DH is pissed at me and I think he should not be. Actually, no need to take a side, this is just a vent.
I told DH this morning that this is something of a break month. We won't prevent, but we won't really try either. We have the genetics appointment coming up and I don't want to spend the holiday break timing sex and worrying about how I won't be pregnant again. Also, we are in a rut and I'm bored as hell but since he is sensitive and shy about sex I didn't want to offend him so I just decided to make an effort to make it fun again.
Anyway, I told him about taking the break today. Then tonight mentioned that I was interested. Then he came to our room and said, "ok, baby time." I said, "no, just fun." He said, "well maybe we've been timing it all wrong this whole time."
I was instantly put out of the mood. It was so hurtful, even though I know he didn't mean for it to be. I've been timing it every which way for the last 3 years. I hate it. We should have 3 more babies by now! I just wanted to forget all of that for one month. I mentally prepared myself over the last week. I've been talking myself down from peeing on OPKs. I am proud to say I haven't checked FF and I have no idea what CD it is right now (I could ballpark it, but I don't know exactly).
I didn't even know what to say after that. He asked, and I told him what I was feeling, but he became defensive and told me he was just joking. I do believe he gets it on some level, but he gets so sensitive about being "wrong" or doing something "wrong" that he goes straight into defensive mode and forgets that there's another person in the room with feelings.
Aaarrrrgh. 2IF has really effed things up in this house. I want my normal life back!!!
Please feel free to share your DH vents here. Or bring a stick and help me beat on 2IF for awhile.