So my a/s is at 2:15 and i thought i'd be okay but as i get closer i find myself more scared than excited. I was 22 weeks when i had my a/s with the perinatilogy office last year an that was the day i found out the baby had triploidy was missing a stomach and had many other problems. I was all alone at that appt which was filled with many many tears after finding out my baby wouldn't survive outside my body. The whole time i'm being told this and during my amniocentesis the baby seemed perfectly fine and was kicking and swimming. A few days later i get told i have two weeks to make a very difficult decision. Luckily DH is coming along for this one; but i'll be in the same ultrasound room and i'll have the same doctor. I have this AMAZING genetics counselor that helped me so much through everything. Even to the point where she called out a doctor that i was seen by on the fact that she made me feel as if i had done sometjing to cause all of this to happen and the nerve to say "is this thing even gonna live?" So you can see this woman became a very special person to me. Well she is out on maternity leave so if god forbid something is wrong she wont be my counselor. I brought all this up to DH and of course he tried to reassure me but i'm so scared to even go i think i'll burst into tears when i walk in. The last time i sat there watchin the baby withthe mute technician and i never imagined things would turn out as
they did. I guess i just wanted to vent on here because my husband lost a child too and i know he hurts from it but he never had the same connection i did. He didnt feel the babies last kicks inside him and he didnt have to watch the baby on the screen kicking as they told me my baby had no chance. I know we all have our own stories so i wanted to vent on here to people that might understand what im going through. I guess thats it sorry its so long....
Thank you to everyone for your thoughts and prayers. The baby is doing very well and i am now no longer high risk. Turns out my niece was the only one that guessed right and were having a very healthy girl. She is already stubborn like her dad it took forever to get pics.
My Alice in Wonderland Baby Shower 3/30/2014
October 30, 2011
Re: Very nervous for my a/s (Loss mentioned) vent UPDATE!!
I know there's nothing I can say that will help, but I'll be thinking of you and crossing everything I have hoping that this baby is perfectly healthy and will be in your arms come April.
Sending lots of positive a/s thoughts!
Natural miscarriage @ 8 weeks - 3/8/2005
Big Brother "Skippy" born - 2/28/2007
Missed miscarriage - (EDD 3/5/2013) - D&E @ 11 weeks - 8/8/2012
"Hen" (EDD 6/7/2013) - born sleeping @ 19 weeks - 1/15/2013
"G-Unit" born - 4/14/2014 and he's 100% perfection!!
I too was very anxious for my A/S (that's when we learned we had TTTS and everything went downhill)... I'm glad your DH can be there. As I'm typing I realize it may be over - I hope you can update us soon!
Continued prayers ...
October 30, 2011
BFP #1 11/19/12 EDD: 7/25/13 Natural MC on 12/31/12 at 10w4d
BFP#2 3/1/13 EDD: 11/5/13 Missed MC 4/9/13 at 10w D&C 4/11/13
Baby #2 diagnosed with Trisomy 16. Diagnosed Hetero MTHFR.
BFP#3 8/5/13 EDD: 4/13/14 Team Green Turned Team Blue! Our rainbow baby, Griffin R arrived via c-section (breech since 20w) on 4/11/14.
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Natural miscarriage @ 8 weeks - 3/8/2005
Big Brother "Skippy" born - 2/28/2007
Missed miscarriage - (EDD 3/5/2013) - D&E @ 11 weeks - 8/8/2012
"Hen" (EDD 6/7/2013) - born sleeping @ 19 weeks - 1/15/2013
"G-Unit" born - 4/14/2014 and he's 100% perfection!!