I just have this horrible, overwhelming depressed feeling that won't go away. I spent all day in bed, hiding under the covers, just crying. I've struggled with depression before and I just feel like I'm going back and I can't do anything to stop it. I'm so sorry to just bitch, but I really just don't know what to do. Thanks for letting me vent.
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Just got in my car, leaving the doctor. As soon as she came in the room and asked me a few general (how are you today, what exactly is going on type stuff) she immediately asked about my recent eating and sleeping habits. Then asked how I've been feeling since hubby started working later. I told her if I do fall asleep, I normally wake up at least 6 times a night, or wake up around 2-3 and am up until 10 that night (maybe with a 30-45 minute nap somewhere inbetween). As far as eating, I have no appetite. I'll be absolutely starving, but nothing sounds good or it makes me sick, so I'm eating and keeping down what I can. I also told her I had a cold over the weekend which also screwed with my appetite. And with hubby, I feel like I've been alone all week. He leaves at 6:45 am and I get up, get him breakfast, make him lunch. Then he normally isn't home until about 7-7:30. He is on his feet and lifting heavy stuff all day so when he gets home he takes a shower and is normally asleep right after.
She looked exhausted just from listening to me. But she did make me feel a lot better.
She wrote me a prescription for something she's referred to a lot of patients to help with sleep and she said even some patients said it helped with appetite as well. Then she gave me some woman-to-woman advice: make hubby take me out. She told me to tell him it's doctors orders, lol. Even if we just go sit at a table at the mall, to just sit down and talk and spend some time together. Try to get a good nights sleep and eat as best I can. She said she really just thinks I sound like I'm way too tired and stressed. She said to just take it easy and wake up every morning starting with positive thoughts. She said to relax for a few days and if next week I don't feel any better, she would refer me to a therapist.
I do feel a ton better already, just from being able to talk to her and getting support from you girls. I'm gonna go walk around the mall, get a bite to eat, and spoil myself with some new lotion, candle, and perfume from Bath & Body Works.
Re: I just need to cry for a minute... *UPDATE*
i'm sorry you're feeling so depressed. i hope it gets better for you quickly.
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Then I peed on a stick...
A little retail therapy never hurt anyone!
I also treated myself to a little box of chocolate covered strawberries.
I'm now home, cuddling with my fur babies, drinking hot apple cider, eating my strawberries, burning one of my candles and watching Now and Then.
I feel so much better just from hearing what is probably wrong. I can't wait to try this medicine and hopefully get a great nights sleep!
You girls are the best! I can't thank y'all enough for listening to me. (: (((((((hugs)))))))