see another pound gone, I am like, "right on!!!"
My son is chewing on the paint in his crib right now. If I stop him, he'll freak out and not nap and I'll have to nurse him to sleep. If I let him, he'll eat paint (again). It's probably lead-free, right? Surely they must use paint that won't really mess him up in a crib, right?
Re: FFFC
First round of Clomid in May 2012= BFP #1, DD born January 2013
BFP #2 in January 2014, DS born September 2014
DS born: February 2013
TTC #2: Nov. 14
Chemical pregnancy 09/16/15
BFP: 12/25/15 EDD: 09/04/16
I also resent dh sleeping peacefully after work while I'm up now, probably for the day, with a dd who was throwing up all night and a DS who is into literally everything at all times. I try not to feel this way, dh works so hard so I can stay home with the kids. But I can't help it. This pregnancy is kicking my a$$. I feel mean.
Also, I really hate the ads right beneath the post button on mobile. More often than not I bump the ad by accident.
Ohhhh, I feel ya girl. I'm an ex-smoker too, but I definitely have those very stressful days (like this whole week- on my period and we're in the middle of moving this month) where I know I would just love to enjoy a ciggy.
Shoot me now...
I ate a big bowl of pasta for BREAKFAST....Don't judge lol It was delicious, I saw it in fridge and wanted it, there was no stopping me.
*bowing my head in shame*
Meanwhile, when the weather is like this, all I want to do is stay home in comfy clothes with hot chocolate an my fireplace, snuggling with DD while she's awake and reading when she naps. I like my job, but I soooo did not want to leave the house this morning!
I have EP since the day DD was born and I am done. I want my freedom back and am going to reduce pumping ASAP. We have been giving her one formula bottle a day for a few weeks to make sure she takes it fine and it doesn't bother her. Now, i'm done, selfish yes.....but I want to get to work on time and have my free time as actual free time not hooked up to a machine. FYI, she will be 1 on Feb 14 but I can't stick it out, especially since i'm not sure DD gets enough solids to go cold turkey WCM at a year.
I feel guilty but I think moving on is what is best for my sanity/stress levels. We have a 21mth old foster son and 11 mothe old DD, I need what little free time I can get.
And this all ticks me off because I do not deal well with pain. I mean, I do fine if everybody just leaves me the heck alone. But if I'm in pain and someone talks to me, I want to snap at them. Even if it's DH saying, "Honey, how about if you go and take a nap and I'll deal with the kids?" (True story. He said that yesterday. And I think I snapped at him for it. Poor guy.).
It's probably for the best that I never actually went into labor and had to go straight to c-sections. I probably would have been one of those women who didn't want anyone near her at all the whole time and if her husband talks to her she flips out and blames him for "doing this to her." That totally could be me.
BFP1: DD1 born April 2011 at 34w1d via unplanned c/s due to HELLP, DVT 1 week PP
BFP3: DD2 born Feb 2013 at 38w4d via unplanned RCS due to uterine dehiscence
I realize I might not have mail every day, but I find it impossible to believe I haven't received anything in 8 days. Especially when all my bills are coming due and I have yet to receive the statements.
On a lighter note, I am supposed to be studying right now but I am bumping instead...
Yeah, my type is definitely smart, nerdy/geeky guys. At the risk of sounding braggy, by most measures of intelligence I'm in the top 1%. Standardized tests, GPA, IQ... And more importantly, I love to learn simply for the sake of learning something new.
Of course there are tons and tons of people who are smarter than me, of course, and I don't think less of people who aren't as smart as me, just as I wouldn't want to be looked down upon by people smarter than me, but I don't think I'd be very compatible with someone who isn't at least close to my level intellectually.
DH was never as motivated as I was by getting good grades - if he was interested in a subject, he did well and if he wasn't, he did just enough to get by. But he's extremely intelligent, and we would often stay up all night talking about anything and everything. Not so much lately though, ever since DD was born we value our sleep a lot more! :-p
Right ovary removed 09.04.2012 via vertical laparotomy
Essure implant placed on remaining tube 06.13.2013; successful followup scan 09.30.2013