Happy 2014, ladies! I know 2013 was a roller coaster for most of us, but I'd say 2014 is shaping up to be an exciting year with so much to look forward to!
Just a reminder, this is a weekly check-in for May Mamas who have previously experienced a miscarriage, stillbirth, or loss of a child at any age. We're happy to have this community of women who understand the challenges of being PGAL during with wonderful and terrifying experience.
How many weeks?
How are you feeling? (physically and emotionally)
Any appointments, ultrasounds, or milestones this week?
Apples and Onions this week?
GTKY: Describe your 2013 in 3 words or less.
BFP#1 8/3/12~EDD 4/1/13~Natural M/C 9/1/12-9w6d
BFP#2 5/30/13~EDD 2/3/14~Confirmed CP 5/31/13
7/12/13 Hysteroscopy & Lap Lysis of Adhesions
1st Cycle on Clomid Aug '13: BFP#3 8/24/13~EDD 5/3/14
Hoping Third Time's a Charm!!- IT'S A GIRL!!!!
KAYLIE MARIE IS HERE! BORN 5/4/14
All AL-ers welcome in my posts! 
Re: ~PGAL Check-In~
Luna, thanks for always running this check-in!
BFP#1 5/12/13 EDD 1/10/14 MMC 6/20/13
BFP #2 8/27/13 EDD 5/5/14 **hoping for our rainbow baby** We are TEAM PINK!!!!
22w 1d
How are you feeling? (physically and emotionally)
Physically- cramping pretty bad right now cause I found out something horrible this morning and it fucked me up bad.
Emotionally- absolutely devistated! MH has been distant and coming home from work drunk lately and always getting beyond drunk at home on weekends. Well last night he didn't text me that he was off til 30mins after he usually gets off I figured he had to work late to complete work by the end of the year. He then took 15-30 mins longer than usual to drive home which should have been a quicker drive since he would have missed the after work traffic. He shows up with red eyes and I'm like great he's drunk again. He kept stumbling around and couldn't speak right and kept eating and eating then he passed out while it was still early. The last weekish he has been getting up in the middle of the night to go sleep on the couch and he did it again about 530 this morn but left his phone in the room. I waited til I was sure he was back asleep and went through his texts expecting to find ones bitching about me. I found a couple of those but then when I looked at another convo I found text between him and an old coworker with him asking to buy weed from the guy. I started shaking and my heart was racing. I knew he use to smoke pot but he stopped, before we got together, for his job. I told him in the very beginning when we were talking that if he ever did drugs again I'd be gone. He swore he never would saying he'd never risk his job or me. I'm alone and terrified of having to raise this child on my own but I can not be with a drug addict and will not subject my child to that. But I am scared to confront him on my own. I wish I had someone to help me right now.
Any appointments, ultrasounds, or milestones this week?
Appt tomorrow.
Apples and Onions this week?
I have no apples right now only a pos husband that chooses substances over his wife and unborn child.
GTKY: Describe your 2013 in 3 words or less.
A fucking nightmare.
Though looks like it'll be better than 2014!
ETA: confronted him about it and tried to take it out of his pocket. He won't take it out and would not admit there was anything in his pocket then after a couple hrs of me just standing in front of him trying to talk to him and him saying he's not ready to talk about it he finally admitted it is "legal weed" aka kush. That incense shit people smoke to get high but drug test can't detect. The same shit that nearly killed his uncle just a year ago that left him with only 34% of his heart functional. I told him to let me see it and he told me he'd give it to me when he's done. I felt the wrapper through his pants pocket so I know that that is what it is. He says he's only been doing it like a week and a half but won't talk about it any more than that.
Apples - Had a beautiful Christmas with DH and his family. This time of year always makes me so grateful for the small things in our lives.
Onions - I dont really have any to report. I guess I am a little sad that we are taking down all the holiday decorations today.
BFP #1 - 3/23/13 // EDD - 11/27/13 // M/MC - 5/3/13 // D&C - 5/4/13
BFP #2 - 8/26/13 // EDD - 5/10/14 // Born 5/18/14
@lunabug924 – I’m sorry you’re missing your grandmother. I was very close to mine. I’m not really a spiritual person, but I like to believe that she knows that I have a LO on the way. It would make her so happy.
@coyadlik – my husband would LOVE the bracket method. J
@katypatrick – I’m so sorry you’re going through this stressful time. I don’t have advice other than to take care of yourself and I hope that a solution can be found quickly for the benefit of all of you.
Onions - Now that the holidays are over and I'm not as busy, I feel like I've taken a backslide in grieving my Mom. It's only been a month and I know that I have many hard days to come still, but for the last week I've really had a rough time of it.
