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I need all the hugs

So it's been almost a month since my grandfather passed. I've cried some and I'm working through my grief. I think it's now really hitting me. I guess I was in shock at first and just in survival mode that I didn't have to time for me to grieve. I was trying to be strong for my Mom and Grandmother. I have gone back on my antidepressants at least for a few months. I am not in the mood to celebrate Christmas but I will because of DD. I am uninspired with what to buy people this year. I have adopted 4 angel tree kids (this is more than we normally do) and honestly if I am still feeling this way next year we probably will just buy $50 GC for everyone and spend the rest of our $$ on angel tree kids. I am feeling like his death has changed me for the good in certain ways. Sorry to be a Debbie Downer, DH is asleep and I really don't want to bother my grandmother or mom with this.

Re: I need all the hugs

  • ((hugs)) So sorry you're feeling sad. It will get easier with time... even if that's cliche to say. 

    I hope you're able to enjoy the holidays despite the shitiness of your loss. 

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you.
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  • (((Hugs))) losing Grandparents is tough. It will feel different next year. The first year is the toughest and all the first holidays.


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  • I'm sorry for your loss. I think your grandpa would be proud to know you are donating gifts in his honor to kids less fortunate. Hugs
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  • Big hugs. Holidays are hard for me too. I haven't lost a grandparent but I lost my dad 5 years ago. It's a lot harder when you have kids to keep it together for, even if they don't know what's going on. Maybe there is a new tradition you can start with your DD in honor of your grandfather. I'm not sure what, I'll try to brain storm and come back. Maybe an angel ornament with his name?

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  • Maybe his death is affecting me in a good way. Maybe I needed the kick in the pants to do more charity work and help others. Who knows. But last night I had the strangest dream about my grandfather and family.
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