1st BFP-8/17/12! Missed Miscarriage discovered @ 8 week US. D&C.
2nd BFP-2/13/13! Blighted Ovum discovered @ 8 week US. Natural miscarriage.
3rd BFP-5/22/13! By early June, progesterone plummeting. Another loss.
August 2013 - started Donor Egg process, but surprise BFP with my own eggs.
Dear Son born 5/28/14
How are you feeling? (physically and emotionally). Pretty good for both! My energy has returned, and I'm just really happy the holidays are over. Looking forward to relaxing for the next few months.
Any appointments, ultrasounds, or milestones this week? Nothing until my 24 week appointment in 2 weeks.
Apples and Onions this week? Apple: my brother surprised me and had our nursery painted as a Christmas gift. It looks amazing!! My mom is also gifting us the crib and changing table, which we are ordering this week. I cannot wait to start on the nursery!
Onion: I really need to clean out the nursery before everything arrives.
GTKY: Describe your 2013 in 3 words or less: A new chapter.
@katypatrick So sorry for what you're going through. I'll keep you in my prayers.
How many weeks? 20w today. Halfway there!
How are you feeling? (physically and emotionally) Just fat. Haha. My belly is beginning to be very obvious and I'm struggling with body image. I've also taken two weeks off from the gym for the holidays, so that's probably part of the problem. Still sleeping a lot. Other than that, I can't complain. I'm getting more and more excited about our sweet baby boy with each passing day.
Any appointments, ultrasounds, or milestones this week? I have a checkup on Monday. I'm pretty sure I'll just hear the heartbeat, and I got a fetal Doppler for Christmas so I can listen at home, but I'm still looking forward to it. I'm waiting for lab results from my endocrinologist appointment before Christmas; I'm hoping it will come back with good news before Monday so I can take that info with me to my OB.
Apples and Onions this week?
Apple: I felt the baby kick this morning! I have felt several things that I wasn't sure about, and this was the first time I was certain of it. It felt like my little guy was dancing in there. My husband put his hand on my belly and it stopped for a minute, then we both said "Oh!" at the same time. It makes me so happy we got to experience that together.
Onion: Can't think of anything!
GTKY: Describe your 2013 in 3 words or less.
New experiences galore
BFP # 1 - 12/19/09 EDD 08/27/10 - D&C 1/26/10 @ 9w5d
BFP # 2 - 06/05/10 EDD 02/17/11, DS1 born on 2/14/11
BFP # 3 - 04/10/13 EDD 12/21/13 - D&C 05/15/13 @ 8w4d
BFP # 4 - 07/27/13 EDD 04/08/14 - CP 07/29/13
BFP # 5 - 09/14/13 EDD 05/28/14, DS2 born on 5/22/14
How are you feeling? (physically and emotionally) overall good
Any appointments, ultrasounds, or milestones this week?
Had an appt this morning, everything looking good. Found out we have to go back for another a/s because they couldn't get a few of the measurements. So we'll get to see LO again soon!
Then my MF mentioned how our next appointment will be our last monthly before we move to every two weeks! Crazy!!
Apples and Onions this week?
A- lots of baby movement which is awesome because of our AP
O- I had a nasty bug thing on New Year's Eve which freaked me out a bit because I was all crampy and had lower back pain so I over thought everything. Luckily it subsided after about 2 hours.
GTKY: Describe your 2013 in 3 words or less.
Bad to good
little chkn born 06/30/11
baby chkn born 04/22/14
05/13
07/13
((Hugs)) I hope that you two can work through whatever is going on. I also hope that you have supportive people around you for lots of love. Take good care of yourself and LO. ((Hugs))
little chkn born 06/30/11
baby chkn born 04/22/14
05/13
07/13
How are you feeling? (physically and emotionally) Physically, fine. Emotionally - PGAL brain is kicking my butt this week. I haven't felt baby move just yet - and while rationally I understand that's totally normal, I've had a handful of people tell me that I "should" be feeling him by now. And I feel like my bump is getting smaller.
Any appointments, ultrasounds, or milestones this week? Doppler check tomorrow morning... because I'm crazy...
Apples and Onions this week?
A - the weather in Texas is beautiful right now! Have been spending a lot of time outdoors with my sweet hubby and dog. I really love my little family!
O - I honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through another 21 weeks of PGAL brain. The fear and anxiety is overwhelming. I have GOT to find a way to "let go and let God"...
GTKY: Describe your 2013 in 3 words or less. Glad it's over.